Chapter 2

Hey sorry guys, I am very bad at typing stories fast and I'm kinda brain dead, and depressed lately so I hope this chapter makes up for me being so late…

With Leo

Leo was glad he could escape the pending argument. He turned to the bathroom and slammed the door shut and sunk to the floor, his shell resting against the door. The words still followed him around like a bothersome fly, but the annoying and easily could be ignored words stung like a bee. "Hmmm...Earth had those...and sakura trees, father told me of them...I wish i could have seen some.." Leo thought before shaking his head as tears brimmed his eyes. No! He would not cry he must stay together be calm, be strength. He couldn't mourn, too busy being the glue that helped his brothers stay together. He had to helped them mourn.

His wrists started to itch and burn. Leo started to subconsciously rub them vigorously. He quickly left the bathroom, almost hitting April in his mad dash to his bedroom.

"woah! Leo, what's wrong?" April yelled but of course was meet with no reply as Leo ran into his room and shut the door.

Leo made sure the door was locked before finally ripping of the bandages on his wrist which was now unbearable aching with a powerful itch. as the stained white bandages fell to the ground Leo's scared wrist was reviled. His wrist was covered in many deep gashes; Some scared over in white and dark lines with dried blood settling on other while some.. were still fresh with small beads of blood appearing through the healing skin. 'This is my punishment' he thought before taking out the small knife hiding in the bandages of his other hand and driving back onto his wrist, breaking the already worn skin and letting rivers of blood run down his his arm and pool to the floor.

He exhales, lifting his head towards the ceiling. tears run down his face as he drops the knife. 'I feel...alive, but not, no.. I need to feel bad, I need to feel pain!' Leo grew frustrated with himself. He thought feeling nothing would be all he felt with this, that cutting and feeling his own blood leave would pay for his crimes, for letting everyone down, for letting them all die in a black hole that was their planet, their home. His brothers didn't deserve this life.. Traveling through space, no father, no place to call home, he had even dragged their friends into this.. this hell! He punched the wall with a fury even Raph would fear.

He wasn't upset at Raph's words, he wishes they were true. he wished he didn't care, he wishes he was nothing, he wished he could at least repay his brothers for what he took from them. Leo then opened his eyes, he smiled as tears flowed from his eyes and a pained smile appeared on his face. He quickly wiped away all the blood with a red stained cloth he stored under his pillow, reraped his wrist, being careful to make sure that no cut was being shown, and tucked the knife away once again. He stood up, stumbling a bit due to the blood loss but quickly regained his composure. An idea had appeared in his head. He would repay everyone's suffering with his own, he could faster reach that reach that state of nothingness by becoming nothing, he would no longer feel the guilt, he promised himself he would no longer sleep. He would rid himself of the terrors of many nightmares by eliminating sleep. He would no longer eat or drink so his brothers could have his portions, they didn't need his selfishness of eating. He didn't have the right to fuel his body with these essentials, he lost that right along time ago. With that he left his room with empty eyes and a fake smile that would fool his brothers while his true punishment began…

(April)

I waited down the hall for Leo, when he finally came out of his room I ran up to him.

"Leo are you okay? What happened? I saw you rubbing your wrist, is it hurt?" I blurted out, I didn't mean to sound overbearingly worried judging by the look on Leo's face I did, but I'm honestly worried, he is like my brother too, and I've known him long enough to know something is wrong.

"April, I'm fine, I'm just really stressed, and my wrist is fine I rub it as a stress reliever, but I'm all good." He said but something deeper is going on in his mind, I feel it.

"Are you sure? completely positive?"

"...Promise" he says hesitantly.

We stare at each other for a moment, I see his eyes are red, was he crying? Maybe it was just stress, We all had been pretty tense lately and with the world… yeah he is probably just stressed, I'll just have to trust him I guess, I know if I push any farther he would just silence himself completely from me. As I turn to walk away I look back and tell him one more thing before I walk away.'

"You can talk to me, you know that right"

He looked at me for a moment, some life returned to his eyes but to only dim down again.

"yeah.." he says face now like stone and we walk away from each other.

(Normal P.O.V.)

For the next week everyone started becoming increasingly worried about Leo, well more from April, Donnie, and Mikey. Casey just thought it was just Leo being Leo, and Raph, well as per usual he let his own emotions get in his way, and only continued to get angry at Leo.

In his mind Leo didn't care about him or Donnie, or Mikey, he sure as hell didn't seem to care about the death of Master Splinter and the destruction of earth, he'd never seen him cry once. Leo doesn't even hang around them anymore. Leo is up and gone before all of them training, always got to be Mr. Perfect. Whenever they stopped to get supplies on other plants, Leo would disappear till it was time to leave, and when asked to eat with them he stated that he had eaten while away or in space that he had a big breakfast, which Raph and Casey assumed it was because he got up early.

Mikey tried to deny what was happening and just tried to continue being happy for everyone, trying to let the wonders of space enchant him, but he still felt that something was empty and the sense of dread still floating in the air suffocated him. April knew something was going on but no one would listen besides Donnie, and even he wouldn't do much about what was happening, he thought it best to wait truly believing this was just temporary, that it was just Leo adjusting to a new setting much like he had to at the farm house.

"But he was in a coma there for three months! Donnie when he woke up he wasn't adjusting to the area as much as he was adjusting to being alive again!"

"April, I get what you mean, trust me, we all say how frustrated and sad Leo was about everything. I still sometimes blame myself for what happened."

Honeycutt then entered the "lab" per say. It was ok for a ship but not what Donnie had before.

"beep, Hello my friends, sorry to eavesdrop like this, bloop, but I couldn't help but overhear something about Leonardo in a coma? beep.

" Sorry professor we were just discussing Leo's behavior after waking up from a three month coma in comparison to now." said Donnie in his nerdy way. (forgive me)

" Yes, but professor here is the thing, something is going on with Leo! much deeper than what happened at the farm house! It's like.. he has given up." stated April lowering her head to the ground.

" Yes.. I regret to inform you that Beep I have been sensing some very odd things about Leonardo as well, but sadly I didn't know if this was bloop normal for his behavior or not, his body is experiencing large amounts of strain of most his vital systems."

" Told you Donnie, and have you seen him lately? he has gotten a thinner."

"Yes, April I see that! I see Leo becoming more sluggish and distracted as well! BUT WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO! he took a deep breath, I just… don't know what to do, before we had hope, he believed Splinter was alive, he kept us believing that aswell, its like he is in a coma again, but he is still here…"

"Yet he is not?" April finished his sentence

"Yeah, but I guess we are all lost in our own little worlds too after this one weren't we?"

"yeah.."

"Well we will have to continue on this after we pick up some more supplies,beep I know of an underground market on a planet at these coordinates, sadly it's much like the moon of thalos 3 being that the planet is the farthest from its dying sun bloop." (forgive me.. I'm just making up stuff now, just go with it! why they gotta be in space?!)

" We should be there in about 30 min"

all of a sudden everything went silent as a loud scream was heard throughout the ship.

"LEO!"

_End of chp.2_

omg I actually finished a chapter! YAY! I just want to say I'm really sorry! It's just, them being in space now and stuff has made it really hard for me to think, plus I'm not really digging on that whole MonaxRaph sh*t sorry to any of you who who do like it! Everything is just so messed up for me so I'm trying to portray that through the brothers, cause I'm pretty sure they had to realistically go through some hell in their world after all that death, well next chapter going to be a doozie! Peace!

-Insanity