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"Sora did you see where my gingerbread man went?"

I froze mid-bite, eyes flashing guiltily to the table where Roxie was searching for the missing confection. I gulped loudly, swallowing the evidence and vehemently shook my head.

"Nope, I haven't see him."

Roxas frowned, glancing over at our gingerbread house.

"But I still need one more…"

Blue eyes suddenly came to rest on me and Roxas walked forward, sighing sadly. Ungh, why did I have to feel so guilty now? It was just one gingerbread man. And it had tasted so good. Roxas pulled me against him, smiling down at the house.

"Two years." He murmured contentedly, nuzzling into my neck. "Tomorrow morning I'll have been stuck with an adorably ditzy doofus for two years."

"I know the feeling. I've got this hot psycho blondie I can't get away from. But to be honest I don't think I'm trying that hard."

"Really? He sounds like a handful."

"You have no idea." I whispered, giving him a playful nudge.

"And what about that doofus of yours?"

"Oh him? Well he's horribly optimistic, always cheerful, and he just has to help everyone in trouble. But I guess that's why I like him so much. And…"

"And?"

"And he's charming and handsome."

"And?" I pushed with a wink.

Roxas turned to face me, hand tangling in my spikes.

"And he's an absolute gentleman. Albeit a little slow sometimes."

"And?"

Roxas leaned in, his thumb brushing the corner of my mouth as he pulled faces close, our lips came in dangerous proximity to each other.

"And…" Roxas whispered.

Suddenly we was shoving me away and raising his crumb speckled thumb.

"And he ate my gingerbread man!"

I blushed, rubbing at the back of my head.

"I couldn't help myself, it tasted so good!"

"You ate my gingerbread man Sora!"

"It's supposed to be eaten, that's why it's made of candy! If they didn't' want people to eat them then they would have made it out of Brussels sprouts or some other nasty stuff!"

"How could you make a house out of Brussels sprouts? That's impossible!"

"Exactly! See that's why it's made of candy, and so we have to eat them!"

Roxas crossed his arms looking unimpressed. A sudden idea sprang to mind, and I smirked over at him, slowly edging towards the kitchen table.

"You don't believe me? Here, I'll prove it."

Before Roxas even knew what was going on I had snatched up another gingerbread man, chomping off a huge bite.

"Sora!" Roxie whined, bounding over to separate me from the candy. I managed to evade him, finishing the snack and grabbing another one.

"You'll never take me alive!" I cried around a mouthful of cookie.

Roxas tried to stifle his laughter as he chased me around the table, a grin spreading across his face. He finally managed to tackle me, taking us down to the ground where we rolled around, Roxas finally ending up on top, struggling to keep us down and reclaim the stolen cookies at the same time.

"Just give up the hostages and nobody has to get hurt, you can just walk away!" He grunted.

"Never! Come to the dark side Roxie, join me! We can eat all the cookies and candy we want!"

I managed to roll around, pinning Roxas and shoving the gingerbread man towards his mouth.

"Eat it, you know you want it! Stop resisting!"

Roxas laughed freely now, writhing under me, and I finally managed to push a cookie in. Roxas spluttered and laughed, choking on the cookie while I took a bite of my own.

"See? Who wants to build houses when you can just eat them?"

"Mph gah oomph!" Roxas protested while I shoved another cookie in his mouth.

"Can't breathe Sor… Too much!" Roxas managed to choke out, still laughing even as his face became more and more flushed.

"You gotta take it all in Roxie! You made them big, now you need to take care of it! Come on and eat it up!"

"For a second I thought I was walking in on something naughty." A voice said from across the room. We looked up to see Axel leaning in the kitchen doorway, grinning lewdly down at us.

It took a few seconds before his words sank in, and I glanced down seeing the position we were in, while the last few seconds of our conversation started coming back to me, making me blush. Roxas struggled to swallow the cookie, torn between embarrassment and anger.

"Who says we weren't getting to that?" I shot back playfully, trying to turn the tables on Axel for once.

"Well don't stop on my account, I might get some good blackmail material out of this later."

"Perverts." Roxas muttered while Axel and I snickered, pushing me off him.

"Cloud says he want you two love birds out in the party, not sneaking around in the kitchen. I'm pretty sure he thinks you two are going to end up turning into Ven and Vani if he lets you two out of his sight for too long."

"Got it. Come on Roxie, let's dance!"

I took his hand, dragging him behind me and into the living room. The rest of the gang were all gathered around, making merry, drinking eggnog, blasting music and more; our Christmas eve party was in full swing.

I twirled my boyfriend, spinning us around to match the music. For a few minutes it was like we had been thrown back into the past, I could practically see Roxie's Christmas party, at least before everything had gone wrong. Only now I was the one with a big Christmas wish.

I don't really knew when I noticed it, but sometime in between horribly butchering a duet of 'Baby it's cold outside' with Roxie and our slow dance, I suddenly started picking up on the stares and knowing looks focused on us around the room. It didn't take much to figure out what was going on, and I groaned internally, forcing my smile to stay up. Why did news have to spread so fast on an island? The way they were all looking at us, and even some of the comments I heard as we made our way around the room told me that Larxene had definitely lived up to her reputation.

We were chatting with Aqua and Ven by our small snack table, munching on cookies and laughing about the last few days of school, when Terra sauntered over and leaned in close whispering "Big bro wants to see you upstairs. Alone."

Wasn't that exciting? I nodded mutely, making up a half-baked excuse to Roxas before slowly making my way out towards the other side of the house, trudging up the stairs step by step. He knew. And knowing my brother, he wasn't happy about it, especially if he was calling me away from the party. Leon's opinion of Roxas had a bad habit of wildly fluctuating, going from thinking he was a good influence and a solid, albeit temperamental kid, to a psycho freak who was trying to kill everybody. Granted the last part was based on the fact that Roxas had kind of gone psycho and tried to scare everyone to death with his new friends, but still, couldn't you give him a break?

I finally made it to the top of the stairway and walked to Leon's room, taking a deep breath before opening the door. What was left of the hope that I might survive keeping my secret from Leon immediately died as I found myself face to face not only my brother, but his husband, Cloud. Judging by the looks on their faces, they weren't exactly ecstatic.

"Hey bro." I managed, trying to smile.

"Sit." Leon said simply, pointing to a chair in the corner.

I nodded, closing the door and hopping into the chair, eyeing them nervously.

We all sat in silence for a long time, leaving me to stew in my guilt. Yeah, I probably should have told my brother about all this. And sure it would have been a good idea to have asked Cloud if I could marry his brother when he wasn't in a post-medical high. But it had seemed so inconsequential at the time, all that mattered was Roxie. Right?

"Okay, I know I'm in big trouble, but I swear I was going to tell you guys when-"

"You proposed to Roxas?" Leon interrupted.

I nodded meekly, glancing between them. Leon's face was hard, his posture stiff, eyes never straying from me. Cloud was no better, arms crossed, eyes distant yet so focused I was fifty percent sure I would spontaneously combust any second. There was definitely no confusion on whether Roxas and Cloud were related, they both had that looked worked to horrible perfection. I squirmed under their gaze, trying to explain.

"I should have told you."

"Really?"

Okay, going by the looks on their faces I wasn't exactly making a good case here. Wait a second, why was I so nervous? I loved Roxas more than anything, and he loved me just as much. We had already been through hard trials in our relationship, we knew how to live with each other, and we knew what we were getting into. We both had baggage for sure, but together we could get through anything. Should I have told them or asked like a proper gentleman? Sure, but you know what, it's too late to change that. I could have kept worse secrets, so screw those judging looks they're giving me.

"You know what? I don't care what you have to say. Roxas and I are already eighteen, so the only person whose opinion I care about in all this is downstairs. Yes, I'm proposing, and when he says yes, we're going to be together forever, because we can handle it, and you know we can. So if you've got a problem with it you can just shove it up your-"

"You're right, you two can handle it."

My jerked to a stop, Clouds words rolling over and over in my head, trying to comprehend what he had just said.

"What?"

Cloud glanced to Leon in amusement.

"I told you he'd freak out. You owe me ten bucks."

Leon rolled his eyes, muttering something about useless brothers while Cloud turned back to me.

"You're right. I think you two can handle it. Sure I'd like you two to wait a little longer, get off the island and live a little, but this was bound to happen eventually. Fighting you two wouldn't have gotten us anywhere. Although I know I speak for both of us when I saw I'm insulted you didn't come to us."

"Yeah." Leon said, eyeballing me hard.

I scratched the back of my head, giving an apologetic smile.

"I'm sorry about that. I just… I didn't know how to tell you, and I was worried you say no. And I kind of did tell you."

Leon shot me an unimpressed glare.

"Kind of did tell you? Sora, you either tell someone or you don't, there's really no in between. And I know you didn't say anything to me."

"Well I did talk to Cloud! He was just, um, not all there."

Leon and Cloud exchanged confused looks, before Cloud suddenly chuckled, face palming.

"I thought I was still high on the morphine. Did you seriously come and ask permission to propose to my brother after my surgery?"

"Sora." Leon groaned exasperatedly.

"Sorry! Face it, family or not you still scare me a little. I kept thinking if I asked when you were yourself you'd give me the same treatment as Vanitas and I'd be running from a bat waving lunatic!"

Leon and Cloud just laughed, and I finally relaxed, laughing along with them.

"Well then let's do this right" Leon suggested, "Sora, is there something you wanted to ask Cloud?"

I nodded, taking a breath and focusing on Cloud.

"Cloud, I know you're an old fashioned guy, so I wanted to ask you something. You know I love your brother more than anything else, and that I would do anything for him, right?"

Cloud nodded, waiting expectantly.

"I know you'd like for us to be older, but we've already been through so much, and together I know we can get through anything and come out on top. So I'd like to ask if I can have Roxas' hand in marriage."

"He sounds so serious, we need to savor the moment." Leon whispered, earning another chuckle from Cloud, and a glare from me.

"You're right. Knowing him it'll be another eighteen years before he even starts maturing. Of course Roxas makes up for that in full, so I suppose that my answer is yes."

I beamed, jumping out of my chair and caching the two in a hug.

"Thank you guys! You don't know how much this means, and I'm sorry I didn't say anything."

"It's alright, we get it. Now come on, there's a party down there with our name on it."

"If Roxas blows up our house I'm holding you responsible." Leon threatened playfully, nudging Cloud.

"He's eighteen and about to get hitched, you can't blame me anymore, blame the fiancé."

"Wait what? No, blame the big brother!"

"You're right" Leon said with a grin "Besides, blaming the fiancé is way more fun than blaming you."

"I told you. Now about that ten dollars…"

I groaned, still smiling as I jogged downstairs. So much for all that gloom and doom on the way up here, everything was going great! I knew this wouldn't be a disaster!

Roxas smiled as I trotted over, entwining our hands and tugging me closer.

"What's up?"

"Big bro just wanted to go over tomorrow's plans." I said casually, sighing in relief when he bought the excuse.

From there on the party went off without a hitch, the festivities only got better and better. Cid brought out an old karaoke machine and people broke off into groups, people danced, Naminé and Aqua did magic, while Demyx, Axel, and Wakka all argued about Santa, stuffing pillows up their shirts to try and make themselves look fat.

Everything was going perfectly. It was almost right after I had that thought that I ruined everything. It had all be fun and games, right up until Roxas voice suddenly squeaked. Everyone around had laughed, while Roxas angrily blushed, blaming it on the food and taking refuge beside the snack table.

"Oh Roxy that was nice, what other sounds can you make?" Kairi asked.

"You should hear him moan." I retorted back, earning more laughter from the group. Roxas on the other hand didn't look at all entertained by the remark, glowering over at me.

"That good huh?" Demyx asked laughing.

"Oh yeah, I've heard them sometimes" Vanitas shot out "Roxy goes crazy."

"Especially when you get to his birthmark."

Looking back I want to throttle myself for saying that. I really do. Roxas looked like he wanted to explode, seeming to shrink with every laugh and chuckle, blushing furiously. But somehow I was too far gone with everything else to really notice.

"Is that what that is?" Ventus asked "I wondered what he meant by 'that spot'. Couldn't get enough of that, could you bro?"

"Nope, he always wants more. He's crazy about it."

"He's crazy about everything!" A drunk Riku called.

"Well yeah, he's my blondie psycho, what do you expect?"

Everyone laughed, the words psycho, crazy, and desperate ripping through the room.

"Sora!" Roxas blurted.

"What's up babe?" I asked grinning, walking over.

"Shut up!" He demanded angrily, glancing around anxiously.

"What? It's just a joke Roxie, I just-"

"Let's just not, okay? Please!" Roxas asked, eyes burning.

"Ok, okay, just calm down. I was just trying to have a little fun with everybody, sorry."

"I just need some air." Roxas said bluntly, heading towards the door.

"Roxas!" I complained, trying to grab his arm.

I missed miserably, but I did manage to trip over my own feet. I stumbled, trying to regain my balance, but caught the snack stands table cloth, ripping it away from the table. Everything went flying, the egg nog, the punch, the cookies, the cake, all hanging up in the air for a split second before colliding with one horribly unfortunate target.

I stared in shock at my boyfriend, watching him splutter as egg nog and punch gushed over him, turning the cookies and cake into mush as they streaked over his skin and into his clothes. He stood there for a second, covered head to toe in the snack bar, while the room watched in a stunned silence. And then he was gone, a blonde blur throwing open the door and rushing out into the night.

"Ah hell." Cloud murmured, staring after him.

I had basically called my boyfriend a sex hungry psycho slut desperate for anything, and then attacked him with food. Of course it hadn't been the rumors or the secrets that had to ruin it all. I had to be the one to screw everything up. Why did this always have to happen? No, no I could fix this before it got out of hand like the last few times.

I scrambled to my feet and sprinted out the door into the night, with one thing on my mind. Roxas.

It sucks, but at least it's here, deal with it.