Dreaming

[Sadly, I do not own Vampire Knight =( ]

Chapter 2: Zero

That morning as I awoke, I momentarily forgot about the dream. I awoke like I did every morning, thinking of a way to keep the blood suckers away from the day class. My mind swirled with all the problems I was confronting in my life. My brother being alive, my vampire senses being awakned, my uncontrollable feelings for Yuki. I clenched my fists and squeezed my eyes shut. I hated thinking that way about her. How could I hurt her and secretly want not just her blood but her body as well? I was sick. Sick of myself, my feelings, what I was. A sudden knock woke me from my thoughts.

"Zero?" Yuki's voice came from outside my door. My heart leapt in my chest, making somersaults, flips, and cartwheels. "Zero?"

"Yeah, Yuki. I'm coming," I muttered, putting on my school jacket. It was time for the morning rounds around the school, making sure the night class were asleep in their beds and the day class was off to classes.

Once I saw Yuki's face, my memories of the dream came rushing back at me, at super speed. Showing every detail, emotion, and scene. I felt my self begin to vomit, but held it back, not wanting for Yuki to worry. She was worried enough already.

"Well stop being stupid and slow, let's get going!" She yelled, rocking back on her heels. "KYAH! Charge!" She ran for the doors, pushing them open with all her force, letting the sun into the dorm. I placed my arm over my eyes, hiding from the sunlight. She turned around to face me, trying to walk down the stairs back wards, failing. She fell backwards, as I ran for her. I grabbed her arm, catching her fall.

And there she was. Her body in my arms, her arms around my neck. Her lips inches from mine. That was the best part, her lips. Small, light pink. I looked at Yuki who was blushing furiously. My heart flipped again. Yet, I still held her in my arms.

"Thank you, Zero," She whispered, still shy. My arms clenched tighter around her, but then slowly, reluctantly, I let her go.

"It's fine," I whispered, also shy. I ran a shaking hand through my hair, turning my back on Yuki. "Let's get moving," I said, walking down the stairs, turning to see her still standing at the top of the stairs. "You coming?" Her nervous expressionless face, brightened up with a smile. She ran after me, as I kept walking on. I didn't let her see it, but I smiled too.

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Between class breaks, I walked by myself in the gardens, thinking of this morning. That smile. That smile made me weak. She made me weak. Her presence was a gift, to a monster like me. I knew that I could never be with her. The pain of never being to put my hands on her body lovingly , not just in friendly ways. Not being able to kiss her, kiss those soft lips, to feel her arms around me. I clenched my fists, pushing her from my mind. But instead of other thoughts coming to my mind, the sick dream came. I grabbed onto my hair, hating the stupid dream. All the blood, making me so...so...thirsty.

"Zero! Hey Zero!" Yuki's voice, came from the rose bush behind me. Her friend, Yori, walking behind her. "Where were you? You missed the first two classes of the day!" I turned my back on her, ignoring the loud thumping in my heart, hoping she or her did not hear it.

"I was thinking," I muttered, walking away from Yuki and her friend. I turned back, noticing Yori had left Yuki and I alone.

"That dream wasn't about your parents, was it, Zero?" She whispered, coming closer to me, touching my arm. I turned away, ignoring the fiery feeling in my arm when she touched me.

"No," I whispered. "It was about you." I paused and turned around, clutching her shoulders. "I dreamed that you were screaming and I couldn't find you. When I finally found you, you were in pieces, bones everywhere, and someone, something, was standing over you. And...I couldn't save you." I collapsed next to her feet, on the brink of tears. I felt Yuki's arms on my back and on the side of my face, trying to lift my head. I refused to look at her. I refused to see the disgusted look on her face knowing that I dreamed about her corpse.

Her lips met my head. Was I dreaming? I felt her stand and walk away. What was I doing lying here on the ground. Sulking like a child. Yuki. Where was Yuki? Yuki. Yuki. Yuki. Yuki. Yuki. Yuki. Yuki. Yuki. Yuki. Yuki. Where did she go? '