NOTES: I was doing the chapter 2 actually this is not the story in my mind but remember my friend? the one who helped me in Chapter 2 in SUMMER DAYS story of mine, he suggested me to do something I think I haven't done in my fanfiction do a full abandonment of Shingyouji to Misu, yes I love to punish Misu but I hope this is not so hard, but I think not yet I guess, I know this is kinda lame but I still try to put this, along with my friend we out this chapter 2 even I myself when I see this finished, though still have grammar errors, promise this will be re-edited afterwards for better reading. By the way I borrow some scenes I love in GLEE iI told you I love GLEE, they some lines that I can use to relate on this story. But I decide to edit it to fi the soryline that I don't know where it is going, I hope I am making sense whew!, last night I don;t know but I began to think about Takumi Saito if you are a Tenimyu fanatic you know him ^^. I think I am bringing a different Misu here
To nikki: even i don't know where this story is going trust me.
To akiluv: Now Misu's fans are going to kill *hides face*
To june: I am afraid of this one really
AGAIN I DO NOT OWN TAKUMI-KUN NOR THE PAIR! JUST THE STORY, FOR MY FRIEND WHO PUT THIS CRAZY IDEAS IN MY MIND THANK YOU THIS WILL NOT MAKE ME ASLEEP FOR WEEKS! CHAPTER 2 ENJOY!
The next day, Misu decides to go to Shingyouji to apologize to him, he really wants to make ameds on what he done the other day. He goes down the hall to look for him, he knows in the morning he would usually go to the cafeteria so he decides to go there first, however he did not see Shingyouji there, he spotted Takabayashi and Yoshizawa, he approached them maybe they had an idea where Shingyouji might be,
"Have you seen Shingyouji?"
"That's a first, Misu you don't usually ask for him why is there a problem?" it was Yoshizawa while he is busily fed by his boyfiend Takahashi.
"Nope we haven't seen him in the cafeteria, you can go at the booth he might directly go there, it's the program's start already so he could be busily preparing. Hey Yoshizawa, here." Takabayashi take another sushi to give to him."
Misu smiled seeing how close the became ever since Tanabata, he looks envy how affectionate the two to each other regardless if they are just in the cafeteria or at any place at all.
"I'll go ahead then maybe I'll stop first at the council room, you two enjoy your time together."
As Misu leave Takabayashi continue to baby his boyfriend which made Yoshizawa blushed, he told his lover that he might choke if he continually fed him with the food without letting him swallow what he had in his mouth.
"What time Archery club's booth will start?"
"After lunch why Izumi?"
"I'll pay you a visit their, make sure no other girls or boys will get close to you."
"Don't need to do that we'll just teach them then that's it."
"Fine! But if I notice someone trying to get close to I'll break his/her neck."
Yoishizawa laughed at his lover's attitude, but he did appreciate the care Takabayashi shows towards him, even since they become an item, he did seem to change though his brat attitude still there, Takabyashi would still show his gentle side to his friends and especially to his boyfriend.
As Misu decide to paid a vist to Shingyouji's booth, he still thinking what to say or actually how to say "I'm Sorry" he don't know how to bring up the words to him. As he was almost close to his booth, he stopped when he saw someone approached the younger man first, it was Kazaoka, all students are squealing upon seeing him, Misu on the other really hate the sight of him, selfish as he is all he wants was the program to end, maybe he will gone after wards. He can no longer make a move to his pet.
"Getting started?"
"Almost, but this makes me strange kissing people I don't actually know."
"Don't worry that usually happens a lot to me. How about I gave you a good luck kiss."
"Eh?"
"Without thinking twice he leaned and give the younger man a peck on the lips, Shingyouji was left with a wide-eyed expression even those people at the booth we're also surprise. But the most surprise was Misu, he clenched his fist seeing that kiss in front of him, Shingyouji just smile and shoved Kazaoka oblivious of Misu's presence. Kazaoka smile and leane to Shingyouji again and whisper something into his ears.
"Can you meet me later at the greenhouse?"
"Um Anou, sure."
Shingyouji, feels weird upon saying to the man's request and so there booth started and Shingyouji keep on smiling to the people, he just let them peck on his cheeks, Misu just decide to go the other way not to approach the younger man and go to somewhere place else.
As Shingyouji is now wiping his cheeks, he told the other guy that will be in charge for luck, he decides to go first to Arata-san before going to Kazaoka, he's thinking twice if he is going to meet him and he also wants to talk with Arata-san about the other day.
As he approached the executive room, he just stand beside the door like what he had done last time, but did not went through to go to Misu, he even saw Ooji there so he just decided to drop by later.
He hurriedly went to the meeting place where Kazaoka is already waiting. He apologized for being a little late, and told all what happen in the booth.
"What is it you want to tell me?"
"Nothing I just want to see you, you seem so sad."
"I'm fine it's just that ever since that night I haven't seen Arata-san a-and I don't even know why this always happens to me." Shingyouji suddenly had tears in his eyes but he tried to control them he does not want to his new friends to see him crying over a man.
Kazaoka feels lonely whenever he see Shingyouji tormented he does not want, he does not deserve those were his thoughts, he should always be taken care off. Kazaoka hugged Shingyouji's back, which surprise the young man.
"Kazaoka-san"
"Just leave him, forget about him, he doesn't deserve you. I like you"
Shingyouji was speechless about the man's word to him, what he unexpectedly anticipated was when Kazaoka turned him around and hugged him tightly. This was the first time someone had initiatively embraced him, feels like he had found the comfort he had been looking for all these years, Kazaoka leaned even closer to Shingyouji and kissed him again, though he only wants to return Misu's kiss, he himself had return the kiss of the singer, but suddenly he comes to his senses and push Kazaoka.
"S-sorry I-I need to go."
Shingyouji hurriedly ran of the greenhouse and return to his dorm room, good thing his roommate is not yet there, as he closs the door he went down on his knees trembling.
I kissed him back, I can't believe I kissed that man back even though I am in love with Arata-san, but he said he likes me, but do I like him back? I feel like I cheated the man I love what should I do."
He's thoughts we're interrupted when someone had knocked into his door, as he opened it, he was surprised to see Misu there. He wants to shove the elder man, still can't forget what happen he don't know how he can be in front of Misu without getting nervous.
"A-Arata-san?"
"Uhm about last night I"
"No it's ok you're I shouldn't have been there."
"It's just"
"It's fine I-I don't want to be rude but I feel like resting for now, I still have activities later I am kind of tired."
Shingyouji, closed the door without even letting Misu finished what he had to say. Misu on the other hand did not like the way the younger man approached him, now that he tried to lower his pride he can't believe he will be treated like that, just like during Tanabata. Misu just decided to return to his dorm room where Hayama is now busily looking for something to where.
"Misu, no activiies in the council."
"I am done for the day, I decide to enjoy our program for a while."
"I see, have you went to Shingyouji and apologize?"
"Uhm Hayama, do you have time to spare?"
Hayama seat down and listen to Misu, as he finished what he is saying, Hayama laughed at him.
"You still don't get it do you?"
"I am jealous?"
"Yes I told that to you last night, but you were in denial, I know this feelings are strange but don't you have guts to show it to him?"
"I even don't know what we are right now."
"I thought that on Tanabata Day he is you lover already though all of us really have no idea how to label you two."
"I don't know but I think I do like him the way I had liked Sagara-sempai maybe even more. It's just something that's always been inside of me and I really want to share it with because I like him so much. I want him to know me, who I really am. When I'm with him, I finally understand what people are talking about when they talk about love. I've tried so hard to push this feeling away and keep it locked inside, but every day just feels like a war. And I walk around so mad at the world, but I'm really just fighting with myself. I don't want to fight anymore. I'm just too tired. I have to just be me."
Hayama was shocked at Misu's statement.
"Then why don't you fight for him?"
"I don't know for now all I want o do is just keep him beside me maybe in college we may figure out what we really are."
"I know that fears Gii and I have the same feelings as well but we just decide the days we cherished each other, and regarding the future as long as we are together we'll do everything to get on with it. You can't just be weak because of your fears."
"Do you think I'm a"
"Coward? Yes you are."
Misu was stricken upon his roommate's answer that was the second time that word hit him hard.
"What to you feel when you are with Saki?"
"I am being just me no pretentions, no mask a true person that loves will see right through you what you really are. Take Shingyouji for an example no matter how cold you are to him he stick with you because he does love you, like what you do with him, you won't admit it but why would you decide to keep him and always be at your side?"
Misu smiled upon Hayama's words, he thank the guy's wisdom, Hayama in return pat Misu's should for reassurance and proceed on changing clothes, he inform Misu he will with Gii because his boyfriend wants to eat a lot at the festival Akaike will also be with them so no suspicions will be drawn upon them, he even invited him and suggest to take Shingyouji, but he declined deciding to meet the younger man about his attitude last night.
Shingyouji inside his room still fill with thoughts about the greenhouse incident and how he coldly reply to Misu, he decide to get up and maybe speak with the elder man as well, he finally made his decision and he knows this will be the best for both of them. He goes to room 270 and knocked on the door, it was Hayama who opened it and tells Misu, Shingyouji is outside.
Misu just look at the younger man and ask him to come near him, Shingyouji just seat on a chair and Hayama leave them behind.
"Anou Arata-san I am sorry about my attitude earlier. I just"
"Its ok, at least you have gut to come here."
"I-I have something to say to you can you listen to me first."
Misu nodded and and from the looks of it seems like he does not want what the younger man will tell him,
"I am that sure you're always special. Being a council president is just the beginning of you."
"What do you mean."
"I want you from now on to experience things on your own?"
"Wait, Shingyouji are you breaking up with me?"
"Breaking up? I like the sound of it seems like we're lovers if that's the case."
"Hey! That's not funny what are you trying to say to me."
"Listen to me, you got to do things on your own without me"
"Wait a minute."
"I can no longer be with you."
"I'm setting you free."
"You're kidding right?"
"Do you know how hard this is for me? How many times I've cried about this?"
"No! I'm not going to. I can' allow that."
"I kiss Kazaoka!"
Misu was shocked on Shingyouji's statement.
"I cheated so I have to set you free, I can no longer be with you."
"Look I can forgive that ok? Just a simple stupid mistake. I saw it when I was supposed to approach."
"Not that!, I did kissed him back, in the greenhouse, You don't have a choice, I can no longer be with you I-I am sorry."
Shingyouji walked out of the room leaving Misu standing over his door, what had happened? That was all Misu, yes he can't forgive when Shingyouji admitted what he had done but what he can't forgive is Shingyouji finally leaving him. He lost his composure and pushed all of his books out of anger.
Why now? Why now?
Shingyouji, walked away out of room 270 crying, he feel stupid of what he had done and for deciding to leave Misu, suddenly Kazaoka met him outside the hall, he trie to avoid the man but, Kazaoka approached him.
"Hey? Are you ok can I stay beside you."
"What is it?"
"Uhm I."
"Just leave me alone for now please."
Shingyouji, just walks away avoiding Kazaoka as well, he does not want to talk to anyone especially now he is confuse with his feelings with Kazaoka as well. He decided to just stay at the gym for now maybe he can have his time alone.
At the gym, there were three freshmen guys that approach him, Shingyouji does not like their looks those were the looks they have given to Hayama, which makes his sempai careful not to reveal to anyone about his connections to Gii.
"You're Shingyouji-sempai right?"
"Yes what is it that you want?"
The freshmen dragged him and push him in a vacant restroom stall and locked him. Shingyouji tried to let go but he can't handle these 3 kouhais against him.
"Hey! Open this! What the hell do you want?"
"We hate you you are always with Kazaoka, why someone like you would be wanted by a star!"
"Eh? I have nothing to do with him. We are just friends."
"Liar!"
Without hesitation, the freshmen poured Shingyouji cold water and make sure that he will be locked up there. And with last pour of a bucket of water, they leave him in that stall Shingyouji shouted for help, unfortunately seems like no one will rescue him.
After 2 hours stuck in the stall Shingyouji shaking in fear, notice someone walking and he shout for help. The man hurriedly opened the stall and Shingyouji was surprised to see the man who saved him.
"Yoshizawa-sempai."
"Crap! Shingyouji what happened to you, Lets go back to the school hall."
"They went to Akaike who was in the library, Akaike questioned Shingyouji about the incident, he just told them that those were the singer's fans. Akaike did not like this type of bullying especially disrespect to their elders.
"After the program I will make sure those kids to be punished, I'll forward this to Misu as well."
"Please don't."
"He should know this as a council president."
"But."
"I am sorry but this is an incident that needs to be known by the faculty as well so I need Misu regarding this incident. Why don't you get up to your room and change clothes first?"
"Hai thank you sempais."
Shingyouji, was seen by his roommate soaked, he curiously asked Shingyouji about the incident, but Shingyouji inform him he will know about it, he decide to change his clothes, suddenly someone knock on his door, It was Hayama, he invited him in Gii's room, when they come back from there date they learned from Akaike what had happened.
At Gii's room, Kazaoka also came he approached Kazaoka and say sorry about what happened being close to him.
"Those crazy fans they should not have done this to you."
"Trust me Kazaoka I have been there now you why Gii and I keep our relationship discreet because of incident like that."
"Shingyouji-kun have you tell Misu about this?"
"T-this has nothing to do with him."
"Why?"
As Shingyouji had tried to answer, someone knocks angrily at Gii's door. As Gii open it, he saw Misu, Gii asks Misu what brings him into his room and trying to destroy his door.
"Misu, if you plan to destroy my property I would suggest for you to think it twice."
Misu ignored Gii he stared at SHingyouji and glared angrily at Kazaoka.
"You! This is your fault!"
Misu suddenly punched Kazaoka, pinned him down on the floor and repeatedly punched him in his face. Gii tried to stop the two, telling them not to do their brawl in his room. Shingyouji startled don't know what to do. Hayama also tried to interfere but he was pushed by Misu good thing Gii was able to catch his boyfriend. Suddenly Gii had no choice and pull them apart.
"Hey! Are you trying to turn my room into an arena, if you want to fight and destroy some properties pick some other place?
"IF I WAS THERE THIS COULD NOT HAVE HAPPENED I COULD PROBABLY PROTECT HIM UNLIKE YOU!"
"YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT ME SO DON'T ASSUME ANYTHING."
"WHY YOU'RE BITTER THE GUY THAT DEARLY LOVED YOU KISSED ME BACK? ITS BECAUSE YOU'RE A STUPID SHIT MISU! DENYING HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT THIS GUY?"
"I'M NOT DENYING ANYTHING OK? I'M NOT LIKE YOU I WILL NEVER BE YOU."
"You're right I'll never be like you a coward."
Misu, grabbed Kazaoka's collar and started to cool down and decide to leave Gii's room suddenly Akaike appeared, shocked seeing Gii's mess room. He no longer asks what had happened with the looks that his friends have.
"Shingyouji" Kazaoka tried to approach the younger man again but his hands we're shoved by Singyouji.
"Right now I feel all stress in my body, I don't want you to get close to me, all I want is to be away from you or Arata-san, can you do that."
"I will pray that you will no longer be angry at me I really do like you."
"When you're done praying, you get up off your feet and walk away."
Shingyouji and his friends were surprise with his statement. Kazaoka just respect Shingyouji's respect and walk away, regarding his bruise he will just up a story about tit to his manager he don't want to cause trouble.
"If that's what you want but I hope on Sunday you'll still go at the concert just promise me that your presence will be enough."
Shingyouji cries as Kazaoka and Misu we're both gone, Hayama comforts his kouhai, Akaika pat his shoulder around Shingyouji's shoulder.
"I ended it up with Arata-san."
"I'm-I'm so sorry."
"Don't give me that tone Hayama-san, he was never into me, fooling myself, I can't even blame him, who could be?"
"But he…"
"It's ok its happens."
"Hey why not go out with us? We will have dinner at the place we went during Tanabata."
"S-sure, maybe I just enjoy other company other than those two, I caised enough trouble today."
They decide to go out and Shingyouji enjoyed being with Hayama and Akaike though boring with his stories was also able to make him laugh as well. When they were done with their dinner, all of them started walking Shingyouji is now happy forgetting the incident, suddenly Misu appear and ask them if he can talk with Shingyouji again.
"Misu, can you just leave him alone for a while." Gii informed him.
"I will not take orders from you Saki."
"Misu that's rude of you can you just give Shingyouji a break."
Shingyouji, looking at Misu knowing the elder man's attitude decided to talk to him. He asks his friends to leave him alone, he no longer want any unnecessary scenes to happen. The three of them leave and now Misu and Shingyouji are alone together.
"What is it Arata-san?"
"I wanted to thank you for speaking with me again; it made me do a lot of thinking. What I realized... What I realized is why I'm such an arrogant fool sometimes. I'm like this because I'm angry. Because I have all of these feelings. Feelings for you, that I'm afraid of dealing with, because I'm afraid of dealing with the consequences. Do you understand what I'm trying to say here?"
"No not really."
"You know that I want to be with you, I make it clear during Tanabata day, that I want to stay by my side you what we really are now but,"
"Afraid being with me even in front of our friends?
"I-I don't know, its just all I want is you always here beside me." Misu stated
"How can you be selfish? Do you really know what I am feeling? I do love you I will only love you. I have a question for you I want to get real answer from you."
"What is it?"
"Are we a part of something special? You and me?" Shinyouji asked Misu seriously
Shingyouji is waiting for an answer, he was still hoping to get the right answer, but he no longer care what Misu will answer him.
"Yes"
Misu looks in Shingyouji's eyes seriously.
"Because that is why I always feel about us.
"Then why can't you just be with me?"
"I was always with you, I am so yours. Proudly so. But we need to change things."
"This isn't over Shingyouji."
"How many times I have to make the same mistake to realize it's not going to work out?
"I'm not giving up on you. It's not over between us Shingyouji."
"YES IT IS! You're so frustrating! If I keep looking for that happy ending, we are never going to get it right. So we're done with that and why don't we just return to our dorm room."
"Last time we're here you told me you love me, Listen carefully because, I mean every word of it."
"Don't you feel anything anymore? This is real. This is happening."
Misu's eyes show a little tears in his eyes.
"Are you happy now? Is this me feeling enough for you?"
" I-I'm sorry, I still love you..."
"Shingyouji that's enough I understand now."
Misu coldly walk away from Shingyouji as he loses the sight of Misu he started to cry again, leaving Misu really is the most painful thing he can do. If only he can choose between the two man he choose Misu a thousand times but for now he just wants to be on his way alone.
Who you are inside and who you pretend to be to the rest of the world? They're two different people.
WHEW! again I am sorry for some errors I promise I will correct this as soon as I can and i feel terrifed about this story different Misu and Baby Shin in my opinion but Shingyouji in a wet look *nose bleeds* well i can;t be perverted with this cute guy, feels like I am f=dying right now bur your reviews are gladly appreciated and I still thank you for all the support I got from everyone