A/N: Chapter 2, as requested :) Thank you everyone for the amazing feedback!

Disclaimer: I own nothing, only my silly little imagination.

Warning: Coarse language and yet more angst.

Beside You

Chapter 2

Kurt didn't know how long he had been lying in his bed. He didn't bother moving to check his alarm clock, but the sun had fully risen and blared in through his bedroom windows. He moaned and pulled the blankets over his head. His eyes were sore from crying for hours and the bright light had been too harsh.

"Kurt?" The voice was accompanied by a hesitant knock against his bedroom door, which Kurt hadn't bothered to close.

"I know you're awake, you snore when you sleep." Damnit.

"I have your phone. And your coat. You must have left them there the last time you were there."

Kurt didn't reply. He knew he forgot them, but he hadn't been in the mood to go retrieve them.

"Kurt?" Still no response. Kurt felt the edge of his bed descend a few inches as Blaine sat down. "You were there last night, weren't you?"

Kurt stiffened under the blankets and felt his breath hitch.

"Yes," he finally replied. His voice was raspy with disuse and he cleared his throat. "Yeah, I was there."

"Why, Kurt?" Blaine reached forward and pulled the blanket down, revealing Kurt's head. He winced in the sunlight and rolled over so he didn't have to face it. However, this resulted in him facing Blaine, and he closed his eyes rather than look at his friend.

"I went to your apartment to tell you something. One of your flat mates let me in and I went up to your room. You weren't there, but the sun was just about to set and it was beautiful, so I went out and sat on the roof. I was overheating slightly, so I took my coat off. And then I heard you come in to your room, and I moved over to the window but I saw what was happening, so I moved away and tried not to listen. And then I heard you moving towards the window, so I panicked. I jumped onto the adjacent roof and stayed there. But then you.."

Blaine hissed in a breath. "You heard us have sex."

Kurt blinked back his tears. "Yes. I pulled out my phone and started listening to music, but it made me upset. So I pulled out my headphones. I waited a little bit until I was sure you were asleep before I jumped down. I forgot to put my phone in my pocket, so it probably was on the roof, and I didn't bother grabbing my coat, either. I went in to your room through the window and I was going to leave, but I figured you'd be cold, so I grabbed your blanket and threw it over you. Then I left. I ran here."

"Kurt, you were outside for hours without a coat?" Kurt shrugged but didn't answer.

"Why didn't you just say something? You know that if you had made your presence known from the start it wouldn't have been awkward, I wouldn't have been angry or upset. And then you wouldn't have had to lie there and listen to that."

"I know. But I couldn't handle that. I couldn't interrupt that, I couldn't look at your when you were like that."

"Why? I wouldn't have minded."

"I would've minded, Blaine!" Kurt shouted while he opened his eyes. He shoved Blaine away from him and got out of his bed, choosing to go stand against a wall across the room. He felt more comfortable standing; it was easier to be defensive.

"What are you talking about?"

"God, you really are oblivious, aren't you?" Kurt raked his fingers through his hair. "Do you really have no idea how it felt to see you dating all those guys? You couldn't handle being single for long and every single time you broke up with someone, I was always there for you. I was the one who was left to always pick up the pieces. And you took that for granted, I don't think you even thought anything of it other than just good old Kurt there to help like a good best friend should. Well you know what, Blaine? What about me? What about the fact that I had to slap a stupid fucking smile on my face every time you got a boyfriend? What about the fact that every time they dumped you it broke my heart to see you crying on my shoulder? I wanted so badly every night to be able to hold you like that, but it was only when you were vulnerable and broken that I was allowed to do that. And I understand that you never saw how I felt, but that doesn't change the fact that I had to deal with that and I had to feel like that for years!"

Kurt was out of breath by the time he finished his rant and his chest rose rapidly as he breathed. He looked over at Blaine, whose face held nothing but surprise and confusion. "You're in love with me?"

"Yes, I am. Or at least, I was."

Blaine looked as though Kurt had physically slapped him. "You're not anymore?"

Kurt looked down. "I am. I just wish I wasn't anymore. This hurts so badly, Blaine. I don't know how much longer I can handle it." He felt warm arms wrap around his waist and he raised his own arms to wrap around Blaine's neck. He leaned in and put his head against Blaine's chest.

"I'm so sorry, Kurt. I had no idea you felt like this."

"That's half of the problem, isn't it?"

"What do you mean?"

"You didn't even realize what you were doing to me. I'd understand if you just didn't return my feelings and kept dating other guys, but it's like you completely ignored my feelings. I had no idea what to do because I just didn't know what you wanted. So please help me out, because I just don't know what to do."

Blaine leaned down and rested his head against Kurt's. "We'll work this out, okay? I promise you."

"Promise is a really big word, Blaine."

"Have I ever given you a reason to not trust me?" Kurt didn't reply. "Kurt?"

"No, not really. But you're given me reason to not want to trust you."

"I'm sorry, Kurt, I really am. I never meant to hurt you."

"I know."

The two remained hugging and resting against each other, letting each other's words wash around them and the sun's rays dance around their bodies.

A/N: I hope you liked it!

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