Let Me Be The One Chapter 2: What Makes a Man, a fairy tail fanfic

A sequel for 'Let Me Be The One'.

This is Gray's perspective after they broke up.

Fairy tail is Mashima-san's.

This plot is mine.

The song is 'What makes a Man' by Westlife.

This isn't goodbye

Even as I watch you leave

This isn't goodbye

I swear I won't cry

Even as tears fill my eyes

I swear I won't cry

I watched her walk away from me.

I let her walk away from me.

This is the most painful thing I have ever done, but I felt like this is the best thing that I have ever done for her.

I kept myself from crying.

I went home. I didn't care where Natsu was. I needed to be with myself.

Once I got back to Magnolia, I went straight to a bar with all the intentions of getting wasted.

Any other girl I'll let you walk away

Any other girl I'm sure I'll be okay

After a couple of drinks, I knew I was hammered and will probably wake up with the worst hangover the morning after. Nevertheless, I was still aware that there were a couple of girls eyeing me suggestively and one actually caught my attention. She has blue hair, but not the kind of blue that I like, cat-like eyes but not like the ones I would drown into, long legs but not the pair I would love to wrap around my waist. I sighed and gulped the remains of my drink and decided to call it a night and go home.

I was about to leave when slender fingers softly gripped by arm. 'Nope, not the fingers that I love,' but I stopped anyway. I realized it was the blunette and she was about to kiss me and I wanted to lean in, then I remembered Juvia's big blue eyes, but she leaned in and I was giving in when somebody interrupted us. I saw pink hair and realized it was Natsu. I was annoyed. But I was too hammered to even fight him, tried to punch him, ended up leaning on him for support and heard him say something about doing something I would regret then everything went black.

I woke up to the worst kind of hangover. This disclaimer I remembered telling myself as I was getting hammered. I groaned and rolled on my stomach which I regretted right away and I immediately stood up to run to the bathroom, when I realized I wasn't at my apartment. Luckily there was sink nearby and there I emptied the remains of my upset stomach.

"Fuck," I cursed at how I was feeling.

"That bad huh?" I heard someone say behind me and I turned my head to the voice who said it and saw Lucy leaning at the door of her bedroom. I stayed rooted at the sink because I was too dizzy to move and my stomach felt like it wanted to get out.

"Too much scrambling this early," I didn't have to turn around to check who it was. I knew it was Natsu, "Was it necessary to drink that much? You must have drank the entire Magnolia last night."

I was about to tell him to shut up but instead, I emptied the remains of my stomach at the sink.

Lucy punched her boyfriend and gave me a glass of water and a medicine for a hangover. I muttered my thanks and allowed the water running in the sink to clean what I hurled out.

I sat down at the dining table where Natsu was as Lucy prepared for breakfast.

"What the fuck happened?" I asked my best friend as I gently massaged the bridge of my nose.

"Dude I slept for a while as you spoke with Juvia cause I knew it would take some time and when I woke up you were gone, then I came back here as quickly as I could and looked for you then I found you at the bar where I planned to eat and you were with some girl with pale blue hair and you two were about to kiss! You were lucky I was there to stop you and your stupid drunken decisions," Natsu said and grabbed a toast that Lucy placed on the table.

I groaned and I remembered a girl but it was too hazy but luckily Natsu was there. I groaned again in frustration and because of a headache.

"Hooking up with some random girl won't help man," my friend said with a serious look in his eyes and I know he's right. I stood up, wobbling a bit and patted his back, too sick to talk and went back to the couch where I slept the night before. I lied down and I replied, "I figured as much. Thanks for stopping me dude," and I closed my eyes and thought about what to do with my current dilemma and dozed off.

I woke up and I felt a lot better. I called out for Lucy and Natsu and figured that they must have left and I have decided to go home and figure things out. I walked towards home and I can't help but get pissed off by the couples going lovey-dovey around so I sped up so that I could get home sooner. As soon as I got there, I got rid of my clothes and went straight to the shower to freshen my mind.

I thought about what she said in her letter and I knew that I have to fix myself so that I can love her right. But the question is how can I love her right? I slammed my fists against my shower walls and leaned my forehead towards it. I want to make things right and be the man who can love her properly.

Tell me what makes a man

Wanna give you all his heart

Smile when you're around

Will Cry when you're apart

If you know what makes a man

Wanna love you the way I do

Girl you gotta let me know

So I can get over you

After I took a bath, I was still frustrated. I opened my fridge to get water, but saw a couple of bottles of liquor and decided to drink them. Then I sat on my couch... On our couch and I could not help but recall our memories together. Then thoughts like 'what if you find someone better' or 'what if someone snatches you away' or 'maybe I should move on like what you're doing' but then I looked at you side of the couch and can't help but remember how you laughed at the little things that you found adorable and the way that you looked at me while I tell you how my job went, how you listened to every word that I say... I knew somewhere in my heart that you're the one for me and you're perfect but I was a jerk who ignored all your efforts.

What makes us so right

Is it the sound of your laugh

That look in your eyes

When do you decide

She is the dream that you seek

That falls in your life

But also I wanted to make things right. I threw the bottle of beer I was holding and leaned forward. I buried my face in the palm of my hands and just let my regrets and anger towards myself come out. I wanted to fix this, but I had caused you too much pain... Too much that I drove you away from me. I swore to myself that I will do anything to get you back, no matter what happens...

You apologize no matter who was wrong

Will you get on your knees if that would bring her home

And that's how Lucy found me. They said they were worried when they came home and I was gone. Natsu thought I went out to get wasted again and probably this time successfully hooked up with some random girl. Then she suggested to check my apartment first and they found me on the floor, with so many shattered glass and ice around, knuckles and arms bruised and bleeding, bloodshot eyes from crying. Lucy helped me get off the floor and guided me gently to my room and I sat down on my bed and she patched me up. Natsu was leaning on my door, looking at me with both annoyance and concern, then Erza came and brought Wendy to help with the healing.

That night I broke down in front of them. They stayed all night to comfort me and they cleaned my living room.

I was out of sorts for weeks. Erza even asked Natsu to check on me regularly to make sure that I'm okay. Sometimes, one of them would stay at my house just to ensure that I won't go out and drink.

I guess I have lost too many people but I have forgotten to count the ones who are still here for me; Fairy Tail... And most of all, Juvia.

That moment, I have decided to man up and keep my promise. I decided to go out and get a job, at first my friends were worried and offered to accompany me, but I assured (and promised) them that I'm fine so they let me. But they gave me a communication card and I have to update them... Erza's doing.

I went out for the first time in weeks. It was an easy job and I finished it with ease. Then I went home and saw the girl with pale blue hair and she saw me too and smiled at me. I smiled in return just to be polite but she must have misunderstood it.

Other girls will come along they always do

What's the point when all I ever want is you

Tell me

She's pretty. She's attractive. Gorgeous, rocking body, generous bosom and a nice butt too, slender legs... I would have fucked her if I'm still the same person I was before. I mean, not just her, but any attractive girl... But I knew that I moment I close my eyes, I would only see those pair of big blue orbs that I would love to get drowned into. She came to me and smiled seductively, I noticed that she held her hands together in front of her so that her arms would push her breasts out. I gulped but I can't use her. I politely said no and she frowned at me and got angry afterwards. I went on and sighed at how I miss her.