Wow it feels good to finally be able to be back on here, I had computer issues and was starting to have withdrawls lol.
Disclaimor: S Meyer owns the original Twilight series not me, :(.
Warning: this story does include mention of rape.
Edward POV
"Edward you home?" I loved that voice that called to me, the voice of my wonderful fiancé.
"Yeah Em, I'm in the laundry room." I yelled back as I hung the last pair of pants.
"Hey baby," Emmett smiled as he slid his arms around me and held me close to him, my favorite place, in his arms.
"Hey handsome," I mumbled into his chest as I relished in the feeling of being in his arms.
"Did you call Beth, is she going to watch Seth tonight?" He asked as he rubbed soothing circles on my back.
"Yeah, but she said she couldn't be here until about 5 so we're going to have to be a little late."
"That's fine, Sam will understand. But it's already 4 so I'm going to head up and take a shower. Where is Seth?" He asked as he went towards the stairs.
"He's in his room, he's watching Cars."
"Of course he is," Emmett chuckled. Seth has a fascination with the movie, every time I ask if he wants to watch a movie he always wants to watch Cars.
I can't believe I have the life that I do today. With taking an extra load of classes here and there I have finally finished my schooling and have started a job I like. I've joined a small private practice of doctors, ranging from pediatrics to OBGYN to physical therapist; my position is the counselor for teenagers. I work four days a week, which leaves plenty of time to spend with Emmett and Seth.
I met Emmett a couple of months after I ended my relationship with Jasper. I was really torn up about how our relationship had ended, which also resulted in me separating from all our friends, I miss them a lot. Emmett helped me through my tough times and somehow that turned into dating, which turned into living with each other, which now has turned into being engaged. Meeting Emmett also meant meeting his little boy. Seth is four years old now and he calls me Daddy Edward, I love it, I love that little boy with all my heart.
After my little trip down memory lane it was time to get myself ready to leave, Beth should be here soon. As I finished up, Beth called. "Hey Edward, I'm really sorry about this but I'm not going to be able to watch Seth tonight. My brother didn't think it would take this long to buy a car, I think we're going to be here for awhile longer. He found one he likes and the bank has screwed something up with his account so we have to fix that. I'm really sorry Edward."
"It's okay Beth. I hope you work everything out."
"Thanks Edward."
"Bye Beth." I sighed hanging up.
"Who was that?" Emmett asked, I didn't even realize he was already done with his shower and ready to go, and had made himself a snack I see.
"Beth, she said she can't watch Seth tonight, something about her brother buying a car."
"Fine, we'll take him to my parents' house. I'm sure Sam won't mind if we're later than I already told him we would be." Emmett shrugged as he ate his sandwich.
"I'm going to go change real quick, you should probably get a few toys and things ready for Seth to take to your parents'." I suggested.
"Will do," he mumbled around a mouth full of sandwich. Running upstairs I went straight to our bedroom, grabbed my clothes and headed for our shower. Ten minutes later I dried off and tried to settle my unruly hair. "You know that looks damn sexy the way it is." Emmett's deep sexy voice filled my ears.
"Yes, I remember you telling me the same thing about a hundred times," I smiled.
"So, leave it how it is," he wrapped his strong arms around my waist, stuck his face in the crook of my neck, and inhaled. I love it when it does that; it makes me feel wanted and loved. "I want it to look like I just claimed you in the car, so they all know you're mine."
"I doubt they are going to care it I'm yours or not, didn't you say Sam was straight?" He nodded his head confused. "That means most of his friends there will probably be straight, which in turn means they won't care if I'm taken because I'm gay and they're not. So I don't want to look like we just had sex in the car after already being late."
"Yeah, but you've always attracted attention from women and I think there is going to be another gay guy there, so there." He stuck his tongue out at me in the mirror, then went to get Seth. After straightening my hair a little more I went downstairs. "You ready babe?"
"Yeah, let me get Seth a blanket, I'll meet you in the car." I told him as I went to grab Seth a blanket. It wasn't cold outside but Seth always travels better when he has a blanket to curl up with, plus I'm sure he'll be asleep when we go back to get him tonight. I found a blanket and took it out to the car with me. Of course we're taking Emmett's huge jeep, he loves the thing, but I'm short and have to practically take a running jump to get in it. I handed Seth the blanket, closed the back door, and pulled myself up to the passenger seat. Emmett was laughing at me, like always.
Finally after an hour in traffic, dropping off Seth, and going back through another half hour of traffic, we made it to the club. This is the first time I'm going to meet Emmett's co-workers, I'm nervous. Emmett of course could tell right away that I was nervous. "Don't worry about it baby, I'm sure Sam's friends are nice people or he wouldn't have asked us to come along."
"Is that his name, Sam?"
"Yeah, why?"
"It sounds familiar, I think one of my old friends dated a guy named Sam. Oh well, I'm sure it's not the same guy." I shrugged as we walked into the club. Emmett held my hand tight as he maneuvered through all the people.
"I see Sam over there." He told me as he pointed to a group of people. I wanted to freeze as soon as I saw them; it was my old friends who I left when I left Jasper. Emmett didn't notice when I froze, I guess he thought I was just trying to keep away from other people. The good thing is I didn't see Jasper with them, maybe he won't be here tonight. I placed myself right behind Emmett; I wasn't ready for them to see me.
"Emmett, oh my gosh, is that really you?" I heard Rosalie squeal, wait how does she know Emmett?
"Hey Sam, I didn't know you knew Rosie." Emmett laughed as Rosalie gave him a big hug, of course she had to look over his shoulder when she did it. Her eyes were as big as quarters when she saw me.
"Edward?" She whispered, then pushed Emmett away from her and pulled me to her.
"Hi Rose," I smiled as I hugged her close; it felt so good to hug her again. She let me go and I scanned the rest of the table, I spotted Alice with her mouth open wide in shock, and then I saw him. He's just as amazing as he was two years ago, of course now he has a tan boy in his arms. How young is that kid? When our eyes met I just smiled shyly and he looked at me with shock.
"Wait, you know each other too?" Emmett asked.
"Yeah, we used to be really good friends before I moved back to Forks two years ago." I answered him.
"Yeah, before you dropped off the face of the earth!" Alice shrieked at me, then her little body was flying at me. I caught her with ease and we held each other tight. "How long have you been back?" She asked.
"A couple of months," I told her slowly.
"A couple of months?! And you didn't even try and get in touch with us? Guess what Edward, my number is still the same!"
"Sorry, I thought after two years of zero contact it would be really weird to just call you up one day."
"I don't care about weird. Promise me right now you will never do anything like that again." I noticed her eyes were gaining more moisture as she talked.
"I promise Alice." I sighed and pulled her close to me once again.
"What a coincidence, you all being old friends." Emmett chuckled. Yeah, what a coincidence, I thought.
"Hi Edward," I heard that deep husky voice that used to make me tremble, with love and fear towards the end. I turned back to him shyly and noticed he was drinking, is he the same as he was or has he changed?
"Hi Jasper."
"What?" Emmett growled. I never told anyone but Emmett the real reason I left Jasper.
We had been dating for three years when I noticed Jasper's behavior started to change when he was drunk. I hated to admit it, but Jasper was a mean drunk. In the beginning of our relationship he never really drank, because we were all under age, but after he turned 21 and started to drink more, he started to get drunk more. It wasn't an all the time sort of thing, it was normal college party getting drunk sort of thing, I wouldn't call him an alcoholic, but he did have a problem. He would especially drink heavy when he was with his new friends Alec, Felix, and Demetri. Whenever I would say something about it he would get defensive and say he was just trying to have fun or it wasn't as bad as I think it was. I spent two years after that getting beat up at least once a month. I don't think he really meant what he said or did when he was drunk, that is what kept me with him for so long. But then I started to think, if he says it when he's drunk, when he's not holding anything back, does that mean there is a little part of him that really feels that way? I remember the first time when he really got aggressive, it usually started with sex.
"Edward, I love you, I love that tight ass of yours." He purred in my ear at the club.
"I love you too Jasper." I smiled and tried to cuddle up in his chest.
"What do you say we go get some air?"
"Sure." I followed him out to the parking lot, where he pulled me to our car and pushed me into the backseat. "Ow, Jasper that hurt." I whined as I moved the buckle out of my back.
"You're fine," he sighed uncaringly at me as he moved over me and closed the door. Then his lips attacked mine and his fingers fumbled with my jeans.
"Wait… Jasper…what are… you…doing?" I struggled to say.
"I told you I love that tight little ass of yours, so I'm going to have it." He smiled, it wasn't his normal smile, it was his drunken nasty smile.
"Not in the car Jazz, someone could see us." I struggled to keep my jeans up, he slapped my hand away hard, and pulled my jeans down. "Jasper that hurt."
"Shut up you baby, it was simple little slap. If you keep struggling you're going to get more than that."
"Jasper, don't say that, you don't mean it." Jasper had never been abusive towards me, especially if I didn't feel like having sex.
"I think I do," he said as he ripped my underwear open.
"Jasper, that was a good pair of briefs." *SLAP* I was stunned, never had he slapped me, I didn't know what to do. He easily overpowered me and I was already on the bottom. I struggled more with him, but he grabbed my hands and pinned them over my head, hitting them hard against the door. He lowered his pants with one hand and placed himself at my entrance, he wasn't even going to prepare me. He kissed me tenderly as he slowly entered me, I couldn't help but start to cry. Surprisingly he wasn't as rough as I thought he was going to be, he was tender and gentle just like he normally was.
After that night he apologized for weeks and tried to make it up to me, saying he didn't know what he was doing, and he didn't remember it. He treated me like a king for weeks on end. But eventually it happened again, and again, and again. After every time he would always apologize and try to make it up to me, but soon I grew to expect it.
The last time it happened was the worst. I stayed home that night, not wanting to watch him get drunk and not be able to do anything about it. I thought by the time he got home I could just act like I was asleep and if he wanted sex, he could just have it, I wouldn't even let him know I was awake; it had worked on some nights. But that night he came home around 2 in the morning and was very drunk. I heard him slam the door and stomp into our bedroom. "Wake up," he commanded. I tried to pretend I didn't hear it until he jumped on the bed and straddled my hips. "Wake up you slut," he emphasized with a slap.
"What was that for?" I moaned, he had never called me names like that. He always called me loving names, never mean ones.
"For being the slut you are, Mike told me you two had a real good time Wednesday." He growled.
"What are you talking about?" Nothing happened on Wednesday; I stopped at the store and went home.
"Don't play stupid Edward, it doesn't look good on you." He slapped me again.
"Jasper, nothing happened on Wednesday." I pleaded for him to listen to me.
"Don't lie to me! Mike told me about your little plan to meet up this weekend, that the only reason you stayed home tonight was so he could come over while I was gone!"
"That's not true Jasper!" I received a hard punch to my rib that time.
"I'm tired of you lying to me! I've given you 5 years of my life and this is how you repay me?"
"I didn't do anything Jasper." I had tears streaming down my face as I struggled against him, he was holding my hands above my head and was pulling my pajamas off.
"I know nothing happened, that's because Mike found me at the club and told me all about you're little plan. I'll teach you never to cheat on me." He placed himself at my entrance and thrust into me harshly. There wasn't anything caring about it. He thrust long and hard, we haven't had sex in about a week and he hadn't stopped to prepare me. I felt like I was being ripped open. I was crying so hard I was having trouble breathing. Jasper still didn't stop. After a few minutes I felt him let go inside me. I thought he would stop after that, but he kept thrusting, it was like he was in a trance, and then he suddenly stopped and pulled out. I still hadn't stopped crying.
"Would you shut up you little baby?!" He yelled. "You deserve everything you got, you little slut."
"I was…never going… to cheat on…y-you." I stammered out between shaky breathes.
"You talked about it, it doesn't matter if you don't actually have the balls to go through with it."
"I never made a plan with Mike!" I yelled.
"Don't ever raise your voice to me!" I received a few hard slaps after that. "I will claim you again if I have to!" I already felt like my ass had been put through a wood chipper so I shut my mouth and said nothing. "That's what I thought," he growled and went to take a shower.
As he took a shower I went to the other bathroom and surveyed the damage. I had bruises all over me, including my ass. I promised myself that the next day while he was at the gym with some of his friends I would pack my things and leave. I slept on the couch that night, when I woke up there was a note beside me from Jasper, he said he was sorry and he loved me and that he didn't remember what happened last night, but he must have been horrible because I slept on the couch. The love I had for him had slowly started to diminish over the years that he had been beating me.
I called a moving company to see if it was possible for them to come today. They said they could be here by 4 if I was ready to go and will to pay an extra fee. I told them to be here and went to buy a lot of boxes. I didn't really have a lot of stuff here; I only moved into Jasper's apartment two years ago and still hadn't unpacked a lot. About an hour before the moving van pulled up I had everything packed and made arrangements to fly back home to Forks, Washington, my home town. I had a flight at 11 o'clock and my stuff would be flown the next day. I called my parents to let them know I was coming home, I didn't tell them much, just what they needed to know.
Just as the moving van pulled up out front so did Jasper. He walked calmly into the apartment, a moving guy was with him. "What's this about Edward?" he sounded hurt.
"Jasper we need to talk." Then I looked to the man, "everything that goes is in brown boxes and marked Edward Cullen." The man started to gather boxes and take them outside.
"What is going on Edward?" Jasper asked.
"I'm going home Jasper, these past few years have been really rough on me and you haven't tried to make it easier. Whenever I ask you to get help you get defensive and say it's not as bad as I say it is. Jasper I can hardly walk today because of what you did to me last night. I don't feel safe in your arms anymore, I don't feel safe with you anymore." There were tears rolling down my face, this was the most painful thing I have ever done.
"Edward, I don't know what to say," he whispered, a tear threatening to fall.
"Exactly Jasper, you don't know what to do because you refuse to address the situation. I can't live like this anymore and if you truly loved me, you wouldn't make me live like this. Jasper, I will always care for you, but I can't love you anymore." I grabbed my jacket and headed towards the door. "Goodbye Jasper, take care of yourself." I sniffled and walked out of his life.
"Tell me this isn't the same guy," Emmett growled beside me, he was starting to shake.
"Um…yeah it is." I whispered to him. I regretted it as soon as I saw his eyes grow wide and he lunged at Jasper.
So how was that? Please let me know if i should continue this story or if i have bitten off more than i can chew. I love hearing from my readers. And as a heads up there will be more mentions of rape and all that happened between Jasper and Edward, i don't mean to affend anyone by what i say, i just hope it comes out the way i want it too.