yukiasakura202: Hey everyone tanks for the wonderful reviews. Sorry to keep you guys waiting here's chapter 2...

Chapter 2: meeting an O-oncolo-g-gist…Ugh I give up!

I woke up and found out that I was in my room. Yesterday's events seemed like a dream.

Flashbacks:

"What are you talking about?!" I could feel tears threaten to come out.

Dr. Time looked at me with a very sad expression and said, "Yuki-chan you might have throat cancer."

"But h-how d-did this h-happen..." I felt tears sliding down my cheeks.

"I need you to come back tomorrow at 9:21 am, so we could make sure if you really have cancer," with that said Dr. Time as he left the room.

Risu walked up to me.

"Yuki…"

"I don't get this at all, how did I ended up with cancer?" I was very confused and angry at the same time.

"Yuki, every things going to be okay." said Risu trying to calm me down.

"Okay? How can everything be okay? I have cancer for god sake!" I screamed as tears slowly slid down my cheeks.

"Please Yuki stop crying, seeing you cry makes me cry too." said Risu putting a hand on my back.

"I hate this! I hate this so much!" I screamed then I started to burst into tears.

Risu hugged me and we cried for about five minutes, we left the hospital after we calmed down. Risu took me home and I went up to my room. I threw myself onto my bed and started to sob. I didn't know how long I was crying for but I got tired and feel asleep.

End of flashback.

Ding, Dong. I was snapped back to reality thanks to the door bell. I hurried down the stairs to open the door. Once I open the door I saw my friend Risu with a worried expression on her face.

"OhayÇ Risu-chan," I greeted cheerfully.

"OhayÇ," Risu greeted back with a slight hint of happiness in her voice. (Risu was glad that I was my old self again.) Suddenly her expression changed into a very disgusted look.

"Risu-chan are you okay, you don't look so well?" I gave Risu a worried look.

"Are you going to be wearing that today?" she pointed at my clothes, that I wore yesterday.

"Oh, sorry, wait for twenty minutes please." I ran up stairs and took a quick shower and changed into some clean clothes.

We both went to the car, and my driver, Juriusu; drove us to the usual place where we ate breakfast. It was quiet the whole time we were there, the silence was very uncomfortable, and so I decided to break the silence.

"Um…what are we doing today?" I questioned.

"Today you will record your new song with Sakuya. Then you'll have dance practice with Kami," responded Risu.

There was an awkward silence between us again, but this time Risu was the one to break it.

"How are you feeling today?" asked Risu looking at her food.

"I feel 100," I lied. My throat was still in pain, but I just ignored it. I had trouble eating my food, because each time I tried to swallow my throat started to hurt a lot, so I gave up and put down my fork and knife.

Risu looked at me with a saddened face she knew I was lying, but she just played along and continued to eat her breakfast. We left the restaurant and proceeded to the recording studio. We arrived to the studio in about thirty minutes, and saw Sakuya there waiting for us.

"Hello, Yuki-chan. Ready to record your new song?" asked Sakuya.

"Of course," I answered enthusiastically.

We went into one of the recording studio to practice on my singing. Sakuya pressed play and music just started to flow out. I listened to the music and started to sing.

The amber-colored you

Is so tender, even in my memories

We were alone in those woods

You nodded when you smiled

You pointed out the shooting stars

I couldn't even say good-bye

Keep reproaching me, don't ever forgive me

Keep wounding me with these sharp pains

When my heart finally beat

Tears rushed out and rocked my body

The dream I see at dawn is so sorrowful

The chain that bound us

Rotted in the sea

Never to return…

"pant cough." I held onto my throat, tears running down my cheeks.

Sakuya ran out of the recording studio and gave me a glass of water.

"Hey, Yuki-chan are you all right?" asked Sakuya.

"I'm fine. I'm just getting a little emotional that's all." I looked down at my new lyrics for my new song, Missing Link, with a very sad expressionThe truth is I wasn't okay, my throat was killing me.

"Well let's record it next time, okay?" suggested Sakuya, looking at me with an 'I understand look.'

"I'm sorry and thanks Sakuya-san." Then I left with Risu to the car.

"Juriusu-kun, take us to Life General Hospital. Yuki-chan has an appointment today," Risu, declared.

"Hai, Risu-san," confirmed the driver, Juriusu.

The car stopped in front of the hospital. Risu and I got out the car and walked into the hospital. Risu went up to the nurse at the front counter.

"Konnichi wa, may I help you?" asked the nurse.

"I have an appointment today," replied Risu.

"Okay." the nurse started to type on the computer. "Name please?" requested the nurse.

"Yuki Sakura," said Risu.

"Okay, please proceed to the waiting room; and wait to be called on," said the nurse with a smile.

"ArigatÇ." Risu and I walked to the waiting room, and sat down in the chairs; waiting to be called on.

Ten minutes later, we heard another nurse call my name. We followed the nurse into a room. Inside the room we saw Dr. Time with another male doctor waiting for us with a smile on his face.

"Konnichi wa, Yuki-chan. How are you feeling today?" asked Dr. Time.

"I'm feeling fine Dr. Time," I assured him.

"Let me introduce you to Dr. Rigati, an oncologist," introduced Dr. Time.

I was surprised to see the person in front of me. He was handsome and all, but the thing that shock me the most was that he looks very young. I think he is either my age or a year older than me.

"O-on-ccolo…what?" I stuttered on the word oncologist.

"An oncologist is a doctor whose profession is in cancer," responded Risu.

"Wow, Risu-chan how did you know that?" I asked amazed that Risu will know that.

"I used to read scientific vocabulary books when I'm bored in middle school," she answered.

We went into the room, and Dr. Rigati was looking at some files that had my name on it.

"Well today I will be doing some tests on you to make sure if you have the cancer Dr. Time thought you did," he explained.

I followed him into a room that was all dark, until Dr. Rigati opens the lights. I saw a chair that looks like the one you'll see in a dentist's room, there were also some tools next to the chair. I was praying that he wouldn't use a needle for whatever test he's doing on me. I lay down on the chair while Dr. Rigati prepared for the tests he was going to perform on me.

Dr. Rigati performed the following tests on me: endoscopy, biopsy, and MRI, well at least that's what he told me it was called. I was so nervous when I saw there was an x-ray looking thing over my head and then Dr. Rigati put this long skinny tube called an endoscope through my mouth and into my throat, he was watching on a little T.V. that shows where the endoscope was going. Then all of a sudden I felt pain in my throat, I wanted to scream, but when I was about to, the tube came back out of my mouth. There were some red things on the tube, that wasn't there before. Dr. Rigati saw me staring at the endoscope with a shocked expression.

"These are your tissue from your throat, later I'm going to use these and examine them to see if they are contaminated by sarcoma (cancer)."explained Dr. Rigati. He walked into the room that was connected to the room I was in. From my point of view I think it is a lab room.

"Um..."

"You may go back to the other room." said Dr. Rigati.

I left the room and went back into the room where Risu and Dr. Time were in. We all waited for Dr. Rigati to arrive with the results. It seemed like forever, but it was only thirty minutes, then an hour. Finally we saw Dr. Rigati came in with a pale folder and a big khaki folder under his arms.

"Yuki, I just did a Biopsy test with the tissue that I got from your throat and it seems that you have Laryngeal Cancer." He looked at me like he was expecting some kind of reaction, but all he saw was a blank expression on my face.

"I have cancer, but how? Can I still be able to sing? What happens if I can't sing anymore?" millions of questions were popping into my head.

"Yuki-chan? Yuki-chan?" asked Dr. Rigati while waving his hand in front of my face.

"Huh? What happened?" I asked looking confused.

"You were in your own world," answered Risu.

Dr. Rigati showed us some photos of my throat, I was about to faint once I saw the first photo, but I held it together. I heard Dr. Time and Dr. Rigati saying something about MRI. (MRI represents Magnetic Resonance Imaging, a procedure in which radio waves and a powerful magnet linked to a computer are used to create detailed pictures of areas inside the body).

"Um, excuse me, but will I still be able to sing?" I interrupted the doctor's conversation.

"Your cancer is now at stage 2 which means that the cancer has metastasize (spread) to the supraglottis and subglottis. So those two can't move normally," responded Dr. Rigati.

"What's su-p-prag-lo-t-tis and sub-gl-ott-is?" I asked with a very confused and worried look.

"The top part of the larynx is the supraglottis and subglottis is at the bottom," said Dr. Rigati.

"Yuki-chan, your cancer is still in early stage so it is better if we diagnose it as soon as possible," notified Dr. Time.

"Will I lose my voice in the process?" I asked.

"We still haven't found out if you vocal cords are affected yet, but while you're singing and your throat starts to hurt, stop immediately," warned Dr. Rigati.

"But how did Yuki get this cancer?" Risu asked.

"Well, usually only a person who smokes a lot has this type cancer," answer Dr. Rigati.

"But I don't smoke at all!" I exclaimed, surprised only people who smoked could get this cancer.

"Even second hand smoke could cause the cancer." clarified Dr. Time.

"How?" questioned Risu.

"A smoker has a filter in the cigarette to protect them, but second hand smokers don't," explained Dr. Rigati.

After hearing Dr. Rigati's explanation, I started to get worried. My whole body was shaking in fear.

"We have to go now. I think Yuki-chan is getting tired," informed Risu as she looked at me.

"Okay, it is getting late now," agreed Dr. Time looking at his watch.

"Just remember we have another appointment next week on Wednesday," reminded Dr. Rigati.

Risu just nodded and held me up as we left the room.

Risu and I left the hospital, and we saw Juriusu parked at the parking lot. We went into the ca, Juriusu started the car right after we got in and headed towards the direction to my house.

"You can cry now." said Risu while looking out the window with her head on her palm.

My tears started to fall down my cheek and onto my hands that were now holding onto my skirt.

"Is something wrong? Why is Yuki-san crying?" asked a concern driver.

"No, nothings wrong, it's just that Yuki-chan has a cold, so she won't be singing for a while." answered Risu, using an excuse.

"Well I hope Yuki-san will feel better soon, and sing for us once again." said the fopeful Driver.

I cried and cried until the car reached my house. Risu walked me to my front door and waved goodbye as I went in. I went upstairs to my room and went to take a shower. Twenty minutes later, I came out dressed in my midnight blue nightgown and walked out to my balcony. I could feel the cold wind playing with my hair. I shivered a little and decide to go back into my room. I couldn't sleep at all until 2:00 am. Thank god I have a day off from work so I could sleep late.

All I was thinking of was what happen today at the hospital. I could remember how it felt with that tube in my throat. I could also remember the photos of my throat, remembering that made me wanting to faint again but all I did was drifted to sleep. That night I had a nightmare about not being able to sing anymore and it frightening me. I wasn't scared that I was going to die, I was scared because I couldn't be able to sing anymore…