Why? Chapter 2: Dawson, a dawson's creek fanfic

CH 2

A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I've saw your pretty face

A thousand lights had made me colder and I don 't think I can look at this the same

But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I 'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin
as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope that it gets better as we go

Everything I know,
and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls,
when it's all said and done
it get hard but it won't take away my love

The dream always starts out the same way. We're lying together, curled up, perfect contentment permeates my entire being. I could stay like this forever. She turns to me leaning on her arm draped over my shoulder, She smiles and says 'I love you more than anything else in the world. I am yours and you are mine.'
She kisses me on the lips, softly, sweetly, longingly. But then she starts to pull away. She smiles at me winningly, her eyes dancing she backs away from me, my body following her without my mind even thinking about it, needing her warmth.
Then the room around us starts to fade and we're standing in an open plane. Her hand which was previously held firmly in mine begins to slip out of my hand and she pulls away sadly.

The Game is over now, this is serious.

'Follow me" she says, "I can show you the way." and she starts to run.
At first I stand still in shock. Then I begin the chase.

She is always just out of my reach.

She is ever in front of me and I constantly reach out to her, calling her, begging her to come back to me, she turns and looks at me wistfully. But then she runs on. I need her. Sometimes pulling ahead, sometimes she's so close that I can taste her, but each time she gets closer to me again something in her seems to be so far away.

She starts to be distracted by things on the sidelines.

Finally I think that I've caught up to her. She turns to me and crumples before my eyes.
'Save me' she whispers
I am lost. I whirl around bewildered as to what I should do.
And every night, it is at this point, as I bend down to sweep her up into my arms, that I wake up with a start.

It happened the other night when I had a woman here. I should have been embarrassed to see her as I awoke;
Some woman I hardly even know gathering her scattered clothes from across the room.
She looks at me with something akin to pity in her eyes.
Her voice breaks the uneasy silence. "My name is Jackie."
I should have been embarrassed.

I didn't start out this way.
There was a time when I loved one woman with all my heart and soul.
She made me believe in true love. But at the same time severed all my hopes of ever loving again.

Was I simply mistaken in the folly of my youth to think that the emotions that I was feeling were true love?

In my heart of hearts I can't believe this. It was a once in a lifetime, exhilarating feeling.

After Joey, my beautiful Joey, I tried to move on. I tried as hard as I could. Even now I fight to forget about her.
Perhaps I chase her in this dream that I can't shake, but here in the real world I'm the one that's running.

Why do I keep trying to run?

I'm writing a movie. Its dark and angsty. My agent thinks that I'm wasting my time on this project; a project that is doomed to fail just like the lovers that inhabit its pages. I've lost my inspiration.

I need Joey. The thought hits me like lightning bolt. I am lost without her.

But after all I've done, Why would she want me?

I made so many mistakes before. I didn't understand that there is no guarantee. It doesn't always work out in the end.
I know that now.
I know that I need to try.

Am I foolish to be doing this? To try and recreate a High School Love affair?

Maybe, but if this is true love then it deserves a chance. True Love is something that you never give up on.

Dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on...

AN: this chpt contain several things not written or owned by me. the song in italics at the beginning is from Here Without You by Three Doors Down. Dream on came from Aerosmith's Dream On. I also Don't Own Dawson's Creek or any of the characters that I am playing with. I don't think that I said that before.
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