Chapter Two

At Lunch

Bella's POV

I can't believe that they are here. Back into my life. Edward he was trying to understand. I know he knows that I am no longer human but I can tell that he wanted me to tell him what happen. But he left so why would he care. I am so confuse. Throught out the day I did nothing but think about him and the Cullens.

It was lunch time and as I walk into the cafeteria, when I got there I was turning around. Untill.....

"Bella." Damn that Pixie. I took a couple of deep breathes even though I didn't have to. I turn around and saw them looking at me. Edward got up and head towards me. I wanted to look away but he held my eyes. I felt like melting all over again. Get a grip Bella. He doesn't love you. Be strong. Be strong.

"Hello Bella, we want you to come sit with us. Please." His velvet voice as just as I remembered it. I couldn't speak so I started toward the table. I looked at everyone of them. Emotions playing on their faces. Alice was smile, Jasper was confused, Emmett was speechless, Rosalie was shocked, and Edward.....well too many emotions were playing on his face.

"Bella, how are you alive. We all thought that you got killed by a bear." Alice was the first one to speak.

"A few months after you l-life, I was bit by someone I don't know who. He or she came from behind me without saying a word and bit me. The next thing I know I was screaming in a empty house in the middle of nowhere. I was alone, who ever it was bit me and left. I was in pain for three days alone. Wanting to die because of the fire. I was screaming for help hopeing some one would hear me. But no help came. When I woke up, I was thirsty, so so so thirsty, but I couldn't bring myself to kill a human. Then I smelt a mountain lion. I chased after it and drain it dry." I chuckled. I looked at their faces so into my story so I contuined. "After wards I ran to the border line of Lapush and waited for the wolves to come. I let the wind blow my scent. They didn't kill me because I was their friend but Sam told me to leave. I did after I helped them plan my 'death'. Killed be a bear. Jacob called me four years after that to tell me that Charlie died. I blamed myself for his death. If I was more aware of things, acted more alive then I was maybe both him and I would be alive. I went to Italy because I remember Edward mention the Volturi. I was part of their guard for a while. Still am but only when they need me. Thats when I found my 'gift'. I can absorb powers from other vampires and block out attacks." I finish there and waited for someone to talk. But none did.

Edward was the first to speak. "You join the Volturi. Why?"

"What else was I suppose to do Edward. I had no one to help me. I had no family." I snapped.

"You could have come and found us Bella. We would have to taken care of you." Oh that did it. That let the monster in me really upset. Now I was screaming.

"COME FIND YOU. YOU LEFT, YOU DIDN'T WANT ME. WHY WOULD I COME AND FIND YOU?" But before anyone could say anything I left. If I could cry I would have been. It felt like my heart was breaking all over again.

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Edward's POV

She was right. We did leave her. After I heard her story, I knew that we did not do her any good. I left her unprotected. What was I thinking.

"Edward stop feeling guilty. You did what you thought was best." Jasper thought.

"Like any good that did. No matter how hard I tried to keep her from this life, she still became a vampire. I should have never left."

"She will come around Edward. I promise, see." Alice said sadly. Inviting me too look in her head from her last vision. It was a vision of Bella and I kissing in our meadow.

"I will do what ever it takes to get her back." The bell rang letting us know that it was time to head towards our class rooms.

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Bella's POV

How can he say that to me. 'You could have come looking for us.' Who does he think he is a Greek God. Ok so maybe he looks like one. I mean he does look great after all this time. Stop it Bella. He doesn't want you. Get it together girl. Maybe I should leave. Go back to Volterra. Aro will welcome me with open arms. I mean I did join his guard. I'm still in his guard but only when he needs me.

I walk into my next class, (Which is History) thinking of what I should do next. I wasn't even thinking about what I was doing when I ran into someone. I looked up to see Jasper stareing at me.

"Hello Jasper. I see that we are in the same history. Oh and look the seat next to me is open." Great why is it that every class that I have with one of the Cullens the seat right next to me is open. I'm really hating fate right now. Oh whatever you want to call it. Either way I hate it. Jasper pulled out the seat and set down next to me.

"Bella, I want to say I'm sorry, about what happen on your 18th birthday, if I would have kept it under control then maybe Edward would have been the one to change you." He said this low enough so the courious humans wouldn't be listening. So I respond the same way.

"Jasper it was his idea to leave, not yours. You did nothing wrong so please don't feel guilty. I don't even blame him for my changing. I was a danger magnet as everyone puts it." I laugh at myself. "I was just at the wrong place at the wrong time."

"He loves you still you know. It was hard on everyone after we left. No one was the same. But it was harder for him. He didn't want to live anymore to be truthful. He loves you, always has and always will. You have to give him another chance." Jasper and I had never been close, but I sure we would have if I wasn't human when we first met. But ever since he went with Alice to protect me from James, I always felt that he was like a big brother.

I smiled at him taking in everything he just said to me. Did Edward love me? Could I take him back just like that?

"I don't know if I can do that Jazz. He left me once, whats to say that he won't do it again? I couldn't handle letting him back into my life just to have him walk right out of it again. I need time to think things through." The bell rang and I was out the door walking to my car. I saw Edward standing by his Volvo and looking sad. I gave him a small smile before getting in my car and driving away.

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