Title
Tear Stains On Your Picture
Contents
Ouran High School Host Club
Pairings
Hikaru/Kaoru
POV
Kaoru
Beta
None
Summary
Kaoru couldn't see it coming when it happened. And now he's held in a delima.
Disclaimer
I do not own Ouran High School Host Club or any of the characters mentioned. Trust me if I did, they wouldn't be hosting. They'd be doing naughty things in a closet.
Warning
Twincest implied. Third wheel. You have been warned
Enjoy
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"I beat you."

Was what you said to me on arrival. My head was still hanging low, stareing through the puddle on the picture. You walked over, and wiped the tears from my eyes. For me, your hand's cresting left my face to soon for my likeing. I took the courage to look at you, but it hurt.

"Kaoru? Something wrong?"

I caught myself in a dilema. I can't lie to you. But I can't hurt you. So which do I choose?

As if the tears were never there, I smiled your way, and put on a pair of pants.

"No Hikaru."

With that I left you, with your dumbfounded expression, takeing the taboo picture from the album and pocketing it. Couldn't you see I was hurt? What did you do, get her drunk? I wouldn't have to be drunk for you Hikaru. No, I would have taken you as I am. But this was just my jealousy coming into play yet again, I doubt she's drunk. Whatever she is, I know she left. You wouldn't leave her precious side while she was here, you proably drove her home, didn't you brother? Either way she's not in the house right now, your in my room, I'm leaving.

No I will not stay gone, but will you notice my abscents? My shoes are on, and you haven't come downstairs to stop me from leaving yet. My sweater is in the wash, so I'll borrow yours instead. I opened the door, could you hear the tumblers unlock? They mock me, everytime you leave they get louder than my heart's beat. It's sickening me, leaving as you do everynight. Either way I've left the house, my feet hit the ground as soon as they could. I was running from you now brother, running from your stance. The way you looked at me, after you finished with her. You looked so satisfied, so relifed, so... loved.

What am I talking about? Isn't that how one should look after that act? I've always wondered how you would look after such events. I wonder if you sweat, I wonder if you took her from the top. How often did you kiss her? I could tell she was in pain, afterall it was her first time right? Did you help take her focus off the pain at her lower? Did you-No, I shouldn't be thinking about you like this Hikaru. It's just... Just... Just wrong! This feeling, these questions, these thoughts, these images, it's all so sick and wrong! Oh brother you would not approve of my next thought of you. So I will stop this now. I will stop thinking of this now. Where did I leave that picture? Oh yes, in my pants pocket. I'll just look at it once more.. Maybe this will take my mind off of the sick thoughts.

Oh how wrong I was. And I felt sicker right now than I did five minutes ago. I had to find a isolated place right now. The heat riseing was unbearable to stand. I was near the school, I could always run inside and lock myself in a closet? No, no Tamaki has every key to every door there. The school was not an option. I have to be alone right now. I'll put the picture back in my pocket and run to the nearest alley way. I looked around in it, it was way from society. So dark, so wet, so... Isolated. Yes, this will be perfect. It was obvious what I came here to do. No, not to cry for you brother. But something sicker than all the images in my mind. I felt myself slipping against the wall, your sweater smelt like you do. Whatever you wear, I never want it to fade. I couldn't believe my acts in this alley way, hushing your name as I did.

"Mmm Hikaru."

It was sickening. I couldn't get these images, these mini videos, out from my head. This is when I began bucking into my hand, and it wasn't soon after this motion did I hear footsteps. In shock and fear I think I arrived early. I had been greatful it was my hand and not my pants. Well whoever it was would see me with myself in hand.

"Who-Who's there?"

As if I'd get any answers.

"My-My name is Hitachiin Kaoru. State yourself."

Still, no respond. It was around this time did I get one. Not verbal, no, not yet. Instead a body of a senior had flung themself on me. There was another pair of footsteps, how many were there out there? So far all I could recconize was two. Lighting struck nearby, I could see the two faces grinning down at me. It hurt Hikaru. That first hit, it was to my temple. They smiled like you had, I hate that look. They looked so satisfied, so pleased with themselves as they looked down at my bruised and half-blind self. For the least I knew, they have only begun.

"Hitachiin Kaoru huh? One of the rich bastards?"

A kick to my ribcage was my reward for nodding my head. I yelped and coughed. They stole my wallet, they stole my shoes, they even stole... Your sweater.

I thought you wouldn't notice if I came home tonight, and I definatly wouldn't have guessed you'd be waiting for me when I arrived home. If only you knew the night I had... Your stomach would turn brother, and you wouldn't be embraceing me with one arm while you held your phone in the other, talking to her. I'm sorry I flew off the handel, I was in no mood for her at that moment. Sorry I slapped the phone from your hands, and watched it smash on the floor. I didn't mean to glare, I should have shed those tears in your chest like I would normally. Instead I told you, I told you I couldn't stand you, and I ran to my room locking teh door behind me. My chest hurt, how could I be so mean to you?

You came to my room, early that morning. What time was it? Two? Three in the morning? It was still dark and raining now. Your knocking, why did you have to be so gental about it? I needed the two minutes it took to clean myself of all tears and hiding the taboo picture. I unlocked the door and saw you standing there, with a box of chocolates. I think you dropped that box when I flung myself into your arms. You held me so gentally, I couldn't even feel the bruises as you picked me up and brought me to my own bed. You let me cry into your chest, even after all I've said. You were the one to wrap me in bandages, you were the one to kiss your fingers and touch the cuts, you were the one who told me everything would be alright. It seemed perfect, I knew you cared for me. But everything was lost when you gave me that smile. Your satisified, self-pleased smile.

"Where else does it hurt?"

Where else? Isn't it obvious! My chest hurts, and all because you gave me that same smile. The same smile you gave me after her. The same smile they had given me when they did what they did.

"I hate you!"

I lost it again. My head buried itself in your chest as I hit your chest with my right hand. Why did you let me do this? I was hitting pretty hard. Although I couldn't mean it when I said I hated you. Did you know this? Do you know I can't hate you?

"Kaoru..."

You caught my fist. You guided the angered ball to my side and brushed the ahir from my face as you held me close. Oh god, don't you realize your making it worse?

"Kaoru, hush... Niisan's here."

don't call yourself niisan. Please Hikaru, that just makes it sicker for me.

"... But tell me, why did you leave?"

Dammit Hikaru! Why! Why do you always do this to me! If I tell you, I will hurt you. I can't lie to you. But I can't hurt you. So which do I choose?

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:3 Thanks to BokuraNoLoveStyle for a suggestion with chapter ideas. I took the advice and flew with it, what'd ya think?

Also, memo to a friend of mine: I still think it would have been better if Tamaki had been there XD but than the story wouldn't be under teh category "angsty"

OH and to two other friends: Yes yes, I promised smex, but shush it will come later!

I told ya it was rated for later chapters.