A/N: Don't read if you don't like Yaoi. Plus the later chapters are a bit mature for audiences of young ages.

EEnE belong to Danny.

The beginning OC Alex and the "Toms" lol belong to me.

Story Line: (so you read if you like otherwise it'll be a waist of time lol.)

Ed Edd n Eddy are living on their own, everything seems perfect until Eddy finds something out about DD that tears their friend ship apart. Eddy becomes an actor, but to make it in his world he will have to push his morality to the limit… but will getting the job be worth loosing everything. Also will he be able to get over the death of a past love to finally admit what he wants. Edd has to handle school, the house, and bulling from the richer students, but it becomes more difficult when a friend from the past reveals a secret to his enemies… which to his horror they use to exploit. Ed after many years of being different, finally begins to feel lonely and left out, and un wanted… but little does he know he is needed more than he knows.

Chapter 2:

Welcome to our world

Double-D walked across the campus as he made his way to the leaders of the world club hoping it would be an educating experience. He had always wished to improve the world, but sadly he knew he had no leadership skills. For as long as he could remember it was Eddy who had dictated to him what it was he needed to do. Even though double-d did not want to think about it eddy would not be in his life forever. Eddy would probably mature and marry and leave him behind. A tear crept up on him but he tried with all his might to hold it back. It was just the way it was. He would love eddy and eddy would move on and live the way he was destined. Why was he cursed with this love? Why could he not just move on? Why did he have to be so different, why was he always different from every one else? Double-d shook his head and decided now was not the time to think about his personal life. He would be surrounded by his educated peers; he should surely fit in amongst the educated who as well have an interest in the field of medicine. His worries seemed to slip away as the excitement of being around people who would understand him grew.

He finally made his way into the meeting room. As he reached the door he took a deep breath to calm his nerves, this was it. He opened the doors to find a catered room where a bunch of finely dressed men and women stood holding glasses of champagne. They stood quietly discussing amongst themselves. O how wondrous the sight was. Though double-d cared for his friends, this was a welcomed change from the loud rants and rude outbursts. He was so thrilled to see all these people discussing amongst themselves, he had to join the enlightening experience.

He wandered over to the nearest group and slid himself among them reaching his hand out in introduction. "Salutations fellow students my name is Eddward, May I join your enlightening conversation."

A boy with blonde hair which was swept back, and a polo shirt turned to double-d in a polite yet secretly snide manner. "Oh Hello Edward… My name is Thomas Herrington the third, son of the famous innovative brain surgeon and heir to the Herrington fortune…" He turned to another boy who had blond sleeked back hair who was wearing a very expensive pant suit. "This is Thomas Hamilton the fifth, his father is owner of the best hospital in the United States…" The boy nodded in acknowledgement. "And this is Thomas Kerrigan the third, his father is the leading heart surgeon in the world…" The last was blonde and wore polo as well. He held his glass up in acknowledgement.

Double-D giggled politely. "My friends and I also have the same name… It is quiet amusing… In hopes of depleting confusion we have all decided to be refer to with different nick names when around each other… my friends refer to me as double-d. You may as well if you wish." The three boys looked over at each other in slight disgust.

The tom who was introduced first, (the leader of the "toms") cleared his throat. "So Edward do your "friends" go our honored university as well?"

Double-D wavered as the boy ignored what he had said. "Um… No one friend is attending Lady Angel's School of Art, and the other is striving to obtain a career in cinema." Double-D noticed the boys glare again in disgust at each other. He felt lower than dirt as they seemed to judge every word that escaped his lips. He looked over as the boys seemed to be silently sending each other a message. It pained double-d inside to think about what it was they were thinking.

"What is it your father does… After all he must be some sort of prestigious doctor for you to enter this college…After all I do not believe we obtained your last name…" Double-D was surprised by this question and knew it was a trap. He could lie; after all he knew all the names of all the lead doctors from medical journals. But he knew that would not be right and he would surely be caught in the lie. He was forced to tell the truth.

"My father is not a doctor but a business man and my mother is a lawyer… I do not have a lineage in this University but I was accepted for being in the top five percentile as well as obtained a perfect score on my SAT II's…" Double-d hoped that in explaining his "abilities" they would accept him though he had no blood line. But sadly he just received more of their condescending glares.

"How drawl…" He wished he could vanish at the moment. They looked upon him as a dimwitted hillbilly just because he lacked a blood line. Just as he couldn't feel any lower the boy turned to his friends while elevating his nose. "… let us not waist any more time with this peon, when there are better people for us to discus important matters with…"

"Yes… after all it will be impossible for a peasant to make anything of himself with in our world… one must have connections to make it in our world…" The other boy added snidely.

Double-d stood feeling worthless as the three boys walked away. This wasn't his place he didn't fit in here either. Why must he always be so different? He ran out the door before anyone could stop him.

Double-D made his way home holding back a fountain of tears. Thoughts swarmed as he thought about his future. He had no place. His passion medicine, According to his peers he had no future in. And his love, who he knew was only a matter of time before he grows up and marries and leaves him behind. With nothing but a memory of what was. Eddy was the only person in his life ever to think of him. While his parents ignored him and made him feel like nothing but a slave, Eddy some how held the key that freed him. While everyone else refused to talk to him and treated him like a freak, he was there to make him feel normal and accepted. While everyone ridiculed him for being weak, Eddy was there to make him stronger. But double-d was still weak, he could never reveal to Eddy how he felt, and he never would be able too. If Eddy ever found out every thing would fall apart. At least this way Eddy could move on with his life and Double-d would be able to hold a small part with in it, and that was all double-d wants, to be apart of his life.

Medicine was the only comfort he had. The idea that though his passion for eddy could never be fulfilled made him hope that maybe focusing on his work will numb the pain, while Eddy made a life for himself. As a doctor he could be also useful to eddy. Eddy would be able to come to him when he was hurt and double-d would be able to mend him the way he used to as children. He knew Eddy was going to leave him once his movie career is started and millions of women begin to fawn over him. He knew one of those women would catch his eye and steal him away. He knew that, that was what Eddy wanted. And Double-d knew he had no right to take that from him. So at least he could be a part of it.

No matter how hard he tried to convince himself… that was not what he wanted. He wanted to be with Eddy. He finally wanted Eddy to hold him softly and show him the love he needed so badly. He often dreamed of how it would feel to caress Eddy's lips with his own. To have Eddy hold him and tell him every thing would be alright. But that would never happen. Why did he have to be this way!!

Double-d couldn't hold it any more as he reached the door of their apartment. He opened the door and fell face first on to the couch in the living room. He began sobbing uncontrollably as he released all his pent up feelings. Thank god no one was here, thank god. The last thing he needed was for eddy to see him cry. His thoughts were cut off when he heard a voice.

"What's wrong dude?" Double-d looked up in shock as Alex stood at the door staring down at him. He completely forgot she was still there fixing their wiring. Double-d looked away wiping his tears away with his hands. No one should know. He wasn't ready to admit to anyone his love.

Alex had just finished to wiring and was hoping to head home and finish writing her music, or read up on history or new technology, but she had a feeling double-d needed her right now. She sighed as she cursed herself inside. She was never really in touch with her emotions because of her cold rich selfish father, and her cold social climbing selfish mother. This was going to be hard. She sat herself beside him and patted his shoulder softly. "What happened? You alright?"

"I just… um… Have something lodged in my eye." Double-d stated while silently sobbing.

"Do you honestly expect me to believe that?" Alex stated jokingly, in hopes of lifting his mood. But he seemed to grow more upset. Alex silently cursed herself for being so emotionally disabled. "So… um what's the problem?"

Double-d shook his head still looking away. "It's nothing worth mentioning…" His feelings were never worth talking about. His own parents didn't care about how he felt why should she? He felt the couch cushion raise as she stood herself up. She was probably would leave and look at him as some fragile child from then on. But instead he felt her hold his hand and pull on it softly.

Double-D looked up his face stained with tears to find her smiling with compassion down at him. "Come on dude… I'll fix you some food and we can talk about it…"