Together we concluded that posting two alternate endings would not be breaking the rules. :)
So, this is how the story goes when Naruto says "Yes" to Sasuke.
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Sasuke puts his phone down on the mattress next to himself and looks at me.
"Naruto?" He asks hesitatingly.
"Yeah?" He doesn't sound as cold as yesterday, he seems more unsure right now. I wonder why. I wonder who he talked to, and what that person said. It seems like the other person wants Sasuke to do something he doesn't want to do. I wonder why he doesn't just refuse to do it. How hard can it be?
"Uhm, this might seem like a bit of weird question. Or maybe not weird, but a bit sudden? I don't know… Do you like me?" He asks and I frown. Of course I like him, but in what way does he mean? Maybe I should just go with the safe answer.
"Of course I like you Sasuke, you're really cool." I say sheepishly, grinning at him. I see his face fall slightly before he stiffens up again; it was clearly not the type of answer he wanted.
"I mean, do you like me? As in like-like… as in… do you love me?" He asks. There is something in his eyes, in the way he is looking at me… It's as if he's silently pleading for the right answer, but what is the right answer? I feel a growing feeling of discomfort in the bottom of my stomach, something doesn't feel right.
Of course I love Sasuke, that should be obvious by now, so why is he asking? Is he unsure? Is he insecure like me? Or does he not want me to love him? Maybe he just has a small crush on me, and wants it to go away? Maybe he thinks that if I reject him he'll get over me and can go back to being his completely straight, popular self again? Or maybe there is something else entirely?
I sigh; there is no point in guessing.
"Yeah, I love you. I have for some time now." I say earnestly.
Sasuke's face falls and he looks… disappointed? Sad? What is that expression?
He sits like that for a few moments, in complete silence, seemingly struggling with something. Finally he picks up his phone again, holding it against his ear.
"There you have it, Sakura, happy?" He says coldly. I hardly notice how acidic his voice became as he pronounced Sakuras name. The only thing I can think about is that he tricked me. The entire weekend has all been a trick. I feel dizzy and nauseous.
"No." I whisper I disbelief.
"They heard…" He says blandly, confirming what I already knew; it had all been a trap.
It hurts. It feels like my heart is shattering into a thousand pieces all at once.
It was all just a game.
Everything he said and did was pretence, to make me admit my feelings to him. And now they know. Now everyone knows.
I stand up from the bed in hurry.
I hear Sasuke's voice yelling from behind me, but I'm already on my way out of his house. I can't hear what he's saying, but he's probably mocking me; calling me names.
I run.
-x-
How did things become like this…?
I'm running. Twigs and bushes tear at my clothes. I feel my breath catch in my throat. I'm exhausted… I've been running for a while now.
How could someone do something like that…?
The tears running down my cheeks, the sweat trickling from my forehead, the rapid pounding of my heart, my laboured breathing, my chest… it all hurts.
How could someone be so cruel…?
I've been running for so long. A minute? An hour? A day? How much time has passed by already?
How could someone tear someone's hear t out so brutally…?
I can't run anymore. I let my body collapse, falling to the ground.
I claw at the ground, grabbing handfuls of grass and leaves. I want to dig a hole, only to climb down and disappear.
I stop my ridiculous clawing. I know I can't dig such a large hole with my hands.
What am I supposed to do…?
I sit up on my knees, looking down at myself; My clothes are torn to pieces, it's a miracle they're still clinging so desperately to my body.
I clutch my head, trying to make the painful thoughts go away.
I scream.
I clutch my hair, nearly ripping it out; and I scream.
I scream my anger and sorrow at the sky. I scream until my throat go sore and I'm unable to make a sound. I scream until my chest hurts more than ever before. I scream until the pale blue sky starts turning dark. I scream until darkness takes completely over. I scream until I can't scream anymore.
I'm shaking so bad. I can barely move my limbs anymore.
Am I going to die here…?
I let myself fall backwards. The dark sky is dotted with numerous stars. I start counting.
For every star I count it all feels more and more like a dream.
Pale porcelain skin, hands carefully caressing that skin, feeling the silky consistency. Black onyx eyes, staring into my own, piercing my soul. Soft pink lips, moving against mine. Raven black hair, easily allowing my fingers to slip through it as I comb it gently.
That's right; such a thing could never be real…
I close my eyes slowly, feeling my consciousness slip away.
I awaken slowly, tentatively feeling my body. Everything seems to be fine except my throat; my throat hurts...
It feels like I'm lying in a soft bed covered in warm blankets. How nice, I wonder who would do such a thing for me?
"Naruto...?" An oh-so-familiar voice calls my name gently; I shiver and tense at the sound. If I pretend to still be asleep he'll have to leave me alone eventually... right...?
"Naruto, please... I know you can hear me." I hear the pain and heartbreak in his voice and the tiniest part of me feels sorry for him. I open my eyes and turn my head towards his voice. I stare at him, feeling empty on the inside, like my heart's been ripped out. I wait. He seems to realize I have no intention of speaking for he sighs and avert his gaze.
A sudden thought hits me and the tiniest spark of anger flares in my chest before it whisks away, as if it was never even there.
What right does he have to be hurt? He is the one who hurt me.
"It doesn't matter you know... that they know." He says tentatively.
All of a sudden my insides flare like a roaring fire; I haven't felt such intense anger before in my life.
"How dare you?" I whisper, lacing my words with all the malice I can muster.
Sasuke cringe when I speak. The satisfaction I feel at hurting him with my words is so brief I wonder if I ever actually felt it.
"They..." He begins but his words falter. I snort and turn my gaze towards the ceiling.
Pathetic... I think.
"You did this." I say softly, feeling tears run down my cheeks. Haven't I cried enough already?
"I didn't want to..." He says feebly. I snort again. How did I ever come to love such a weak person I wonder...?
"But you did." I say.
"Dammit Naruto! None of this would have happened if-" Sasuke bursts out, but I cut him short.
"If what? Huh? If I didn't love you? If I didn't seduce you against your will? If what?" I spit, glaring at the raven, daring him to complete his sentence.
"Listen, I couldn't help it? Don't you get it? They'll make me their punching bag the moment I stop doing whatever they want me to." He explains, the desperation in his voice obvious.
"And therefore it is ok to ruin someone else's life?" I say venomously. How does he think he can possibly justify his actions?
"I was going to tell you before they called, I just couldn't bring myself to-"
"Did I really look that pathetic and hopelessly in love to you?" I ask angrily.
"No, that's not what I-"
"Than what do you mean, Sasuke?"
"I just wanted to spend a little more time with you before I told you. I knew that when I did you would-"
"Be hurt and not want to talk to you again? Damn straight-"
"Can you stop interrupting me for fucks sake?!" Sasuke suddenly bursts out. I stare at him for a moment. It almost feels as if he just slapped me. "Thank you. I wanted to spend time with you Naruto." He says, putting emphasis on "wanted" as if that is supposed to tell me anything.
"And?" I can tell that he is becoming progressively more frustrated with every word I speak, and somehow I derive this strange satisfaction from his frustration.
"This is all really new to me. I really, really like you Naruto. I think I may even love you…" He says quietly, looking away. I can hear a trace of defiance in his voice, and can clearly see a blush creep up his neck. My hard expression falters for a moment.
What...?
"Yeah right." I say. I don't believe him. This is another trick.
Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me...
"Naruto please... Believe me..." He says, looking at me. I can clearly hear the pleading in his voice and he has the same look as yesterday; like he's trying to convey something words can't. As if he's trying to tell me something without speaking.
"Even if I believed you it's too late, don't you get it? You've used your chance." I say. I hesitate a. do I really mean that?
Sasuke looks at me for a long moment, and then he seems to decide on something. He rises from his chair and walks over to the bed; to me. He looks deep into my eyes before he slowly bends down and presses his lips to mine. I keep completely still. Even as he moves back I don't move a muscle.
"I love you Naruto... I really, really do." He says. I can tell he means it, even after what he did to me.
"What are you going to do about it?" I ask. He falters.
"I don't know." He answers honestly.
"Of course you don't." I say. My insides are like a whirlwind of emotions, all of them pulling towards different directions, different outcomes.
He hurt me... I want to hurt him...
He's lying... I want to get away from him...
He loves me... I want to be with him...
He... He is Sasuke...
"Why...?" I whisper, tears running freely down my cheeks again Sasuke's eyes widen in surprise. He looks desperately around the room, clearly not sure of what to do. Does he think something in the room will give him the answer...?
Sasuke looks down at me again. He leans down and sneaks his arms under me, pulling me into a tight hug.
"Please Naruto. I love you. I think I might have had something more than a platonic interest in you for a while, I just... didn't want to..." He says.
I hear his voice cracking, and feel warm tears against my neck.
Sasuke Uchiha is actually crying... For me. Because he hurt me like no one else ever could have. Because he broke my heart, and now' he's desperately trying to assemble what's left of the pieces.
Sasuke Uchiha is crying because he loves me.
I slowly reach up and wrap my arms around him.
He jolts slightly in surprise, and a small smile pull on my lips for the briefest of moments.
I am still crying; I am so scared.
Can I really trust him? Is he really telling me the truth? Does he deserve my love? What if he decides I'm not worth it after all, and throws me aside? Will I be able to stand another rejection?
"You're shaking." He says quietly.
I don't answer. I don't know what there is to say.
Am I really going to accept his feelings? To give him another chance? Just like that?
I'm crying in earnest now, sobs racking my body and burning my already sore throat.
Sasuke sits on the bed next to me and pulls me into his embrace, forcing me to sit with him. Then he starts rocking me back and forth, humming some random melody I've never heard before. I imagine a tiny Sasuke in the arms of his mother while she is humming the same melody for him.
I don't know how long we stay like that, but it feels like an eternity before I manage to calm down.
"I'm sorry. What I did was cruel..." He says, burying his face in my hair.
"It's not really ok..." I croak, wincing as I speak. My throat feels like sandpaper.
"I know. I don't expect forgiveness, even though I desire it..." He says.
I'm suddenly reminded of a time when I was young. I owned a beautiful glass bird; it was the most precious thing I'd ever owned. It had been a gift from my mom. One day when I was playing in my room I knocked it of the shelf by accident and it shattered into a thousand unrecognizable pieces. I had wanted to fix it so badly, never wanting to ruin it in the first place; however, nothing could mend it once it was broken.
"I'm not glass." I whisper quietly.
Sasuke is quiet for a long while. I wonder if he is contemplating my words or if he just didn't hear me.
"I don't understand..." He says after several minutes; I was almost certain he hadn't heard me when he spoke. I smile briefly; he didn't need to understand.
"I forgive you." I say.
Sasuke gasps.
Heh. I Caught him off guard with that one...
"Really?" He says breathlessly.
"Really." I confirm. I'm still scared; more scared than I've ever been in my entire life, but maybe it's ok to be scared? Maybe I'm even supposed to be?
Sasuke hugs me tighter to his chest.
"I love you Naruto... I love you so much." He says. I can't tell whether he's laughing or crying, maybe a bit of both?
"I love you too Sasuke."
So. There's that. I was intending to have some deep meaningful related message here at the bottom, but I don't think there's any point. I believe people are able to understand what I'm getting at purely by reading the story. Your actions has consequences people, remember that!
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