XD Whoa! I'm pretty surprised with the feedback! Thanks, guys! :D You're all awesome.

And relax, I no longer feel sad. XD Especially from SuprSingr's super special awesome fanfic "Arnold's Journal", which I suggest you all read because it's pretty good and very emotional. :3 Chapter three was equally as sad (though a lot lighter, actually) as chapter two. But I guess one of the reasons that chapter two saddened me so much was because it caught me off guard. XD But now chapter three didn't surprise me so much! It was sad, yet sweet, yes, but I wasn't as "OMG SAD!!! D:" XD

So, I feel better! :D

Okay, so this part of the story is once more in Helga's POV. Enjoy! You know the disclaimer by now. This chapter is shorter, but I hope it's good. :3

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I AM SO MAD. MAD!!!!!!!

And when you're me, Helga G. Pataki, well, that's usually a normal occurrence. Of course, to be THIS mad, it usually has something to do with my love.

So what, you might be asking now, has got me so steaming mad? I will tell you in two words.

Lila Sawyer.

That's right. Lila. The girl who I considered as a friend the past few years since Arnold moved away. Lila, the girl who I spent a good portion of the fourth grade hating, considering she had Arnold's undeserving affections. Well let's just say I now have had a blast from the past in the name of Lila. Guess what happened?

Lila had apparently taken a liking to Arnold since he came back, which I can't say I blame her for since he's incredibly hot, and SHE asked HIM out! I'm not even joking. The same girl who he had been chasing in the fourth grade on top of that. The same girl who continuously allowed him to shower her with affection, to actually go and give him that hope, and then just SNATCH it away! The same girl I once actually called a friend.

And the worst part is, he actually accepted.

Actually, that's not the only worst part. That part is just the icing on the cake.

The worst part is that she knew I liked him. She knows I still love him to this very day. And yet she goes and dates him anyway! Isn't there some kind of an unspoken rule that you don't go after the guy (or girl, in the guy's case) that your friend likes? Sure there's the factor in letting the boy (or girl) in question decide who he wants, but still!

How could she do this?! Lila had her chance, and she blew it faster than a fish out of water! Big time! Arnold even told me himself shortly after we began dating that he'd been over Lila for quite a while at the time. And now look. She has him wrapped around her finger all over again. I can't believe it. My worst nightmare has just come back to haunt me, only ten times worse. How could this have possibly happened?!

Well let's see. Lila is now drop-dead gorgeous. She lets her long red hair down, wears tons of makeup, has a killer body, dresses in modest but appealing clothing, and oh yes, she has not lost her over-the-top Sunshine and Flowers sweetness. She still to this day sees the world through rose-coloured glasses, and you can still get diabetes just by spending five minutes with her.

No wonder Arnold went for her. He'd wanted her in fourth grade, and now she's grown and developed, and ten times more awesome to the boys than before. Plus, he just had a stormy and difficult-at-times relationship with me, a girl he just can't seem to understand. Lila is perfectly easy. Ten times easier to handle than me. He needs that.

They'd been dating for two months now. Every time I see them together, I want to just PUKE. She clearly doesn't deserve him. She's never loved him like I have! All through his absence, she was perfectly fine and bubbly, as if she didn't even care. That's not to say she couldn't have cried about it behind closed doors, but I don't know.

The way things are going, with any luck, the next time Arnold and I talk and hang out, they'll be engaged.

Okay, so I'll stop grossing myself out and making myself angry for a minute and talk about my…well, friendship with Arnold.

He showed up at my house some time ago, before he and Lila started dating. He invited me to Slausen's so we could get ice cream and catch up. We actually had a good time together and since then we've hung out here and there when we had the time. So, it's a little like back when we were dating. Except without all the awesome stuff, of course. We do argue still, not as much as we used to and we do always resolve them. So, things aren't so bad between us, and I'm glad about that. Having him around me and that he actually likes it is good to know, even if it's not as much as I wanted.

Well like I said, it was bound to happen, and I know now that I don't deserve him. I'll always love him, that'll never change, but I have to accept the fact that he's with Lila.

But I can't!!!!!!!

I want him to be happy! I always have. Even when my selfish side comes out, I still want him to be happy. So why can't I be the supportive best friend instead of the jealous, lovesick ex-girlfriend?!

You might be waiting for me to put in some details as to how I've sabotaged their dates. Well fortunately for them and unfortunately for you, I don't do that anymore. Maybe I did when I was nine, but come on; I'm a much bigger person than that now! And the idea of Arnold hating me for it scares me more than anything.

Okay, so I followed them once on their first date. In disguise, of course. They went to Chez Pierre for dinner, and…well, Arnold looked like he was on Cloud Nine, always laughing and having fun with Lila, while she was…well, isn't Lila anything but sweet and happy? Well, that was the night I gave up.

Now that Arnold has Lila, a perfectly easy and sane relationship, with no arguments at all, he has the perfect life. Great friends, good grades in school, his family (parents now included), can travel the world, and most of all, a wonderful girlfriend that is not me.

Arnold is happy. He would marry Lila in an instant and then his life would be complete. And of course he wouldn't need me anymore. Since he and Lila began dating, he doesn't hang out with me as much! Okay, I know sometimes when you're dating someone, you tend to spend as much time as you can with them! But Arnold told me himself when we began dating that he DID have a life outside of our relationship, which was fine with me, of course, I didn't have any objections to that. Come on, I love Arnold and I would have spent every waking moment I could with him, but this is the real world, and I know part of a good relationship is BALANCE.

Must be surprising to hear that from me, huh? You might be thinking "Oh, so Helga ACTUALLY lets Arnold have a life outside their courtship?"

Well, doi! I wanted to be the best girlfriend I could to him! And hey, I also have a life outside of him too! Not much of one, but still a life! Plus, he helped motivate me to formulate things outside of our courtship and find new things. For starters, I still wrote poetry more and more, including personal ones just for him, I even took up to writing short stories, which actually went pretty well. I even grew to have a hobby in reading more, and strange as it sounds, I even took up dancing again. You know, to have something to do! I don't dance anymore, but I did it at the time.

So of course we had a life outside of our courtship, and when we did see each other, we made the best of it.

But with Lila? Nope. He spent all his free time with her. I actually had the courage to call him up last Sunday and asked if he wanted to go see a movie with me. The Friday The 13thremake was out at the time and I had been dying to see it. I knew he'd want to see it too, since we shared the same interest in movies. I remember our first date, he suggested we see that cheesy romance movie playing at the time, since I'm a girl and we were on a date. But of course I said no way and said we should see Evil Twin 3 instead. Arnold was pretty happy with that! Yes, we did actually go see a couple of cheesy romance flicks just for the fun of it, and they weren't bad, I guess. What was I saying? Oh, right. Well, he turned me down and said he and Lila were going to Dino Land, which made me want to puke again.

Hello? Lila can barely even handle most of the rides! Okay okay, fine, I'll concede and say that it's not necessarily a bad thing, because the solution is either not to participate or just do your own thing. But no, oh no, she goes on these rides with him and ends up puking afterward.

Anyway, needless to say, he barely has time for me anymore. And that sucks. Yes, having a girlfriend CAN eat up some of your time, I should know, I was once his girlfriend and we did spend a lot of time together, but Arnold is the type to follow with his first-made commitments. If he made plans with Gerald to go to the arcade, he wouldn't drop that to go do something else (unless it was an absolute emergency), and if he had a date with me, he would also follow through with it. We dated and spent time together without having to drop anything. That's what Arnold was more comfortable with, and well, you know I'll do anything for him, so it was cool by me. Like I said, it was fine.

But what the hell is going on?! With Lila, he is practically glued to her side! I can barely even get alone time with him at school without her being there with him. Come on, is it too much to ask that I want some alone time with my friend, who I'm also still in love with?

Apparently, it is.

I even confronted him about it the other day after I heard from Phoebe that Gerald had asked Arnold to go to the arcade with him, to which he agreed. But on the day they were to go, which was three days ago, he called Gerald and told him that there was a change of plans and that he was going to the movies with Lila instead.

So I got a little upset and confronted him, saying he was a big hypocrite and spending all of his time with Lila. We didn't yell and scream like a couple of banshees, but we did raise our voices a couple of octaves.

Well, of course, he said the one thing that confirmed my worst nightmare.

"I know I spend all of my time with Lila, but can you blame me, Helga? I love her, and I just can't help but be with her all the time. And I know for sure that I want to marry her after we finish college, so of course I want to spend as much time as I can with her, and I know she feels the same way."

I could swear that I had died just then. He wanted to marry Lila one day, and Lila wanted to as well. Granted, he didn't ask her yet, but they wanted it. Their lives were all set. They'll marry after college, and then go live happily ever after.

So then I said to him,

"I understand how you feel. But I'm starting to wonder whatever happened to the Arnold who would spend time with his girlfriend without having to drop anything!"

And then I ran home. I just couldn't take it. Stupid Lila, I don't even talk to her anymore. She still tries to, but damn it, it's hard to listen to her. She knew I liked Arnold, she knows I still love him, and she goes and dates him anyway! No. I refuse to sit and listen to her love rants and how "ever so" sweet and awesome he is. Of course, I whole-heartedly agree, but when I hear it directed at HER, I just want to shove the phone down her throat.

So once more, I'm conflicted.