Title: Rolling in the Deep
Author: Sarmi
Category: Post Buffy Season 8 Spoilers for Issue 40
Genres: Angst
Disclaimer: I don't own Buffy Spike or even Angel but a girl can dream.
Summary: After the roller coaster of Season 8, where does this leave Buffy and Spike?
Authors note: The title of this story and lyric within is from the Adele song "Rolling in the Deep"
Chapter 1: No need for words
Finally, I can see you crystal clear.
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare.
See how I leave, with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do.
I wish I was wrong, that I hadn't just confirmed what I had always known. I always knew her better than she knew herself, my Slayer. Even in a sea of slayers she would always be the only one I saw.
As soon as she laid eyes on me I knew. I have seen every expression of shock she is capable of, if our history proves anything is that I am excellent at eliciting that particular response. But her features showed no sign of surprise. She had known, all along she known and not cared. I had counted the days she was gone, and she could care less that I was back. There is no way she could have meant it at the bottom of that damn crater, no matter how much I hoped she had. I guess I was right to stay away. Build a life she was not the center of.
Now who's lying? I tried to be something without her, but here I was in the middle of another war, trying to save her life even if it cost me mine.
Not only with one look did I know she knew, with one smell I knew who she had been with. Even on the brink of the end of the world, she couldn't resist the Poof. While we manage to bring a building down, the two of them were bringing the world down. God help me, I won't put her in the ground again, even if it means I have to clean of his mess. Again.