School
"Beep, Beep, Beep"
"Ugh" Godon mumbled reaching for his alarm.
He finally shut the god forsaken thing up, only to realize there was a cold spot in the bed next to him. Where was Goten? He looked around the dark room but found no traces of him. That's when he heard the shower running and smiled. Godon got up and went donwstairs to eat.
"Hey Godon" Gohan said with a smile.
"What are you doing up?" Godon asked yawning.
"Me and Videl are heading out. You know how mom is"Gohan laughed a bit.
"Awww. Okay, well can't wait to see the house" Godon smiled
"Yeah, hey, have you noticed Goten acting strangely?" Gohan asked taking a bite out of his toast.
"How do you mean?" Godon asked as he sat down at the table.
"Like he hasn't been eating as much, and I noticed his razor was stained when I went to shower the other day" Gohan said joining Godon at the wooden table.
"I noticed the stain but not the food. I'll keep my eat out on him" Godon gave a reassuring smirk.
"Good. I don't want anything to happen to either of you" Gohan said finishing off the cooked piece of deliciousness.
Then that's when they heard it. The sound that made both of their faces go ghost white.
~Goten POV~
"Fuck" I muttered to myself in the shower.
I had been in the shower for 5 minutes now. All the while not 1 thing left my mind. ~GODON~. Just hearing the name made me smile.
"Why do I have to love you" I whisper as I reach for my razor.
I would be easy to end it here. Why do I have to love you? Why are you so perfect? I'm disgusting. I shouldn't even be blessed enough to know you. I thought as I slid the blade over my ivory wrist. The collage of crimson and ivory was a beautiful sight as more crimson flowed onto the pale canvas that was my skin. It felt so good and I almost dropped the blade. I watched as the blood flowed down the drain to never be seen again.
I finished my shower and used my Ki to dry my body. I then had thoughts flood my mind as I looked into the fogged up mirror.
"Why am I so disgusting? AHHHHHH!" I scream as I land a punch on the glass. It shatters and opens up some of the healing wounds on my wrist. I enjoy the pain and seeing the blood flow. I noticed feet running up the steps and I quickened to fix myself. As sson as I put bandages over the wounds the door swung open and there stood both my brothers.
"Hi guys" I say with a blush spreading over my face. There were all dressed and here I am only in a towel.
"Goten. What happened?" Gohan questioned with a worried look on his face
"I slipped and my fist smashed against the mirror" I lie.
"Are you alright?" Godon asked walking towards me.
"Yeah just some arm wounds" I reply. I just noticed then something very important. They can see my chest. They get to notice how skinny I've become. Shit.
"Well okay. I'll be coming back later to explain to mom and dad" Gohan said turning around.
Godon then walked up to me and hugged me. His body feels warm against mine. And his clothes fit him quite well. ~What the fuck!? This isnt normal!~
"Goten, you'd tell me if something was wrong. Right?" My brother asked looking deep into my eyes.
"Yeah" I lied
"Goten your eyes are clouded. You're lying" Godon stated with a firm tone.
"Alright. I got turned down by the one person I love most. So I've stopped eating" I replied mostly honest.
"Goten. That's not okay. Starving isn't going to make anything better" he said pulling me tighter into the hug.
~damn. If he keeps this up, I'll end up spilling everything. I'm supposed to be the older one. Why is he comforting me?~ I though as I pulled away with a blush spreading across my face.
"Promise me you'll start eating" Godon said with a straight face
"Alright. Now may I leave to get ready?" I asked in a joking tone.
"Sure" he said with a sigh
I knew today was going to be bad. I just didn't know how bad it was going to be.
At school I heard whispers about someone who turned me down. Damn it Godon
You and you're big mouth! I thought as I hurried to my locker. I opened it and started putting stuff in as I felt a familiar Ki approaching.
"Hey Trunks, what's up?" I asked not looking toward him.
"Not much. I should be asking that question. You stopped eating!? What the hell! A girl is a girl there are plenty of them"he said almost yelling
"It wasn't a girl!" I shouted.
"Then what was it?" He asked calmed down
"I couldn't tell you, you would think of me as a freak and so would they. So please drop it" I plead almost running from him.
"No. Not until you tell me" he said grabbing my wrist.
"Later. Not now" I said as I headed to my first class. English.
English~
The teacher walked in 5 minutes after the bell.
"Alright class, today we'll be discussing poetry" the teacher said in an unusually high voice.
"Mrs. Goldstein, Who is it we are studying in specific?" a girl named Kat asked.
"Edgar Allen Poe" she replied with a smile.
"Alright" everyone in my class says with enthusiasm.
I know his work all too well. I've read each of his poem about a dozen times and his stories are great too. I love him, but it would be out of place to seem like I care in here.
"Okay, so your assignment for class today is to write a poem about a familiar theme to Poe, depression" the teacher cooed.
Easy
~~~~~~~Paper~~~~~~~~
Twinkle twinkle little star,
this is not my only scar.
Even though my friend is tiny,
he is also helpful and shiny.
My time is up, I must go,
I'm telling you because you must know.
The thin lines are getting deeper,
open my eyes to hear the beeper.
I can't move but I can still see,
how loved I turned out to be.
It's too late now for me to live,
I've run out of chances to give.
Goodbye now and forever,
never blame yourself, Never!
I was one of the first one's done and I knew she read mine because she had tears in her eyes. The others finished soon after but the bell rang and I was out of there in a flash. Off to my next class Study hall. Which I share with Scarlett, Trunks, and ,you guessed it, Godon.
~Study Hall~
I walk over to my table which I share with Trunks. Godon is the table adjacent to me and Scarlett is on the other side of the room. I sit down and I have a peice of paper played down in front of me.
~mind telling me what happened?~ It read
To which I replied ~Look it wasn't a girl that made me stop eating~
~then what was it?~ he wrote with a rather fast hand
~It was someone I love whom was close to me. They would never accept my feelings and my family would disown me~ I wrote almost tearing up.
It felt good to write down things on paper instead of keeping them bottled up inside.
~They may and your family loves you. I'll stick by you no natter who it is. You can trust me, I promise~ he wrote.
I looked up at him and saw his hopeful smile. So I decided I could.
~Its Godon~ I wrote and immediately turned my head in shame as I slid the paper towards him. I heard him writing and he was writing for a good few minutes.
~Goten, I understand your worry. Godon is your brother and it isn't accepted by the law. But I accept it and I will try to help. I can talk to him if you want. You just need to stop hurting yourself over your brother. I'm sure he may return your feelings but we haven't been paying much attention to you lately. I seem to want to see you two together. Want me to help?~
~I'm still trying to convince myself that I can love him and not be seen as a freak. Thanks for backing me up. I would love for you to help me~ I wrote with a sigh of relief.
Then Godon looked over a Trunks and motioned for him. Trunks walked over and sat next to him. So I went and sat next to Scarlett.
"Hey"
"Hi" she said with a smile.
I saw to her girls look at her with jealousy and envy. I smiled at the fact.
"What's up?" I asked
"Well, I heard that a girl broke your heart. Who would turn you down?" She asked with true curiosity.
"Well I can't say because I don't want a mob of girls hunting her down. But let's just say she was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen" I said making sure I said she and her instead of him and he.
"Well than she's stupid for turning you down" Scarlett said with a smile.
"Thanks" I said with a fake smile. The bell rang after about a 30 minute conversation of nothing important.
Now time for my next class Lunch. Shared with the same people plus another one of my friends. Lindsay.
~Lunch~
I walk over to my table and see Lindsay already eating. Figures, where does she put it all? She is as skinny as a model and one of the prettiest girls in school. And she's not a cheerleader. I sit down and search through my bag only to realize "I didn't pack my lunch today" I say with embarrassment.
"That's not like you. Are you alright?" She asks inquisitively.
"Yeah just forgot today" I replied honestly.
That's when Trunks and Godon walked in and noticed my lack of lunch. They both started looking at me with a terrified look in their eyes.
"Don't worry, I just forgot" I say clamly as I look back over to Lindsay. She's already halfeay done. I'm still unsure that she's not a saiyan.
"Here have half of mine" Trunks said as he offered his lunch.
"I couldn't. Its your lunch, enjoy it" I tried.
"Oh no. You're eating today" Godon chimed in pushing half his food in front of me.
That's when I noticed a third voice start.
"Have some of mine too" Lindsay said as she pushed the rest of her food towards me with a smile.
Scarlett walked in then and just smiled at the sight. She sat down and started eating her lunch and we started talking about Study hall that day.
Trunks and Godon went in and on about their story they had to do for English. Meanwhile Lindsay talked about her Boyfriend. And Scarlett and I talked about our History project that was due today. SHIT! Today!?
I ran from the cafeteria and to the computer lab as fast as possible. I couldn't have this one be latem it was the last grade for the term and I would surely fail without it. I didn't notice the similar figure trailing behind me.
~Godon's POV~
I saw Goten run out of the room. I decided to follow him just to make sure my suspicions weren't correct I was surprised to see him run to the computer lab. I thought he would do this. I peeked around the corner to see him typing his paper for history typical Goten. Last minute straight A's. I decided to leave him to it. And I walked back to the lunch room.
As I sat down I had the question asked about a dozen times.
"Where's Goten?"
"He's typing his History paper" I replied.
"Alone?" Trunks asked trying to imply something.
"What are you trying to say?" I asked unsure.
"That he might harm himself. You said it yourself there are stains in his razor"Trunks said.
"No, I said it could've been my imagination" I corrected.
"Whatever, I'm going to check" Trunks said as he left.
He didn't come back for quite sometime. When he did panic was written all over his face .
"Goten isn't there" He said
"Okay let's search I said immediately leaving the girls behind.
We ran around the school for 5 minutes checking his usual hang outs. No where.
I was out of breath by the bathroom downstairs when I heard sobs.
"Goten?" I asked as I walked in.
No response.
"Goten if that's you please come out. I'm worried about you" I plead. I hear a door unlatch and see Goten with teats down his face.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"Just everything" he said
"Please tell me" I pleaded holding him tighter.
"I can't" he said quietly.
"Why not?" I asked making sure to look him in the eye.
"I just can't" he said breaking my grab and running to his next class.
~Shit, I'll catch him at home. Now I have to worry about what it is I've wanted to do for a while. And how to do it today.~ I thought walking into biology.
~A Few Periods Later~
It was now or never. I had to make my move. I ran straight to my locker as not to waste time. I shoved everything in my bag (that I needed) and rushed towards the doors. I saw Trunks leaning against the school obviously waiting for me and Goten. I walked up to him and just kind of stood there. Whe he finally spoke to break the silence.
"What's taking Goten so long?" he asked.
"I don't know. But can I tell you something?" I reply.
"Sure" he says looking at me.
It's now or never. I slowly leaned in and could feel his breath on my lips. I got even closer, to the point of millimeters between out lips. I couldn't take it anymore. I pressed my lips against his. I just kept in the gentle kiss for what seemed like ever. I ulled away to see him shocked and a bit terrified.
"I think I'm in love with you" I say in almost inaudible.
"Goten, wait please just listen" Trunks tried.
I turned around to see Goten with eyes full of tears. He had his hands in fists. And that when I noticed the first tear fall down his ivory cheeks.
"Trunks, it's f...fine, just go be h...happy with Godon!" He said as he ran away crying.
"What was that about?" I asked.
"God, you're dense!" Trunks yelled.
"What?" I asked utterly confused
"He has given up eating for YOU!, He's hurting because you YOU!" he said emphasizing that it was my fault.
"I still don't understand" I explain wanting him to do the same.
"He loves you you moron!" Trunks yelled.
"He does!?" I ask taken aback.
"YES! Jesus, and he witnessed you confess to me and kiss me" He pointed out as he ran after Goten.
~He loves me?~ I questioned for minutes before I realized the pain I caused.
~I'm a fucking MORON!~ I yell at myself as I start to chase my brother as well. Who knows what he'll do now.
~Goten's POV~
I was held behind by one of my teachers. They wanted to make sure I had gotten the material. I had understood it easily and thanked him for his concern. I had walked to my locker when I noticed my brother's Ki with Trunks' probably waiting for me.
"They can wait" I said to myself taking my time putting my books away.
I packed up my things into my bag and walked towards the front doors. I started to think about what had happened that day.
~Biology~
I had taken notes on cell structures and had begun to fall asleep. That's when that's girl behind me decided to kick my chair waking me up instantly. I didn't have time to be mad at her because just then the bell rang and I was out of there fast.
~History~
More about the stupid ending of WW1. We weren't involved so why should we care. I had this project that I was all proud of because it looks so colorful and neat. But then she hands out our class/ homework. Sometimes I really hate our teacher. But I was so close to finishing when the bell rang. So I packed up and went to my next class. Geometry.
~Geometry~
We covered Angle of Elevation and Depression in class with a really long example that took like 15-20 minutes to do. I hate it when that happens. But we got 5 minutes to talk at the end of class but one of my closest friends had gone home sick. So I kind of sat in silence. The bell soon rang it was off to my locker to leave. (I left out Health and PE because nothing of interest or importance ever happens there).
~End Flashback~
I got to them to see them lip-locking. My heart broke into so many microscopic pieces. Tears had started to well up in my eyes at that moment.
"I think I'm in love with you"
That did it. My tears spilled over. I didn't hear Trunks but I saw his mouth moving. I gave him an excuse that it was alright then ran away. I was stupid enough o believe that I could have him someday. Why would I ever let myself think something good could happen?
I just kept running not caring where I went. Just as long as I was away form them forever. That's when I heard it. The screech of tires on pavement. Then everything went black.
~Godon's POV~
I saw his figure and he was almost within yelling distance when he disappeared.
"NOOOOOO, GOTEN!" I scream as I realized what happened.
I got to his body and blood had already started to pool around him.
"Call an ambulance!" I yell not letting go of my brother's body.
I heard the sirens soon after but he lost a lot of blood, and this worried me. Will he survive and if he does, will he be the same?
I decided to ride in the back of the ambulance with him. Of course they took us to Capsule Corp where they put him in his own little white room. I waited until the doctor came out of his room to give me an update.
"He's going to make it, but he's going to need some blood. Would you mind?" he asked.
"No, not at all" I said following him to a room where he injected me with a very sharp needle and drew out some of my crimson liquid.
"This should be enough, now eat and drink a lot of water so you won't feel faint" he warned before leaving.
I was left alone to wonder why he had fallen in love with me. I didn't quite understand. But then again I didn't want to. What mattered now was my brother and how his health was.
I sat there for what seemed like hours until I feel asleep and just knew that I was smiling. Someone loves me, they actually love me.
~Author's Note~
What did you think of this chapter? Do you like the drama? Do you hate the drama? Do you just want this to end? Or do yu want it to keep going? Leave a review and tell me what you think. And until next time, bye :)
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