Am I or Aren't I Ok?

by alexmayb

Clary and Jace are finally able to move on with their lives, they defeated Sebastian and made it home. But nightmares are returning and strange things are starting to happen. Will Clary and Jace get the life they want? Together. Or will they have to put themselves and their lives at risk again.

2. Chapter 2

CHAPTER 2

Jace POV

I wake and sit up slowly. I look around and find myself in the infirmary, I look to my left to see Isabelle sitting between Clary and I looking absolutely worn out. I stand up and lay a hand on my head, "oww." I say. "Oh Jace," Isabelle says suddenly. I watch her walk over then return and gives me a cup of something. "What is it?" I ask, "it's medicine to help with the pain in your head." She says and I skull it down. "Yeah, I wonder what caused that?" I say sarcastically. "Yeah, sorry about that." I give her back the cup and look at Clary. "How is she?" I ask and Isabelle pales a bit. "She grows weaker by the minute. It's almost as if her body is letting the poison destroy her." I stand up and walk over to Clary, "Clary please wake up." I beg. I reach out for her pale hand curled into a fist and slowly unravel it. I feel her move, "Jace," I look up and see her green eyes. I stand up and put my lips on hers. I pull away and see tears in her eyes. "I'm sorry, I let the demon get me. I'm so sorry." "No, Clary it isn't your fault. Isabelle, go get Jocelyn and Luke." I hear her heeled boots leave the room and I keep my eyes on Clary. "You're going to be ok, I promise." I feel her hand tighten around mine. "Please sit with me." She asks. I nod. I slowly lift her up and sit behind her resting her head in my lap. "Clary!" I hear Jocelyn say, I look up to see Jocelyn rushing over. "Hi mum." She says weakly.

CLARY POV

I feel my mother kiss my head and then look at me, "you're going to be ok." She tells me, "I know." I say. "Jace!"

JACE POV

I look up to see Alec coming over, "I just spoke to Magnus, and you need to hear this." I nod. "As it turns out, the demon that attacked Clary wasn't a normal demon. Yes it had the power to look like a downworlder, etc. But that demon had some sort trance on him. It had some sort of spell on it, which only made it want to attack Clary. Someone did that but we don't know who." I look down at Clary. "Do you anyone who would do this to you?" I ask, she shrugs. Suddenly I see her going whiter and her eyes slowly closing, with her head falling. "CLARY, CLARY!" I scream but her eyes don't open.

CLARY POV

I am walking darkness when I feel a cold hand on my shoulder. I turn around, "hello little sister, did you miss me?" I fall to what I suppose is the ground. "No, you're dead. We killed you in Edom. I watched you die as did Jace, Isabelle, Alec, Mum, Luke, Simon and Magnus." He laughs a wicked laugh. "Do you honestly think you killed me? I honestly hoped you weren't that stupid. There is only one way I can die, but why should I tell you." His skin seems to glow in the darkness. "This is just a dream, you're dead and you'll be gone when I wake. This is just a bad dream." I say fighting back my tears. "Really Clary. Who do you think sent that demon to attack you? You had a hunch it was me, I felt it. But you wouldn't trust your instincts. I sent it to make you sick temporally. I thought you would be alone, so that I could get you and bring you back to Edom but of course Jace was there." He walks over and I try to back away but I can't move. "Tell your precious Jace and Jocelyn hello."

I walk with a start bringing my knees to my chest and putting my head on my knees to cry out. "Clary, what's wrong?" I feel Jace put his arms around my shaking body. "He's alive, he sent the demon, and he's out to get me." I cry. "Who is Clary?" "Sebastian." I say. I feel Jace stiffen but the slowly relax. "Clary, he's dead. Remember, you saw it with your own eyes. Clary it was just a bad dream." I shake my head, "I wouldn't lie about this Jace, please believe me. He mentioned the demon attack, he sent it out to get me, and he knew you killed the demon. Please believe me." I beg. "I want to Clary, but we all saw him die. Look let me go get Magnus to make sure you're ok. We are all worried about you, even Maryse." He lets go and I watch him walk out.

JACE POV
I go through a few halls and enter the library. "Jace, is she ok?" Jocelyn asks. "She is mostly. Magnus can you come with me please." He gets up, "sure." "I'll be back soon." I say and walk back to the infirmary with Magnus. "Before you say anything to her she might start rambling on about Sebastian being alive." I get a questioning look, "why would she do that. She knows he is dead?" He asks, "I dunno. She woke in a fit state." I open the door and we walk in. I see Clary making her bed. "Clary, what are you doing?" I ask. She turns around, "making the bed."

CLARY POV

"Clary, can you sit please and close your eyes." Magnus asks me. I sigh and do what I'm asked. As soon as I close my eyes I feel a frosty chill sweep through all of my body. "You can open your eyes now Clary." I slowly open them, to see Jace looking worried at me but Magnus looking calm. "The poison is gone." I see Jace sigh with relief. "But you just have to take it easy for a few days. No training, no demon hunting, nothing." Magnus says. "I can't." I say. "Why not?" Magnus asks. "Because I need to know if Sebastian is really alive." Jace comes over and sits next to me. "Clary, he's dead. Please believe me." Jace pleads and puts his arms around me. "Look I know it's stupid but it felt so real. His hand on my shoulder, he even knew about the demon attack." I say. "Clary, how about I give you some medicine to help with the bad dreams. It takes a few days for it to kick in but it'll work. Alec has used it many times." Magnus says. I sigh, "ok. Thanks." Magnus walks out but Jace stays. "You ok?" I ask. "Yeah, I'm just worried about you." He comes and sits next to me. "I'm fine Jace I promise." He smiles and plants a kiss on my forehead. "Where is everyone?" I ask, "they're all in the library worried about you." I stand up and pull him up with me. "Come on then. I don't want them worrying anymore." I say.

We walk down the corridor and into the library. We walk in and 6 pairs of eyes fall on me. "Clary!" Suddenly my mum is rushing over and holding me a little too tightly. "Um hi." I say and she lets go. The others come over and I get asked a million times am I ok. "Yes, I'm fine." I am say and the let Jace and I sit down without too much hassle. Little talk is exchanged but most are curious about the demon which Magnus has little info on when Maryse brings up something that makes them all go quiet. "Jocelyn and Luke would you like to stay for dinner?" They exchange glances then look back. "We'd love too." Mum says. "I called Simon." I look at Isabelle. "YOU DID WHAT?" I stand and yell. "He has a right to know Clary, he's your brother. Do you think he would let us live it down if he found out and we didn't tell him? Do you?" She yells back. I calm and sit back down with Jace, "when will he be here?" Jace asks. "In five minutes."

We are literally rushing around setting the table for dinner and changing into some better clothes. "I'm going to go out front so that Simon can get in. Without 1 of us he can't remember." I say and walk to the door. I walk outside and in front of the gates I see Simon. "Clary!" He yells. I run over to the gates, they open and I pull Simon in. I feel him pull me into his arms and hold me tight. "Simon, can you come inside before you anything. Please." I say. He nods. "It's good to see you Clary." I smile at him. "It's good to see you too Simon." I lead him inside and down to the dining room. "Simon!" Isabelle screams and almost throws herself at him. "Hi Issy." He lets her go and we all sit to for dinner. "I'm going to bring out dinner." Mum says. "I'll help you Jocelyn." Jace immediately jumps up and follows her into the kitchen.

JACE POV

"You seem very eager to help tonight." Jocelyn tells me. "Well actually there's something I want to ask you." She turns and smiles, "yes of course what is it?" I take a deep breath, "I want to marry Clary and I would like you permission to do so." I say and she almost drops the plate. "You do?" She asks. I nod. "Well, look I could have many opinions about his both good and bad but I would never deny Clary this, so yes you have my permission." I smile at her, "thank you Jocelyn." "You welcome."

CLARY POV

I see Jace walk out happier then when he left. Jace along with my mum set all the food down on the table then return to their seats with Jace next to me. We all serve ourselves dinner then Simon starts talking. "So Jace, would you mind explaining the whole demon attack thing please?" I sigh and Jace sets his cutlery down. "Before you say anything this isn't my fault and I have witnesses." I listen as Jace launches into a very detailed explanation with the help of Alec and mostly Isabelle. Finally he finishes and Simon has a look of anger on his face. "Bloody hell, so you're telling me that someone sent a demon personally to attack Clary?" "Yes Simon that's what they are saying." I tell him. "Ok then." After that all that is mostly talked about is Mum and Luke's honeymoon in Idris.

We finally depart to library, I'm about to sit down but Jace stops me, "Clary. Can I speak with you in private?" I look at him, "sure." We walk into the hallway and he stops me. "Jace, what are you doing?" I ask. "Just trust me." I sigh, he places a blindfold over my eyes and I can't see. I feel his hands on my arms and starts to lead me up stairs and through halls until we come to a stop. "You can take off the blindfold now. I slowly pull it off and find myself in front of the steps in the middle of the greenhouse. "Jace, what are we doing up here?" I ask. "Clary, I didn't know where else to do this and this seemed to be the only perfect place." He takes my hands and I lean against the pole of the stairs. "Clarissa Adele Fairchild, I never want to almost lose you again like I did, especially not without asking you this. Yes I know that we've known each other for what 2-3 years now but don't think I can fall anymore in love with you then I already am." I have tears in my eyes and Jace is giving me the biggest smile and gets down on one knee. "Clarissa Adele, will you do me the honour of becoming Clarissa Herondale, will you marry me?"

Author Note: Dear Readers,

My deepest apologies that it's taking so long but I have school and I am typing a sequel for my HG story What I Really Need as well.

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