Chapter 2

Can't Control My Own Emotions

The sunlight from my window woke me up and I went to sit up from my futon, but I couldn't move! There were strong arms wrapped around my waist…

Wait, What?!

I broke free from these arms and turned my head to see Jun sleeping next to me, but I think he was naked. All I could see was his naked chest so I'm not really sure... I moved the blanket off of him and immediately blushed. HE IS NAKED! I CAN SEE EVERYTHING!

Did we have sex?!
"OH MY GOD!" I screeched!

Jun's eyes immediately shot open and he sat up from my futon. "What's wrong?! Are you alright?!"

"No, I'm not alright! Why are you naked in my futon?!" I shouted out.

"I always sleep naked. You said it was fine when we went to bed… What? Do you like what you see?" Jun smirked. I couldn't take my eyes off his naked body, and I think it's building his ego up!

"I never said it was fine for you to be naked!" I snapped.

"Yes, you did, but you were really drunk so I doubt you remember anything." He shrugged.

I got up from my futon and turned my back on him. "Just don't do it again!"

"Are you saying we will continue to sleep in the same bed?" Jun asked devilishly.

I felt my face heating up. Thank goodness my back is still turned against him. "I didn't mean it like that!"

"Hm. Whatever you say, Anya."

I left my room, so I can prepare us some tea, plus I didn't want to see his naked body anymore! Wow, I can't believe I told him last night that it was okay for him to sleep naked in my futon! Am I crazy?! But, wait. I didn't ask him if we had sex or not! I doubt we did, but I just wanted to make sure…

"So, are you coming back to my village?" Jun walked in the kitchen fully clothed.

"I don't know…" I ponder. Should I go with him? Staying on this island is not helping me get over Goemon, but I don't know if I want to leave my new home. I do get lonely being here, though.

"I want you too, Anya. I promise I'll get your mind off of him," he said softly.

"Well, I don't want Nobuyuki to try and bother me anymore, so I guess I can go with you…" I sighed.

"Good."

"But, I want NOTHING to do with this war, got it?" I stressed out.

"I know, you told me last night." Jun rolled his eyes. "You don't have to be involved."

"Awesome! You want some tea?" I offered.

"Yeah."

I took the tea tray in the dining room and we began to drink tea together. I want to ask Jun if we had sex last night, but I'm afraid to hear his answer.

"No, we didn't have sex," Jun said out of nowhere.

DID HE READ MY MIND?! HOW DID HE DO THAT?!

"Psh, I know that." I snorted. I was trying my best to play it cool.

"You're easy to read, Anya."

I pouted. "I am not!"

"Yeah, okay."

Ugh, should I really go back to his village?

*~*~*~*~*Mend My Broken Heart~*~*~*~*

I said my goodbyes to Kei and the other villagers. Kei promised me to keep my home in good shape just in case I change my mind and want to move back in there. I was actually pretty excited to live in Jun's mansion and to be with Naomi every day like the old times! I'm truly blessed Jun asked me to live with him.

Without wasting any more time, Jun and I went on the boat to go to Takara, and the ride there wasn't as far as I thought! I really wanted to say hello to Sakura since I haven't seen her in ages, but Jun told me she was working on a mission or something. I was disappointed, but he ensured me I will see her soon.

"I left my horse here, so we'll get to my village before sundown," he explained.

"Alright."

We were in the woods of Takara and we immediately spotted Jun's horse. Jun wanted me to be up front while he controlled his horse's reins from behind me. I wasn't going to lie, but I felt secure with his arms wrapped around me.

"We might run into some Shinobu samurais," Jun warned.

"I figured," I sighed.

"Just stay behind me and I promise they won't even go near you."

"Thanks, Jun."

We rode in silence until we heard loud voices. It has to be Shinobu samurais or Chiyoko ninjas! We finally spot ten Chiyoko ninjas up above us! They were all on tree branches talking amongst themselves.

"Wow, for a bunch of ninjas, you sure make a lot of fucking noise!" Jun shout out as he jumped off his horse to wield his samurai sword.

"Oh, look! It's the traitor!" One of the ninjas yelled.

Aren't they the ones who disobeyed their own kind? I asked myself.

"Come down here and fight me!" Jun spat.

Jun didn't have to ask twice, all ten of the ninjas attacked Jun at once, but they couldn't even scratch him! He sliced every single one of them with just one blow of his wind power! His skills were so powerful that it killed all of the Chiyoko ninjas!

"Impressive!" I complimented.

"It's nothing," he smirked.

I then spotted a ninja coming from behind Jun! "JUN BEHIND YOU!" I screamed.

It was too late. The Chiyoko ninja slashed Jun's arm with his sword! Before I had time to react to Jun's injury, Jun sliced the ninja causing the ninja to fall on the ground, lifelessly.

I immediately got off the horse and ran over to Jun. "Are you okay?"

"It's just a little cut, no big deal." Jun shrugged.

I examined it and his wound looked pretty deep! "Let me, at least, bandage it up."

I can tell Jun was about to protest, but I ripped the sleeve off my kimono and began to wrap it around his upper arm, so it was secure around his wound.

"Anya…"

"I know it's not much, but it will hold up until we get to your village," I said.

Jun stared at me, but I didn't know why… Was there something on my face?

"Jun?"

He didn't answer me, but instead, he leaned in and pressed his lips against my own. I pulled back and pushed him away.

"Why did you kiss me?!" I asked harshly.

"What's the big deal? You kissed me a lot last night!" Jun glared.

"Yeah, but I was drunk," I muttered.

Jun's eyes widened. "I see… You only kissed me because you were drunk…"

I felt my heart drop. "No, that's not why! I'm just saying…"

"Forget it." He interrupted me. "Let's just keep going."

There was no point in arguing with him, so I hopped on the horse and Jun did the same. I was in front of him again, but his arms weren't as tight around me as they were before. I guess he's mad at me now…

*~*~*~*~*Mend My Broken Heart~*~*~*~*

We were still riding Jun's horse, but I think we are almost at Madoka Village. I felt really bad for what I said to Jun back there, but I didn't mean it like that at all! That kiss on the beach meant something to me, and I am starting to fall for Jun. I just don't know if I'll ever love him like I did with Goemon. I do really care for Jun, though. I just don't know what is going to happen between us. Yeah, I was drunk, but I didn't regret kissing Jun…

I tried to talk to Jun a couple of times, but he would ignore me every time. I don't want him to be mad at me especially when I didn't mean what I said!

*~*~*~*~*Mend My Broken Heart~*~*~*~*

"ANYA!" I heard Naomi's voice.

We were finally at Madoka Village, and I was happy that the first person I saw was Naomi! I jumped off of Jun's horse and ran up to her to give her a big hug.

"I'm so happy you are here!" She hugged me really tight.

"Me too!"

"You brought her back!" Naomi said to Jun as Jun walked up to us.

"Wait, did you guys plan this?" I gasped.

"Of course!" She grinned. "I think it's best if you stay with us, Anya. We can make you happy!"

I frowned. "I guess…"

"Trust me, you'll feel much better here after a couple of days," she insured me.

"Whatever you say," I sighed.

"Oh, Jun! Um, I know you're going to be annoyed but the headman wants you to meet his daughter tonight, so there will be a banquet held in the mansion for her arrival," Naomi said to Jun.

"That's fine," he muttered as he walked away from us.

Naomi waited until Jun was out of our sites. "Hm. That's strange," she whispered.

"Huh?" I tilted my head in confusion.

"Usually, he complains if a rich man forces his daughter on him to marry… Is he okay?"

"I kind of ticked him off, but I'm sure he'll get over it…" I rubbed the back of my head.

"Causing trouble already, I see." Naomi rolled her eyes. "Oh, well. Let me show you to your room!" She grabbed my hand and started to drag me all the way inside the mansion.

I have been in this mansion a couple of times, but it is a lot different than before! The villagers remodeled EVERYTHING! The hallways and the rooms were a lot bigger!

"Here we are!" Naomi took me into this nice guest room.

"Wow, this is cool!" I commented.

"Yeah, it's next to my room, so if you ever need anything, I'm right here."

"Thanks, Naomi."

"Oh, and I bet you need a kimono for tonight's banquet!"

"I don't know if I want to go," I sighed. "I just got here and I'm kind of tired from traveling all day."

"Oh, come on, Anya!"

I took a deep breath. "Fine, but I get to pick one of your nice kimonos!"

"That's the spirit!" Naomi cheered.

*~*~*~*~*Mend My Broken Heart~*~*~*~*

After picking one of Naomi's kimonos and going to a late dinner, I decided to get ready for this banquet. I haven't seen Jun since we arrived here, and I felt guilty for it. I can't believe I blurted out the reason I kissed him was because I was drunk… I don't blame him for being mad at me! I would be upset if someone said the exact same thing!

"Anya? Are you almost ready?" I heard Naomi's voice from behind the door.

"Yeah!" I checked myself in the mirror for the last time before opening the door.

"You look nice!" Naomi complemented.

"So do you!"

"Thanks!"

We began to walk down the hall to go to the banquet. I hope Naomi doesn't ditch me all night for Alvah, but I wouldn't blame her. I am honestly happy for the two of them! I have never seen Naomi in love with someone until she met Alvah.

Speaking of him, here he is… "Anya!" Alvah shouted out and gave me a huge hug.

"Hey, Alvah!" I greeted.

"How do you like this place?" He curiously asked.

"I love it!" I grinned.

Alvah, Naomi, and I walked down the stairs to go to the dining hall where the banquet was being held, but as soon as we got there, Alvah and Naomi ditched me! Who am I suppose to hang out with now?!

I looked around the room and spotted Jun talking to this beautiful girl. She must be the headman's daughter. I can tell because she wore an expensive kimono and wore flashy jewelry.

"Wow, now you are going to be jealous for King Jun," Falitna whispered behind me.

"FALITNA?!" What is she doing here?

"How are you? Still depressed over Goemon?" She smirked.

"Not in the mood for you," I muttered.

Falitna and I have been somewhat getting along. It's like we have a love/hate relationship with each other, but she's been trying to help me get over Goemon. I think she feels bad for me.

"Well, are we just going to stand here and stare at the king, or are we going to drink?!" Falitna spat.

"Are you going to hang out with me?" I beamed.

I rather hang with Falitna than be by myself! I honestly would leave if I knew I was alone all night!

"Duh!" Falitna grabbed my wrist and dragged me to the sake table. She poured herself and I a full glass of sake. We both downed it in one chug then we both poured another glass full.

"Something tells me we are going to have fun together!" She laughed.

"Yeah, never thought that would happen." I laughed with her.

Falitna and I linked arms and headed towards a table to sit down and enjoy our drinks. She told me that we would not be serving ourselves any more drinks. I didn't understand what she meant by that until a couple of men came up to us and asked if they can get us more alcohol!

"I take it you always get men to give you stuff?" I asked her.

"Of course! I finally have a single friend who can enjoy these perks with me!" She grinned.

"But, do you end up liking one of these men?"

Falitna just snorted. "No, I use them to get me stuff, so I can sit here and look pretty."

"Isn't that leading them on, though?" I didn't like the sound of this.

"Hey, it's better to hurt someone than be the one getting hurt!" She winked.

I thought about what she just said, and she's right! I refuse to get heartbroken again, so might as well use guys to get what we want!

*~*~*~*~*Mend My Broken Heart~*~*~*~*

I lost track how many drinks Falitna and I had, but who cares! The guys were all over us, and they kept bring more and more drinks. They tried to flirt with Falitna and I, but we shut them down instantly! I never used someone to get me stuff before, but it was kind of fun!

I asked Falitna why she was at this village, and she told me she was ordered by Sakura to train some of the samurais on ninjutsu, so they were familiar with it when they go against the Chiyoko ninjas.

"Do you want another drink, girls?" A man asked us in a lustful voice.

"Yes, but bring two each for us! We are drinking them like water!" Falitna ordered.

The man left to get our drinks while we laughed obnoxiously on what Falitna just said! She wasn't lying, though. We were drinking this sake like it was nothing.

"Anya, can I talk to you?" Jun came out of nowhere and grabbed my wrist violently.

"Hey! Leave her alone!" Falitna spat.

Jun ignored her and pulled me by my wrist to stand up. He then dragged me outside to talk privately. Wow, everyone has been dragging me around lately, and it was getting annoying!

"What are you thinking?!" He asked sternly.

"What are you talking about?"

"Those men could easily slip a drug in there and you wouldn't even know it!"

I rolled my eyes. "Falitna is with me, and she said she does it all the time!"

"Her body is immune to drugs and poisons because she is a high-ranked ninja, Anya."

I looked down at the ground to avoid his gaze. "Sorry. I should have thought it through."

"I'm just looking out for you," he muttered.

I looked at him and I felt guilty all over again. He's mad at me, yet he kept an eye out for me even though he was with someone.

"I just want to say this one thing, and I'll let you get back to your date," I whispered.

"Go ahead."

"Well, this morning when I said that I only kissed you because I was drunk… I didn't mean it like that! I mean, it sounded so blunt, but it came out wrong!" I paused to try to think what to say next. This is hard and being drunk was not helping! Jun studied me as I cleared my throat to talk again.

"Um, and I like your kisses. I didn't regret them at all! Trust me! I just… I don't know. I care about you, a lot Jun, and I'm happy you're in my life."

"Oh really?" Jun snorted.

"I'm serious! And I'm not saying this because I am drunk right now; I'm saying this because it comes from the bottom of my heart!"

It's true, I really care about Jun, but I don't know what to do. I think I was pushing Jun away from me because I'm still in love with Goemon…

Jun went to say something to me, but his date approached us!

"King Jun, are you coming back inside?" The headman's daughter asked. I think she was glaring at me, but it might be my imagination since my vision was blurry.

"Oh! Sorry to keep you out here!" I said to Jun.

"You should be! The king has more important things to do than to pay attention to a peasant like you!" The headman's daughter snapped.

Geez, she's rude. I mouthed "sorry" to Jun and immediately walked away from them. I felt bad for Jun leaving his date, but I really felt bad for growing jealous of her. Why am I jealous for Jun when I still love Goemon?

*~*~*~*~*Mend My Broken Heart~*~*~*~*

I said my goodbyes to Falitna and headed upstairs to retire for the evening. I was really drunk so I just wanted to be in my new room, but something caught my eye! I saw the huge bathhouse on the same floor as my room! I immediately went inside and locked the door behind me. I then stripped and prepared the bath.

This is tub is a lot bigger than the one in the Takara's mansion!

"Anya?" I heard Jun's voice from outside the bathroom door.

I hugged my knees and lowered myself in the hot water! He can't see me like this! I heard the doorknob moving and then I heard the door click!

Did he unlock the door?!

Jun opened the door slowly. "I thought one of those men took you in their room," he whispered as he shut the door behind him and relocked it.

"No, I'm taking a bath. I never took a bath in a huge tub before!" I praised.

"It's way too big for just one person… Maybe I should join you?" Jun undid the sash of his belt and his kimono opened up!

"No, no!" I felt my cheeks getting rosy.

"I won't touch you or anything. We both have seen each other naked. It's no big deal." He insured me.

Before I could protest, Jun was completely naked and he sat across from me in the bathtub!

So much for enjoying this bath, by myself!

"Do you want me to wash your back?" He asked softly.

"You just got done saying you won't touch me!" I snapped.

"But, how are you going to wash your back by yourself?" He grabbed my arm and turned me around so he was facing my back.

I wanted to yell at him, but after I felt his hands rubbing up and down my back, I couldn't bring myself to do it. His touch felt so good!

"How does it feel?" He whispered in my ear.

"It's okay, I guess." I tried my best not to moan out.

He kept rubbing my back and my head naturally rested on his shoulder. I could fall asleep from his touches!

"JUN?! JUN? ARE YOU IN THERE?" I heard a woman's voice from outside the bathroom door!

"Is that your date?" I freaked.

Jun wrapped his arm around my waist and held me tight while he covered my mouth with his hand.

"Sh. If we stay quiet then she'll leave," he whispered in my ear.

I nodded and the headman's daughter kept pounding on the door. I prayed in my head she doesn't know how to unlock doors like Jun can!

As she kept banging on the door, Jun started to lick my neck up and down! I went to squeal, but his hand was still covering my mouth.

"You don't want to get caught, do you?" He asked quietly.

He's teasing me! That's so mean!

After she kept pounding, we heard footsteps leaving the bathroom door. I think we're safe…

Jun removed his hand from in front of my mouth and I turned around to face him.

"That's not nice to ditch your date, Jun!"

"So, you want me to do all this fun stuff with her instead of you?" He started to massage my hips!

"I don't care!" I spat.

"You wouldn't care if I kiss her too?" He asked teasingly.

I felt my heart stop. Oh, no… I'm growing jealous of the headman's daughter again!

Jun studied me as I sat on his lap in silence.

"I don't want you to kiss anyone but me," I whispered harshly.

That was a bold thing to say, but I'll blame it on the alcohol even though it's true. I don't want Jun to kiss anyone else… I want him all to myself.

"You have nothing to worry about, Anya." He leaned in to kiss me, but I turned my head and began to sob.

"Just… Don't." I choked out.

"Don't what?" Jun grabbed my face with his hand and turned it so I was looking at him.

"Don't hurt me like he did… I don't think I would be able to handle it."

"I would never dare to hurt you. You are the only person I care about." He gently smiled.

I examined his face and nodded. I felt my heart beating fast. I do believe in Jun, and I trust him. I know he won't truly hurt me like Goemon did! I pressed my lips against Jun's and he didn't hesitate to deepen the kiss. We played with each other's tongues and my body immediately grew hot.

I pulled away from the kiss and looked deep into his eyes. "Is it okay if we take this slow?"

"Slow…" Jun pondered then nodded. "Yeah, but can I sleep by you tonight?"

"Of course," I answered.

"Then we should get out and get ready for bed," he said.

*~*~*~*~*Mend My Broken Heart~*~*~*~*

I made Jun come in the guest room I was staying at because I didn't want to walk all the way to the third floor to his room. We both stripped from our clothing as soon as we went into the bed. I thought I was going pass out, but instead, I forced myself on Jun and kept kissing him!

"You won't regret kissing me tomorrow, right?" Jun asked in between our kisses.

"No, I won't." I lightly bit his bottom lip.

Jun softly moaned and it made me feel hot inside. I don't know if I can take this slow, but I stopped kissing him and rested my head on his chest as he wrapped his arm around me, so I was secure next to his body.

I haven't felt loved in a very long time.