Ok sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I've had to study for exams and still do but I'm bored from studying all the time. Thx to demented bunny for being my beta.

Declaimer: I do not own twilight or anything in it. I just use the idea of the characters.

Summery: Bella is vampire and she has a daunting past. Edward is a human who is fascinated by Bella. They fall for each other big time but Then Edward starts acting weirdly and Bella is afraid that what happened in her past will happen again.

"you are not fine. Before I got here you were sobbing uncontrollably."

"Go or I swear I will kick your but to California."

"Ok. I'm going to go now." He said that but he didn't leave.

Wait…why was he trying not to get a way. I can smell his anxiety but he doesn't leave."Come on Ben leave."

"Fine"

I watched Ben leave and I was finally able to take a real breath. Out of the corner of my eye I saw him talk to Edward.

"She wanted me to leave"

"Oh… well I'll go over there so she won't be unhappy"

What? He can't come over it'll make me even more unhappy. And the results will be preposterous, dastardly…and we still had four minuets until class starts. As Edward came forward I smelled his blood. I was so calm and disastrous.

When Edward sat down all I that I could do was not breath…which was very uncomfortable 'cause I couldn't smell what was happening. What everyone was feeling. I took one accidental breath and the sent filtrated my throught hurt. I couldn't do this it would drive me insane.

I gave out a strangled shriek and pushed back the chair I was sitting on and ran out of the room. I ran past the teacher who was going to go and teach the class I was running from. I ran out of the building and into the woods. When I was in the woods I finally let out a breath. His intoxicating blood just sitting there waiting for me too…don't let the beast part come out.

I crouch low listening and feeling for an animal. I felt two deer and a moose. I stood up in alarm… moose? Why is there a moose? I felt instinct come over like wildfire. I couldn't control it. I ran so fast it was blinding. When I finally reached the place where I wanted to be. I… Right next to the moose… albino moose. I crouched and jumped in perfect alignment with its head. I reached his throught and I sink my teeth into him.

His blood is so sweet. About as sweet as…no not again. I start sharking and hit the forest's velvety floor looking at the dead albino. I get up and start walking towards my house. I walk a few yards and break into tearless sobs. After a while I fall to my knees and look up to the sky and whisper his name to the sky. I fall to the ground and wish it never happened so long ago. Wish I was still there the time that I was happy. I scream his name. Wishing that he was still here. I hear the birds in the distance fly off from hearing my thunderous screams.

I sob the whole night and a little in to the morning. By the time I finished sobbing it was morning and I ran to my house cleverly hidden in the woods.

I can only write this much I'm sorry for how short it is my mom will kill me if she knew I was doing this instead of studying.

Unonomus