You dudes rock :D here's another chapter for your awesomeness! As usual i dont own diddly. Theres a lot of changing between POV, sorry.

BPOV

Charlie knocked on my bedroom door, I'd been lying awake for a few hours. It was part of my normal sad routine. Go to bed, wake up screaming, pretend to fall asleep again, pretend I've moved on. Life was a blur, occasionally I'd get the stabbing pains reminding me of my old family, but on the whole I was existing. I had no idea what month it was, and didn't care either way.

I pretended to wake up and he handed me a letter. It had come from a lawyer in Seattle, Charlie raised an eyebrow probably wondering what I'd done to gain the attention of a lawyer. I rolled my eyes and he left. We'd become accomplished in silent communication, not that we were particularly verbose to begin with, it was just easier. Charlie was scared to talk to me, not knowing what would set me off, and I just couldn't bother with the effort.

In the lawyer's envelope was a plain sealed envelope with an address for J. Whitlock on the back. It was the letter inside was what finally woke me from my depressed stupor:

Dear Bella,

I hope this letter finds you well. I am writing to convey my sincerest apologies for the loss of my control on your birthday. There is no excuse for my behaviour, I ruined what should have been a celebration and nearly hurt you. I am working on my control more than ever, coming so close to hurting someone I care about was a wake up call.

I understand if you do not wish to hear from me again, but have included my address should you wish to contact me. Please find enclosed a belated gift I wished to give you for your birthday. I hope yourself and the Cullens are well.

Kindest Regards,

Jasper

I had to read through several times in order to comprehend what he was saying. He was meant to be with the Cullens, wasn't he? I was completely touched by his letter and couldn't believe my eyes when I saw the gift. A lot of his letter left me confused, I had told Alice I never blamed Jasper. I immediately wrote back, maybe I could keep some contact with them? Maybe I wasn't just a distraction to all of them. I had never expected to hear from any of them, let alone Jasper.

Dear Jasper,

If you're going to apologise for my birthday when I must beg forgiveness for the paper cut. Thank you for your letter it, meant a lot to me. I hope that we can keep in contact, please, I've missed you all so much.

I wish you luck with your training, I know you can do it. Please don't blame yourself for what happened. Accidents happen. I understand that the unanticipated blood loss must has exhausted your control on top of feeling the rest of the Cullen's emotions.

Thank you also for the gift, it was very generous and thoughtful. How have you been keeping? I was a bit confused when you said you hope the Cullens are well, I'm afraid I wouldn't know.

Best wishes,

Bella

Well, hopefully I had at least one friend. I was slightly ashamed for how desperately I needed to hear from them. I couldn't help but wonder why Alice hadn't sent a message as well, I thought at least Esme would care enough to contact me.

With that thought I left to post the letter. I had the first genuine smile on my face since my birthday. Hopefully, I could get a response.

JPOV

Peter had been walking around with his trademark self-satisfied grin. He knew something of course, but he wouldn't tell me anything. Clearly, once the mail arrived I knew immediately what had given him that look.

Reading Bella's letter I couldn't help the snort. True to form she forgave me, wanting to befriend the vampire who went for a nibble on her birthday. Fucking. Death. Wish. Still, I wasn't one to look a gift horse in the mouth, if she wanted to be pen pals then I was definitely willing. I wasn't doing this to get back with the Cullens, I was going to do this because she was a genuinely nice person. A rarity in today's world.

I wondered how she was able to keep the letter from Edward's attention. I was sure he would have had an aneurism if he found the letter. Perhaps going through the lawyer had helped her. I would try using the stationary of different companies if it helped us communicate.

I didn't understand why she wouldn't know about the Cullens, maybe Edward sent them away keeping her for himself. He never did like to share her, that was for sure. I couldn't help but feel smug at her gracious acceptance of the donation on her behalf. Shame I didn't have anyone to gloat to.

Writing back to her I included other contact details. I didn't really want to wait another two weeks for a reply.

BPOV

Another letter arrived, this time in a different company envelope. The company logo was indicative of a taxidermist. I couldn't help but laugh at the look on Charlie's face when he handed it to me, I definitely got more than a raised eyebrow. I wondered why Jasper had chosen it, probably as an inside joke.

Dear Bella,

I'm only too happy to stay in contact. I know we didn't talk much before, but at least this way we can get to know each other without bloodshed.

Please excuse the stationary, I was not sure if Edward is aware of our correspondence. Honestly, I was expecting him to intercept the first letter and come after me for contacting you. I thought using official company stationary it would be easier to hide.

I'm glad you enjoyed the gift, I was wary to include it in the letter in case it would anger you further. Thank you for your understanding and forgiveness, I hope that we can keep in contact even if ties are severed between myself and the family. I was confused by your last letter, aren't you still in contact with them?

In order to make correspondence easier, and stop me breaking into the taxidermist for their stationary, I have included my other contact details.

~ Jasper

WHAT?

JPOV

My new daily routine of checking my email, phone, skype and messenger was finally fruitful. I was fidgeting like a child on a sugar high.

From:

To:

Hi Jas,

What do you mean you severed ties? When did this happen? Where are you now?

I haven't spoken to anyone since three days after the party, they left me.

~Bella

From:

To:

Hello Bella,

On the night of your party, after Emmett and Rose got me outside, I had to get away. I ran about 20 miles away to a clearing so I could hunt. I was there for four days and was told by Alice that I was not welcome back in the family.

I thought they were with you? Are they all gone? I don't understand.

I'm currently living with my friends Peter and Charlotte, I was with them before the Cullens. I've just signed into messenger if you're online, otherwise would it be ok to call your home phone?

~ Jas

Ten minutes later my phone rang. I knew it would be Bella. After initial greetings we discussed what happened the days following the party. Peter rushed in at the sound of my growling, rather surprised I was talking with Bella. He pulled Charlotte into the room and grabbed two stools which he and Char used to watch me eagerly. Peter always did enjoy the Cullen's soap opera.

Bella cautiously explained the stupidity that had occurred in the aftermath of the party. After hearing vague details of how Edward had treated her I would be making sure he would remain a virgin until the end of days. I was already aware he was clueless on how to treat a lady, but his incompetent bumbling had endangered Bella. As far as I was concerned this carried the sentence of castration and cremation. I would be performing testicular euthanasia on him, not that it would make much difference, he had always acted like a eunuch.

I couldn't get past the fact that he had left her in the forest and that none of my family had said good bye or stayed behind incase she needed help. The experience with the Nomad's had given me some perspective on what kind of trouble could find Bella, especially with two of the Nomadic coven members running around. I was unable to speak through the rage, Peter held his hand out for the phone.

"Hi Bella, Peter here. The Major just needs sometime to reconcile the way he's going to castrate his brother"

"Hi Peter, sorry I tried to delicately explain what happened, but it doesn't look like it worked" I couldn't help it, I yelled "there's fucking more? Are you shitting me?"

"Major, quiet down! Let Bella speak" This time it was Char who had intervened. I took a deep breath out of habit and focused on the emotional soup around me.

"Sorry Bella, its Jasper again. I'm calm now. I'm just angry they did this to you, you didn't deserve them leaving you so abruptly. Last time I checked that shit head loved you, I cant believe this is how he treats the one he loves"

"Jazz, he didn't love me, he said so himself. He said he needed to find another distraction. Its ok though, it could have been worse"

"Honey, do you mind if I call you back, there's some trees that need rearranging, maybe even a few rocks" I was barely keeping it together. I needed to kill something. "No problem Jazz. Speak to you later"

"Bye Bella". As soon as the line disconnected I roared and sped out the house.

Peter found me 6 hours later at the bottom of a 15 foot hole. "She's suffered enough Major, you're the only one who can protect her…with us of course".

"I have to be there for her, I cant believe them. Those arseholes. I cant blame them for cutting ties with me, hell I'll send them a fruit basket in thanks, but Bella? She doesn't deserve that. She's a victim to their stupidity. I cant believe that twerp played on her insecurities". Peter agreed that Bella would need our assistance. I was finally able to calm down, we planned to head to Forks. The three of us would be there in a week. We were looking into accommodation in the area. Char and Peter would hunt tonight and we would make the house ready for the possibility of a long absence.

I couldn't set foot into the Cullen mansion. The idea made me sick, everything about them was a pretence. Fake family, fake love, fake humanity, fake compassion. Fuck. The whole situation had been handled badly, there were a lot of loose ends. Both the humanity they valued and the Vampiric laws they lived with were thrown out the window. They had left a human who held first hand knowledge of our existence unsupervised and unchanged. Furthermore, they had left members of the family behind, their mates included. Bella had proven herself trustworthy time and time again, but the risk would always be there. If the Volturi encountered anyone in the Cullen or Denali covens they could be made aware of Bella's situation. This could lead to the extermination of the entire coven. One touch from Aro could screw us all.

BPOV

I started to hyperventilate when I got off the phone. I was exhausted for trying to tactfully go through what occurred after the party. I felt guilty, Jasper hadn't even been able to get to his part of the story. Exhausted, I decided it would be best to take the tranquilisers I'd been prescribed and sleep for a bit. I kept the phone near me, knowing it would wake me when he called me back. Hopefully I hadn't scared him off.

I slept lightly, zoning in and out of consciousness until he called again. It was 9 pm, 7 hours rest. I mumbled into the receiver. "Oh shit, sorry Bella honey, I didn't mean to wake you"

"Jasper its fine, I was asleep since your last call, I had nothing better to do"

"Ok, are you ok?

"Jas I'm fine, really. How are you? I'm sorry about before"

"I'm ok now, and for the love of god Isabella, stop apologising."

"Sorr….shit… damn" I heard his chuckle at the end of the line, it appeared I didn't know how to start a conversation without apologising first. "Lets move on with the conversation shall we Bella?"

"Smart arse Vampire" I mumbled into the phone, immediately I heard three sets of laughter. "Are Peter and Charlotte there too?" a chorus of greetings answered me. "Bella, would it be ok if we visited Forks?"

"Of course! When will you be here?"

"A week, I'll be coming with Peter and Char, they're traditional vampires but they wont hurt you. They've been helping me with my control"

"No problem, cant wait to meet them"

"Bella, I promise you wont see a repeat of what happened on your birthday-" Oh hell no, I was not going to have any self loathing nonsense "Jasper! Bad Jasper! No doubting yourself. I trust you and I don't want to hear about the party, ok?"

"Sorry Bella-"

"No apologising either mister!"

"Ok" I could hear Peter and Charlotte in the background laughing, there was a scuffle and Peter had the phone "I like you already, not many people can put the Major in his place"

"Thanks Petey, why do you call him Major"

"Well munchkin, that's his story to tell." After another scuffle Jasper was back "I'll tell you about it when we get there".

We said our goodbyes and I went back to sleep. Charlie checked on me before heading to bed. It was a school day tomorrow and I might actually be able to get a reasonable amount of rest.