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Chapter 02 my past...

I thought that riding my Ducati would make my pain go away. But I realised it was a terrible mistake. I was wrong, so wrong and it was awful. Why this kind of things always happened?

Was it fate? Or an unfortunate combination of fate? My tormenting questions found no answers.

What could I do? I am only human; I could also die anytime. Perhaps today, tomorrow or any other day. I couldn't control entirely my life.

That why it's precious for some people. But to tell the truth, I didn't give a damn about my existence.

I wanted the speed to get me out of those thoughts which alienated me. I was afraid to lose my mind or get in a crash. This pain in my heart… I was foolish enough to think it would never come back again. Losing something dear to me doesn't matter anymore. I was always alone…. I did not need anyone and nobody needed me.

But that's not entirely true. Even if I didn't know well my half-sister… she was still a part of my family.

But what's a family? I didn't know exactly the meaning of this word. Maybe it's someone who is related to you? Or a person who lives with you for most of your life? But I surely didn't think my grandmother as family. She was a total stranger to me, someone who I wanted to avoid like the plague. I was sure about one thing: my family was in no way conventional.

I looked attentively at the clock speed of my motorbike which was increasing dangerously 80 ... 95 ... 130 ... 150 mph.

Adrenaline made me speed up and then, times I started to remember the times I thought were forgotten. My first meeting with my older sister Alyssa.

Flashback.

I was 8 years old and my sister was 18. I was 8 years old and my sister was 18. Alyssa and I were born ten years apart because we were half sisters. When she was born, my parents had not met yet and mom was pregnant with a man named Wang Sergay, if I remember correctly, he was a military man on shore leave for one day on Fuuka. They met at a party and spent the night together. The next day, the man left for a mission abroad. After this night, Saeko didn't receive any news from the soldier. He just disappeared as he appeared. Months passed rapidly and my mother discovered she was pregnant. She was shocked a first but decided to keep the baby and raise it alone, against her parents' disapproval who ended up throwing her out. A few years later, she met my father and they became a couple, my grandmother was furious when she learned about their relationship.

Her stepmother had never accepted her; she simply hated of the reasons being that she did not want this sinful woman spoiling her perfect family. My mother had had an illegitimate daughter, born out of the boundaries of marriage. But what bothered her the most is that Seako did not belong to a wealthy family. She was soiling her one and only son with the bastard child of a stupid military man.

Grandma never accepted Alyssa as a granddaughter. Everyday, she would make it clear that she and Saeko were not welcomed among them. Despite this, my father who was deeply in love with Mom adopted Alyssa and raised her like his own daughter. The couple married a few weeks later. Although that old hag did everything to stop the wedding. They finally settled on doing something
simple with no witness or their family.

Shortly after the birth of my little sister Nina, I started to live with my grandmother when Dad left us after Mom's death. It was a car crash, a drunken man hit her as she was crossing the road. (I loathe cars. Those coffin on wheels are a curse to the Kuga's; first my mother and now Alyssa.) After this tragedy, the man was so upset and desperate that he left the house on that very same day without saying goodbye or giving us any explanation. I lost both of my parents that day. He is no more than a coward, an anonymous face I could meet on the streets for me.

I didn't know at the time that I had another sister, I had seen her a few times at home; it was vague, though, and I was
not aware of our relationship. Being very young back then, I did not remember her. Every pictures, clothes or objects belonging to her had disappeared. It was as if she had never been real. But one day, we met, and not on the best circumstances.

-xox-

It was a morning like any other, I was heading to the kitchen when I heard a quarrel bursting in the office of my grandmother. Intrigued, I walked towards the sounds and peered through the door because I could clearly hear the stormy conversation.

''How many times did I tell you not to come here! You are no longer part of this family, or should I say… you never were in the first place. You denied our name when you got infatuated with that mindless idiot as pathetic as your father.''

''The man I love is nothing like a mindless idiot, Grandmother. You don't know anything about him.''

''And I would like it to remain this way. Don't you dare to call me Grandmother; You have lost this right a long time ago by disgracing your family and getting with him even though you were engaged to another man; a respectable one. What a waste.''

''Oh, you probably mean John Smith? He was twice if not more my age! I was only sixteen! How could you allow that old pervert to marry me?! This wedding was only to serve your business. You just want more and more money like it's never enough.
What about my happiness? Have you ever thought about it?... You hate me. You made it clear all those horrible years,
that's why you sent me away from here, isn't it?, because you did not bear to see me. ''

''No. I thought that sending you to a respectable school could get you back on the right path; that it could save you from your whore of a mother's influence. I was wrong, child. You are rotten to the core and we cannot do anything for you. You are doomed by damnation.''

''You are crazy! You will never change! Always the same story! My mother the whore! I could get you back on the right path! Save me from my whore mother's influence! Damnation! It's enough! I'm tired of being insulted! I'm tired of hearing you peak badly of my deceased mother. Don't you have anything else to do? You think that I don't know how you treated Mom and Dad? Because he couldn't stand you, and abandoned his family. And Mom ? You never loved her because she didn't suit your stupid requirements. You, to whom money is more important than anything. You will probably die with it.'' Alyssa yelled. Sachiko Kuga instantly slapped violently Her cheek, leaving it sore.

''I would advice you to go now, or I shall call the police.''

''I want to see my sisters! You have no right to keep them away from me! I will call a lawyer to have legally the right to see them and to take them with me!'' The blonde shouted angrily, banging her fists on the desk

''I forbid you to do it, you will regret it the rest of your life! You are not my granddaughter. You have never been. You're just a mistake, result of a sinful love! You do not have any rights! Laws are with me, I am their legal representative. You cannot do anything about it,'' her voice lowered, it was sneakier as she spoke again. "I would like to see you try and have your hopes crushed. Maybe then you will finally acknowledge that I can and will destroy you without any remorse." There was a pause. "Now go away."

The blonde slammed the door as she stepped out of the office in tears. I hid myself out of panic when she saw me, clutched and frightened with a stuffed dog in my arms. She took me in her arms, smiling softly, I was surprised when I saw her crying. Her head buried itself in the crook of my neck somewhat hesitantly. She sniffed a little, giving me another smile.

''Hey there, my Natsuki."

''You know my name?" I blinked, squeezing the teddy bear closer to me.

''Yes, of course, and this plush is Duran.'' The blonde showed me her magnificent aquamarine were mesmerizing.

''You ... also know Duran?'' I asked shyly.

''Yes, this little guy belonged to me when I was a child. You really take good care of him. Even if he lost one eye.'' She laughed softly.

''It's… it's not my fault, I…" tears blurred my eyes as I stuttered.

''Shh… I know.'' She whispered tenderly. "It was me. Calm down, sweetheart," her embrace tightened around me.

''You ... you came here to take him?'' I asked worriedly, pushing Duran even closer to me. It made her smile again as she touched my face.

"No, don't worry it's totally yours, sister."

''Sister?''

''Ah, yes I forgot to introduce myself, I'm Alyssa, your older sister."

''I have an older sister? You are my sister like Nina? Really? I never knew. You're so beautiful, Will I become like you when I grow up?'' I asked, eyes staring curiously and mouth agape.

''No…I mean yes, I'm your sister and no you won't become like me but even more beautiful. Wow, you really look like her….'' She kissed my cheek softly and then she began to hiccups again against me.

''Her?''

''Our mother…do you remember her?''

''I… no. Not very well… sorry."

"Don't apologize; it's not your fault. Probably that despicable old woman is to blame. Always the same. I just want to protect you and Nina, so much… but I can't. She probably makes your life a living Hell. Just like me, before. Did she ground you, hit you or made your life miserable by telling you that you're stupid or pathetic.''

''I…''

''Of course she did. That evil bitch… Why did I even ask? Sorry Natsuki, I didn't want to use this kind of words.''

''…''

''Why are you crying? Because my grandmother slapped you?'' I stroked marked cheek with quivering fingers. The blonde took my hand in hers and kissed it gently.

"Don't worry... I'm not hurt, I'm just crying because I'm happy to see my cute little sister.'' These words made me flush in embarrassment.

''I ... I'm not cute and little.'' I added pouting.

''It's true; you're tall and simply adorable.'' My cheeks reddened again and I instantly lowered my head trying to hide it. It made my sister laugh hard.

''You shouldn't make fun of smaller than yourself! That's mean!'' Upset, I crossed my arms, pouting again.

''So adorable!'' I gave her an annoyed glare and she coughed lightly.

''No. I mean… I'm sorry but… I can't lie! … You're so cute and adorable when you blush! I can't resist. I just want to eat you, especially those cute little cheeks! Red and round, like apples.

''Stop that! I need them. And I'm not edible! Also, I taste awful! You will be sick and have a stomach ache!'' I objected in fear while she tried with difficulty to contain her laughter.

''You make fun of me?'' I sniffed a bit depressed.

''No! Of course not. I'm just of one thing; I won't be the only one to think that you are cute. Oh my gosh! I want to hug you and never let you go. And you smell so good!'' I hid my reddening face with a toy which made the blonde laugh again. Suddenly the office door crafted. And my grandmother appeared. She was furious. I never saw her like this. She looked like a demon. I was afraid and my sister felt it when my body trembled furiously. The old woman grabbed me, her harshness making me wince in pain.

''How dare you! Go away now, you piece of trash!"

''I-I...'' My half-sister tried to talk to me but Sachiko stopped her with a glare. The blonde walked away…without a goodbye.

''Big Sister!'' I screamed desperate when she had crossed the threshold, crying even more.

My grandmother put me down, then gave me a violent slap, making me fall on the floor.

''I forbid you to call this vermin your sister! She is nothing like that! And don't ever approach her again!''

''Why? She is nice.'' I responded timidly.

''She is simply a bad lot! Go to your room immediately! You're grounded!"

''But ...''

"There are no buts! You are going to obey me or I will lock you all day and you'll have no meal if you continue!''

''I hate you!'' I yelled, eyes shimmering with tears.

''I don't care!'' I rushed to the first floor, climbing stairs rapidly to reach my room. I jumped on my bed, hiding under the blankets and cried myself to sleep.

End of flashback