"Dick
here. I'm not able to come to the phone right now. If it's
an
emergency, you know how to reach me."
The shrill
beep of the voice mail echoed through the room. It had
been two
weeks since the fight and with each unanswered phone call it
became
increasingly clear that Roy had single-handedly ended his
friendship
with Dick. He didn't bother to leave a message this time.
Clearly,
Dick wanted nothing to do with him.
"Daddy?" a small voice interrupted Roy's thoughts.
"Yeah, sweetie?"
Roy turned the bedside lamp on, revealing his
daughter clad in the
Wonder Woman nightgown Donna had gotten her, and
that she was
steadily outgrowing.
Lian blinked and rubbed her eyes at the
sudden increase in light. "I
had a bad dream."
Roy
patted the bed; Lian took the cue and bounded up onto the bed.
"I'm
sorry, sweetie. You wanna talk about it?"
Lian thought for a moment. "No."
"Okaaaaaaaay. You want a glass of water?"
"No."
Roy sighed. "What can I do to make you feel better?"
Lian gave Roy her best
puppy dog impression. "Can I stay with you
tonight?"
Roy smiled. "Sure, Etai Yazi."
Lian grinned and dove
under the covers. Roy turned the lamp off and
after a brief tickle
fight, which ended as soon as Roy aggravated his
cracked ribs,
father and daughter settled in for the night.
"Daddy?" Lian called out sleepily through the dark.
"Yeah?" a sleepy Roy responded.
"When is Unca' Nightwing coming back?"
Roy's heart clenched. "I don't know."
"I miss him."
"I know, sweetie."
"You're happier when he's here."
Roy lay in silence, absorbing
the insight a three year old had just
administered.
"Night, Daddy."
"Night, Lian."
Lian drifted off
to sleep, but sleep was not to come for Roy. He lay
awake 'till
dawn, but then the time for wondering was gone. A new day
had
begun.
*
*
Dick couldn't sleep. Since his fight
with Roy, his whole world had
turned upside down. That same day,
feeling he had driven the love of
his life away, he'd gone to the
clocktower. Barbara had been
surprised to see him. Without saying
a word, Dick had picked her up
and kissed her passionately,
carrying her to bed. Since that night,
he'd spent every night
there with Barbara. He quit his job at the
police department in
Bludhaven. He still had his apartment there but
hadn't set foot in
it in over a week. All his clothes and vital
belongings were with
him in Gotham.
Dick sighed. He turned his focus from the
ceiling to the woman
sleeping next to him. Barbara was a good
woman, and passionate too
when she let herself. And Dick did love
her very much. She'd been his
first kiss, his high school
sweetheart (before Bruce had interfered),
the first person he'd
ever had sex with. He knew he'd come to her
because she was
comfortable, but Roy had stolen his heart years ago.
It had
taken him awhile to realize that the reason Roy annoyed him so
much
was because he was in love with Roy. He was in love with a man
he
couldn't have. Since that realization, his love life had
been...
tumultuous at best. His on again off again affair with
Barbara, his
fiery romance with Kori, his relationship with Joe.
Not to mention his
entanglements with Emily, the alleged Black
Widow, and Meggie, an
abused girl turned murderer. Last but not
least was his brief fuck
buddy arrangement with Garth, until it
had become clear that Garth was
falling for him. There were other
faces and names he couldn't
remember filling his sheets, but
thinking back over them all, Dick
realized he was trying to fill
the empty hole in his heart. A hole
called Roy.
Dick gazed
at Barbara's sleeping form, brushing a piece of hair off
her face.
It was time to stop pretending. He loved Barbara; even if
it
wasn't in the same way he loved Roy, he loved her. It was time to
do
the right thing.
