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EPOV

The decision shocked me. No, I mean really shocked me. Coming from my own brain. My own heart. The truth. Somewhere, deep in the forest, I could hear a certain pixie-sister of mine scream in joy. I chuckled.

Wait! I chuckled. At the thought of my sister being happy about me biting Bella.

I was happy at the thought of me biting Bella.

I tried to grimace, but I couldn't. Worried, I silently rushed to Bella's bathroom and looked in the mirror. Though my mouth was twisted into a thin, straight line to show my stress, my eyes were alight. Pure gold. Twinkling, even. God, I couldn't remember the last time I was this… happy. I smiled in spite on myself.

I was snapped back into reality by Bella's frantic heartbeat. I sprinted back to her room as I heard her heart quickly gain speed, like it was about to explode.

Mere seconds after I wrapped my arms around her, she sat up with a gasp, startling me enough to pull back for a second. Bella's eyes flew open and darted around in the darkness. Then she stiffened. I assumed the worst. Had she noticed me? Did she not want me here? I could understand that, if I really tried…I didn't want to.

And then I realized she was looking for someone. Me. God, at least I hoped it was.

"Bella?" I whispered in the most solemn voice I could. If Bella didn't want me here, I didn't want to guilt her into letting me stay.

My angel turned to the sound of my voice, agonizingly slowly, and her eyes filled with so many emotions I nearly couldn't keep track of them. Pain, happiness, despair, hope, but most of all— confusion.

"Oh crap." She muttered. "Oh, no! I did die—"

"Bella." I pleaded. She shut her mouth. "You're not dead."

"But— but, you're here!"

My heart was stabbed with two different knives. Pain that she might think she was in Hell, and, no matter how small and miniscule that part maybe be, hope that she might think she was in Heaven.

"Bella, of course I am." I hesitantly reached out to touch her warm, rosy cheek. I gave a small smile when she leaned into my touch, cold as it was.

"But you left." My heart wrenched at her words. "You didn't want me— didn't love me anymore." I could almost feel my chest collapsing in on itself. "That day in the forest—"

"Oh, Bella." I groaned, mainly to stop the memories from arising again. The biggest mistake of my pitiful non-life. My demonic existence. Nothing, not even the change from human to vampire, could hold a candle to the pain it would cause me to relive those moments. "I lied."

Bella gasped and put a hand to her mouth. Betrayal flooded her eyes.

"No!" I pulled back and then put my hands on her shoulders to get her reluctant attention. "Bella, I lied about the forest. I had to! It was the only way to protect you! I thought that my existence put you in danger. I realized that after James and after your birthday party. I thought leaving was in your best interest. I wouldn't let you live in constant danger, from me especially. I didn't want to hurt you. Alice said it was inevitable, and I doubted that, but now…"

I knew I was just rambling to myself now. Bella had that confused look on her face, showing me that she understood nothing of what I just said.

"What's inevitable?" Bella asked innocently.

Need some help? A thought, Alice's, rang in my head. She was coming steadily closer to Bella's house, but then stopped. A vision she almost completely blocked passed through her head. Never mind… She did well to conceal all emotion. It made me scared.

"See…" I began. I turned away from Bella's questioning eyes and focused on a slow drip of water coming off her window. It just didn't feel right. I knew, more than ever, that this was the night that could bind Bella and me together forever, or completely rip her away in the most painful and agonizing way possible for a vampire.

"Bella…" I started again. This was going to be harder than I thought. "If there's one thing any… moving thing that can think has in common, its mistakes." My eyes returned to Bella's. "And I realized a long time ago that I made the biggest mistake of my life."

Bella's eyes watered and I could nearly hear her mind, her emotions were so obviously painted on her face. She was heart-broken, and that could only mean I wasn't getting through to her clearly.

"Bella, that's not what you think it means." I moved my frozen hands from Bella's shoulders to her neck. "Bella, letting you into my life was the most fantastic thing I could ever wish for. Leaving was my greatest mistake." Bella's eyes nearly glowed. "Bella, I'll still love you, no matter what. If you'll still take me, if you'll forgive me, I'd give you anything you'd ever want." I mentally gulped. "Anything."

"Anything?" Bella asked hopefully and quietly.

I nodded. "Anything."

"And you're positive this isn't a dream?"

"Vampires can't dream. Though," I thought to myself, partially, "This would have to be one of the better ones I'd ever had."

Love spread through out Bella's eyes almost instantly, her face breaking into a gorgeous smile. I could barely restrain myself from dipping down at vampire speed and kiss her forever. I had to settle for leaning in slowly, just in case Bella didn't want to. I was dead wrong.

When I was just a few centimeters from her lips, she jerked forward and quickly closed the gap between us.

I was almost instantly drunk from her scent that permeated my nostrils. My voice of reason was soon drowned out by the feel of Bella's warm, silken lips against mine. The months I had insanely deprived myself of kissing Bella were soon forgotten in the intensity of the moment.

Bella licked my bottom lip, asking permission into my mouth, and I happily obliged. Our tongues massaged each other's, making me feel almost numb with pleasure.

After a few minutes, though they felt like unnaturally short moments to me, I could hear Bella's already frantic heart going uneven and I knew she needed to breathe. I reluctantly pulled away, Bella gasping for breath.

"I love you, Isabella Swan, and nothing will ever change that." I whispered against her cheek.

"I loved you, Edward, even when you glared daggers at me on my first day of school." We both laughed at that, though Bella soon sobered. "Edward, will you—"

We had approached this conversation before. She always had the same beginning, the same, heart-breaking tone that nearly made me give in.

"Bite you?" I finished for her, matching her expression, keeping my euphoria inside me. I paused for a second, building up Bella's tension. "As soon as possible."

A/N: (If you're just here for the reading, don't mind this next paragraph)

Okay, first things first: being a 13-year-old, I think kissing is completely and utterly disgusting, especially with the tongue-war things; that just creeps me out to n-th degree, and I highly doubt that opinion will ever change. Therefore, I hate recreating kissing scenes, and completely suck at it, and I also know that most of the good stories I've read here of FanFiction have kissing, so its unavoidable. So, since I hate writing this, and I know there are lots of people who can, if you think the description above sucks, Review of PM me saying you could help me out. Be sort of like a... beta for the kisses, so when I plan to have an intense kiss, I can ask for some basic stuff, only giving as much information as necessary, so then it's still a surprise. Anyway, this is optional. I'm indifferent to whatever you guys think.

Um... I think that's about it! Yeah, so... 'til next chapter! (Slow as they're coming out...)

No worries,
Kylie M.