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Apologies, Glances and Messed Up Chances:
Even though I had dropped my sword Xena still held hers. I put up my hands to the level of my shoulders. "Xena, I'm not here to hurt you; I'm here to thank you, to say I'm sorry," I said softly. "How could you go from trying to kill me to apologising and thanking me?" she asked.
"Just like you used to go on killing sprees, wrecked and ended so many people's lives and then suddenly changed; you became good," I said softly. "Xena, I am so sorry for all that I've done to you and all those innocents. Looking back I regret so much," I said feeling a tear coming from my right eye.
"You're serious aren't you?" she said in disbelief putting her sword down. "Yes Xena, when I was in that pit I realised what fear truly was; I didn't want to die and I thought about all that I've done and I've given people so much fear and a lot more than that. I feel so terribly awful. I wish I could pay them back but I can't. I want to be like you or at least half as good as you." I said.
"Just don't kill Callisto. That's all anybody wants from you," Xena said and turned around to walk away. "Xena please!" I said putting my hand on her arm to stop her. "What do you want from me Callisto?" she asked tiresomely.
"Help," was all I said. "Help?" she asked. "I'm not brave enough to do this on my own. Xena I need you to help me; if something truly bad happens to me again it may start me killing. I realised how insane I was, Xena, I feel like I used to before you invaded our town. I'm my true self. I was driven insane from my anger but...it's amazing...a near death experience can really awaken you."
"How do I know that this isn't a trick?" Xena asked suspiciously. "You don't. I'll give you my weapons..." I said picking them up and throwing them just in front of her. "You don't want weapons even through all of this chaos around us?" she said flabbergasted.
"I don't want to fight Xena. I need you to help me; I can't do this on my own... I want to go home."
"Let me see you when a fight starts. If you are the way you were before I kill...invaded your town then I'll know," she said and started walking away. "Xena I owe you my life, thank you." I said walking after her.
She turned around. "Callisto, I took everything that you had; your family, your friends, your home, the people you loved. If anything I owe you." She said.
"Is Gabrielle going to react badly to this?" I asked. "To what?" "My travelling with you?" "Callisto, you're not going with us. I can't trust you." She said. I paused without saying a word.
She can't trust me! Yet she was worse than me and expects everyone to trust her!? Calm down Callisto...you're turning into your old self...don't...she was bad...she isn't who you are.
"Fine," was all I said and I turned and walked away feeling terribly sad. Not about Xena telling me leave but even a warrior princess doesn't want to be around me. How could I mess up so badly? I feel like I truly died and was brought back my true self. The thought of killing is horrible.
I started to follow a dusty path to make my way home; I didn't know the exact way but I knew the general direction. As I looked to the left and the right of me I saw many people lying down, dead. The thought that I have caused things such as this almost killed me.
As I walked on I looked on the side of the road; some people's dead bodies held pain on their faces. Ugh! It made me shudder. I walked on carefully, trying not to trip over swords or bodies. Then I came across an old man just lying there, moaning.
I went over to him. "Are you ok?" I asked bending down to him. "Ugh, my...my...wife...my kids...are they...what happened?" he mumbled falling back. I held him upright in my arms. "Where are you sore?" I asked. "All over," he mumbled as a reply.
"Ok. You're bleeding pretty badly on your chest," I said finding a piece of cloth in a nearby carriage I put it on his would and held it down hard. "My family..." was all he could mumble. I took a look around. "Are the supposed to be near here?" I asked him.
"I was beside them but..." he stopped. Hold this down hard to stop the bleeding," I said placing his hand on the piece of cloth. "Thank you," he mumbled and I walked around searching for a woman and a child together.
I was also searching for any signs of life but there were none. Then I approached a carriage about five meters away from the man and I saw the two bodies of a mother and daughter; the girl was small, blonde and about seven years old; she reminded me of me when I was her age.
Then the mother was tall, she also had blonde hair, her face was all cuts and her clothes were completely blood-stained as were the little girls. I went back to the man but I really didn't want to; how was I supposed to break the news to him of his family's death?
"Did you find them?" he whispered. "I'm so sorry," was all I could say; it was all I had to say because he seemed to know. "Oh my little girl Titania, and my wife Europa! How am I going to live without them?" he cried. He reminded me of how I felt.
"I'm truly sorry," was all I could say as I tended to some of the other wounds. "Need a hand?" asked a familiar voice behind me. "Xena," I said as I turned around. "I've got some thread and a needle, I can stitch him up." "Thanks Xena," I said as I walked off.
"Callisto," I heard as I was walking away. "Yes," I said without turning around. "You're going to be fine," said Xena. I turned around to her and smiled. "Thank you," I said and walked off. A part of me felt that I really wanted to stay out; the warrior part of me hadn't died but I dreaded fighting. What if I was to hurt somebody else?
I walked for as long as I could but I eventually grew tired. I had to rest. I was in a forest so I took some rather large pieces of wood and built a small shelter for myself. I lid on a clump of leaves and I looked up into the stars; I couldn't sleep. Every time I closed my eyes I was looking into the eyes of one of my many victims.
As I looked up into the sky I was wondering were my family looking down upon me; if so what did they think of me? Would they hate me for all that I've done? I looked up into the stars; making up my own constellations trying to pass the time; hoping to fall asleep and be at peace.
Then I opened my eyes; it was daylight. I didn't know what to do. As I began to think of home I remembered it as how it was before I left. I left as a young child, straight after Xena destroyed it. If it looked the same it may drive me crazy... would it make me seek more revenge and drive me crazy again? I just didn't know what to do.
I kept feeling the guilt that I had felt since Xena saved me. I felt like that I really wanted to repay what I had done; like Xena is doing. Then something worrying struck me; I had ordered my army to take over a town, a small little defenceless one not far from here. I had to stop them!
I started running as quickly as I could, wondering would I get there on time. I didn't stop running; even when my legs felt like led, I kept going. I didn't see much on the way; everything seemed like a blur as I ran.
After what seemed like an eternity I finally got there. There were many women and children hiding behind carriages, the men of the town were trying to defend the town and there was Xena and Gabrielle.
"Men stop!" I screamed as I ran towards them. "I can't believe I actually believed you'd changed Callisto," Xena said harshly. "I have Xena!" I insisted. "That's why you're going to wipe out this town?" she said harshly once again.
"Xena, I swear this was an old order! Men! Retreat! We're not going here or anywhere else!" I shouted. "No," said one walking up towards me. "What?" I cried. "We've come all the way here, there's massive profit to be made, if you're going all soft then leave," he smiled crudely and he walked away.
"I didn't want this Xena," I said softly. "Tell me something that's not lies," she said. "Eyeyeyeyeyeyeyeya!" she screamed somersaulting and starting on my army. I couldn't watch, I couldn't fight, and I couldn't do a thing, except run.
I ran for ages not going anywhere in particular. The afternoon, hot sun had gone and it was a starry, clear night. I kept running not knowing where to go or what to do. I had caused more bloodshed, more pain, more tears, and more chaos. Eventually I came to a stop, I was in the middle of a long pathway in between two forests; it was empty, the only sound I could here were my footsteps and the sound of my sobbing.
I couldn't take much more of this; Xena would never believe that I had changed and that was one thing that I really wanted. I couldn't take much more of this. I had to end my life here; begin a new life with my family.
What to do... I didn't care really; I just wanted something that wouldn't draw much attention to me. What I truly wanted was oblivion. If I was forgotten, if I could forget everything, I'd be at peace. I had gotten another town destroyed, all to get vengeance on Xena, I wanted to ruin her new, good reputation, simply because I didn't believe in it.
"Callisto," I heard a male voice say. I turned around; it was Ares. "What do you want?" I asked hopelessly. "You," he said walking towards me. "Me?" I asked. "Yes Callisto, you're a fierce warrior; on par with Xena, we could have a great kingdom together, for the greater good." "I don't want to fight. I just want this all to end!"
"It's not your time Callisto. Down at Mt. Olympus there are rumours of a massive army ruled by some other God, we don't know who, going to attack Athens. He has a 'super army' and Xena can't take them on her own, we need you there too," he told me.
"But I can't fight Ares. I can't do it again. I've killed too much. I've killed myself." "No you haven't. By dying now you are killing Xena."
Well, that's it for this chapter. I'll try to update soon but there are problems with logging in to update and create stories so I could be slow. Also the exams bit (does Callisto's scream). Hope you enjoyed and please review. I promise the main storyline will begin in the next chapter.