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A/N: Chapter 1 we got introduced to Bella and her demons... this chapter we meet Edward who also has some demons of his own... plus a few more characters.
Warning: There are slight references of child abuse and sexual abuse in this chapter but I stress it is not in graphic detail. There is also bad language throughout this chap and most likely chapters to come.
So I hope you enjoy this chapter.
EPOV:
"Ugh," I groan to myself in the mirror while trying to tame my unruly hair. I swear there is nothing I can do with it and boy have I tried over the years. Hair gel is apparently too weak to hold my wild, heavy locks. After about half an hour of trying, I realise that I'm getting nowhere and give up, opting to just run my fingers through it a few times leaving it with the "freshly fucked" look.
I still have a few hours to kill before I'm due at my boy Emmett's for some Friday night beers. It had become a routine thing lately and I enjoyed it; it got me out of my shitty apartment for a bit. I met Emmett, and his long term girlfriend Rose, a little less than two years ago. I was out in a bar and there was some dick causing trouble with somebody and he got kicked out along with his woman. I asked Emmett what was going on and we have formed a tight bond since then.
I've never really had any friends; I kept myself to myself growing up... it was the only thing I knew. I didn't have the best start in life my pathetic excuse for parents were crack heads... I couldn't even speak in front of them or they would beat on me to make me shut up. I spent night after night curled up in the corner of my room crying and praying for someone to help me. It wasn't until I was seven that the authorities noticed that I was hardly ever in school and that something was seriously wrong - being taken and put into the state system was scary as fuck.
I didn't understand at first why my parents didn't want me; why they would just let the authorities take me without a second thought? Did they have a first thought? I was convinced it was my fault... that I was that much of an awful child that I made them hate me.
I was moved around from home to home, never with any sort of stable environment for me or most of the others that I saw in the system. The disgusting things that I saw happen to kids in some of these homes were despicable. They would get beat on, whipped with belts, and forced to clean floors and toilets, and all other chores you can think of. I was the same; they made me do that shit too, but I was a couple of years older than a lot of the other kids. I'd sooner me get a whipping or have to clean a toilet than a tiny little five year old.
As I got older they moved me to some shit hole where older kids were... this made me one of the youngest in this group and apparently "pretty boy" was an easy target for the bastards to abuse. As well as physical and mental abuse, I was sexually abused many times from about eight years old by a woman who worked there she used to tell me that I had to let her touch me and do things to her if I wanted to stay there. She would scare me with of stories of what happened to kids on the streets and I soon stopped trying to defend myself from her out of pure fear of being in a much worse position in life. I see now that she was a sick fuck who has mentally scared me by the things she did. By the time I was ten, I had been beat up and abused most of my life and forced to do chores... my life sucked.
About 3 months after my tenth birthday, I got sent to yet another foster home. This time I would be fostered by Dr and Mrs Cullen. It was well known knowledge that older kids didn't get adopted and so didn't expect to stay there long. Especially as the house was something my wildest dreams could never have done justice... it's a stunning six bedroom mansion nestled in the most magical looking forest any kid could ever imagine. I felt so out of place there at first and constantly thought I'd wake up from this dream but it wasn't a dream it was real.
When Esme first tried to get close to me, I would instantly flinch away from her touch. I was scared to get too close to her in case she was just like that woman. I couldn't go through that again. I would study how they treated Alice their six year old daughter, and I never once seen or heard any kind of shouting or abuse.
Although still wary, I soon felt myself falling in love with these generous, loving people that had took me under their wing and cared for me. Esme told me a few months later that she and Carlisle loved me as if I were their own, and they would love to adopt me if I would agree. I was so overwhelmed that they loved me just as much as I loved them... and they wanted me to be part of their family. I Edward Mason would be part of a real family; I would become Edward Cullen.
I hadn't really been around girls much in my life so I thought I would hate them after the fine example my mother and some others showed me. But each of the Cullen's changed my view on how people should and could be treated. Alice was like a breath of fresh air and still is to this day.
When my life began with the Cullen's she never got upset by me being there or jealous when I would play up to get attention, she took it all in her stride. I remember we would stay up watching movies and eating ice cream when we should have been sleeping. Thinking back now Esme and Carlisle obviously knew about it, but let us have our bonding time. She used to draw me pictures and follow me around, and when I would tell her to go away if I was busy doing something she would give me these little puppy dog eyes and say "I only want you to be my big brother", which got me every time. I would stop what I was doing and usually do whatever she wanted. As we grew up I found out quite quickly that she was a little fashion icon... and yes I used to let her dress me up-not in women's clothes obviously- because it made her happy... which in return made me happy. We go shopping and she still kits me out in the best gear. I did put my foot down when she wanted me to wear designer overalls. Emmett and rose would never let that one go.
When I turned seventeen I decided to get a job even though Esme told me there was no need... but I insisted. I got a job at a little book store in town which I enjoyed. I worked there up until about nine months ago when Emmett offered me a position at his and Rose's car garage which I took with open arms. I have always loved cars and when Carlisle put me through my lessons I was grateful but insisted I would work and pay for my own car. Now I had a better job I saved for a while and bought a silver Volvo.
Carlisle wanted to buy me a house and have me all set up when I moved out, but I told him that they had done more than enough for me already and it was about time I stood on my own two feet. I didn't move far and I see them every Sunday for dinner and as much as I can before then.
I feel blessed that these people came into my life. It was a hardship getting to where we all are today but it was totally worth it. Esme and Carlisle are now my mom and dad and Alice is my sister that's all anybody needs to know.
"Edward," I heard Alice shouting.
"Yeah what's up?" I shouted back from my bedroom. Obviously Alice lets herself in these days.
"Oh there you are... what you doing?" she chirped, popping her head around my bedroom door.
"Nothing... just killing time before I go over to Emmett's. Why?"
"Great so you're going tonight too, Jasper and I will be going... can we catch a ride with you please"
"Yeah sure," I said while jump off the bed and give her a hug.
There's no particular reason for this hug I just like cuddles. Never thought I would and Alice never complains. Jasper her boyfriend always gives me the eye when I do it... he can be such a fucking douche. He is a good guy and he treats my sister like she is a queen and worships the ground she walks on, but he is in the military and thinks he rules the fucking roost.
We got into a fight once... alcohol was involved. He said I was getting too close to his woman I was like "You better back the fuck off Major dick licker Whitlock, that's my fucking sister you sick bastard". He lunged for me so I put the pussy on his ass… so it wasn't really a fight I just knocked him the fuck out. He may be military trained but I had grown up fighting often in small confined spaces so had the upper hand. We're cool now but he knows to keep his bullshit to himself.
"Thanks Edward you're the best". She stood on her tip-toes and kissed my cheek.
"Anytime squirt you know that," I teased her.
"Squirt... seriously Edward I know you like to call me that but remember not in public ok... I'll be back in an hour and we'll head over to Rose's." And with that she's gone... that girl could give Houdini a run for his god damn money.
I spend the next hour doing absolutely nothing; I put some music on and just chill out on my bed, my cell beeps indicating a text; I flip the phone open.
Hey Ed, you wanna meet up tonight? I'll make it worth your while ;) V x
Believe me that 'V' was not for virgin it was for Victoria or Vic as she preferred. I don't even reply to that stalking bitch... I fucked her twice and now she thinks we're fucking married. I don't understand chicks at all. I am not looking for a relationship or "the one" as Alice keeps talking about. I have never had a serious girlfriend and am not looking for one either. I don't trust women apart from Esme and Alice. I just can't bring myself to trust people let alone women with my mind, my heart. Esme has always told me that I will just know when I've found "the one" because love is like nothing else... no other feeling in the world. I hope one day to be as happy as Esme and Carlisle, to look at a woman the way Carlisle looks at her. It's so full of affection, like nothing else matters in the world while she is by his side. I'm sure that day will come but for the moment I'm happy with just getting some pussy every now and then.
I snap the phone back shut and throw it down on the bed beside me just as I hear Alice. I get up, grab my jacket and walk out of my bedroom that leads straight into the living room.
"Sup" I nod my head towards Jas.
"Aight" he nods back.
That is all that is said between me and the major himself.
The drive over to Emmett's is quick even though Alice is banging on about some hot new designer and makes me promise to go with her to check out his creations. As I pull up outside their house the neighbours are out on the porch. Ashley and Gail live... shall we say an alternate lifestyle to most around here... fuck it, they are lesbians but I think they're hella-cool. Ashley takes on the roll of the ultra feminine one always wearing make-up and the short ass skirts. Gail is defiantly the polar opposite; always in jeans, baggy T-shirts and she has her wallet and keys on a fucking chain thing... she cracks my ass up.
"Hey guys... how are y'all?" Gail asks with a southern drawl as we exit the car.
"I'm good thanks... you two good?" I ask, walking up the driveway.
We chat for a few more minutes then I move my ass to join the party.
"Sup dude" Emmett booms as he opens the door and pulls me into his usual man hug.
"Sup... I'm ready for a drink this week has been bullshit."
We move through to the kitchen and Emmett supplies us with some drinks. He tells us that Rosalie will be back soon... she has gone to see a friend who has left her husband and is in a pretty bad way. The guy apparently has been beating on her. I despise men like that... if they can be called men.
Alice slides her laptop out of her bag and starts tapping away seated at the island that is stuck in the middle of the kitchen... it's a fucking eye sore if you ask me; I don't see the need for them but women seem to go nuts for them. Us guys take our beers and go through to the T.V room to play some Xbox.
"Dude your fucking cheating," Emmett said as he whacked me in the arm.
"Oww whatcha do that for douche?" I spat back.
I shit you not... Emmett is huge. Not fat just built solid from pure muscle and his fucking love taps hurt. Rose says he uses all of his muscles whilst he's loving her up and that's why he's so built. Not an image I want... TMI my friends TMI.
"You're such a fucking pussy Eddie boy," he laughs. "Grow a pair and stop whining."
The major let out a snicker... hell no... I give him the legendary Cullen death stare causing him to look at me warily and thankfully shut the fuck up... obviously not wanting another whack.
"GET HIM!" Emmett screams which gets my concentration back to the game.
"Where is he? I don't see him." I start bashing all the buttons... if I'm honest I don't have a clue how to play this "Call of Duty" shit.
"He is up on the roof Edward, he's a sniper... where else do you think he is going to be?" the major snorts.
The major is starting to piss me off, wearing my patience down... rapidly. "Well excuse me dick licker... last time I looked I was playing this... so until your in control of this game keep your opinions and substantial military knowledge to your self okay?" I wink at him.
Yes I'm acting like a fucking twelve year old but the guy pisses me off something chronic.
"Edward I really don't know what you're problem is" he states.
"You're a jackass... that is my problem."
"Okay gentleman lets settle this down... it's just a game no need for all the drama. We don't want handbags at dawn in the ultimate dual." Emmett chugs down the rest of his beer from the bottle. "Who's for another? I wanna get wasted," he shoots over his shoulder as he throws the controller to the major and heads into the kitchen.
The silence is pretty awkward between me and the major... I can see him out of my peripheral vision bouncing his leg up and down like he is waiting for me to ask him if he wants a game with me and that shit is pissing me off too... if he wants to play then he can ask. I laugh because it seems to me like everything that he does pisses me off. I just can't stand him... I hope in time we come up with some kind of agreement for Alice's sake. I know I should make more of an effort with him but I just can't right now and I'm not quite sure why. Is he doing it on purpose?
"Rose will be back in about half an hour and she's bringing Bella with her, so I want you guy's including ALICE"-he shouts her name so she can hear him and eyeballs me and Jas-"to be really nice... she has been through a helluva lot lately, and y'all are in my house so you go by my rules got it?"
We all agree without a doubt and the next half an hour is spent with me and Emmett shooting each other and the major sticking his nose in with his expertise. I grit my teeth every time but don't say anything. We're now on our fourth beer and Emmett pulls out his stash of Petron so we have about three shots of that each... and now I'm starting to feel it. I have been holding my piss for about an hour... you know what it's like when you're drinking; once you piss you just can't stop going after that. I have to give in though and make my way to the downstairs bathroom which is on the other side of the kitchen. Alice is still fucking tapping away so I don't disturb her.
I'm just shaking my junk when I hear the front door open, and Rose and another voice were giggling like fan girls or some shit. I flush the chain and make my way back through to the living area... as I walk passed the door that led to the hallway, it flies open and there's a petite brunette flying towards me. My arms shoot out instinctively to catch her before her face made its own personal introduction to the hardwood floor.
I hold her body flush with mine for what seems like forever... she won't look at me but when I look at her I notice her cheeks are turning red and she is stunningly beautiful but also extremely embarrassed. She finally gathers herself, takes a step back and looks directly into my eyes.
"Quick move out the fucking way Edward... I'm gunna be sick," Rose garbles whilst covering her mouth and pushing passed me and the brunette making a b-line for the toilet.
I roll my eyes and look back to the brunette "You OK?" I ask her concernedly.
She nods her head and mutters something like "MmmHmm... thanks."
"Well Bella... good to know you can still make... an epic entrance," Emmett chokes out between laughs.
She blushes again. "You know me Em." Her eyes keep looking down at the floor and I don't like it she should hold that pretty head high.
"I'm Edward." I hold my hand out to her. When she takes it I'm fucking ecstatic inside and I bring her hand to my mouth and ghost a kiss on top of it... smooth Cullen... real smooth.
She looks up through her lashes and again I meet her gaze... but not for long this time. I see a sad look appear on her face and then she bolts straight for the front door... I just stand there confused...
Well there we have it... please leave me your opinions good or bad... I'm putting EVERYTHING into this fic so I really would like your thoughts.