This is for nadia the demented one's ABC challenge on sillybella's Twilight challenge forum. This was really tough! I hope you like it. It was pretty hard to write and edit and it's definitely not my favorite story but I did appreciate the challenge! This is more of a characterization thing than a story though...
Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer.
Anything she wants, he tells her. But he'll never give her what she really, truly wants. Centuries could pass and she'd still want the same thing.
Doesn't Sam understand that all Leah really wants is him?
Even though she despises him, wants to make him hurt as much as she does, wants to punish him, she can still find those remnants of love if she looks (or even if she doesn't). Facing him now is worse than death and Leah wonders why she's even still here.
Giving up is out of the question. Her heart may be splintered and her spirit broken, but Leah will stick it out. If she left now, she wouldn't know where to go and being away from him would only make her broken heart ache more. Just staying in La Push is easier than trying to escape.
Kissing others (and she has since then, in a half-hearted attempt to forget) never compares to kissing Sam. Like loving vampires or leaving the pack, it just goes against her nature.
Most of the other wolves find her a burden, a realization almost as painful as finding out Sam loved Emily. Never will she let them know how deep this cuts her. Over and over, Leah thinks malicious thoughts in an attempt to assert her independence. Part of her believes this pathetic attempt, but the rational part knows that as long as she's a member of the pack, she's servant to the alpha.
Quests for happiness find no treasure. Running is her only form of relief now, but she can usually hear the thoughts of the pack in the background, breaking the silence.
Silence--what an inaccurate word. Taking her wolf form won't help, since the pack can hear her. Usually she tries to stay human to get away from the voices, but La Push is so small that she always runs into another one of the pack. Very rarely can Leah actually find true silence that allows her to sit and think, mulling over her feeble existence.
Waiting is Leah's last option and the only way she'll ever be happy. X chromosomes are in abundance here, unfortunately. Yearning for the impossible isn't going to change her depressing situation and she's terrified her whole life is going to remain the way it is now. Zealously, Leah decides she WILL escape--if only to get her mind off the truth.
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