(A/N) Hey guys I decided to extend this into a three-shot. Put a little more behind the letter. Enjoy.
Characters belong to Stephanie Meyer
I'm Waiting
I folded the letter in my hand and wrote his name on the front. Hopefully one day he would find it. Read it and know that I still loved him.
I could feel the sickness taking my strength a little more each day. The doctors couldn't figure out what it was and they had no way of curing it. Pain pills didn't help as it took over my body. But despite the pain that got so bad some days I couldn't move I was happy for it.
I couldn't live like this. My only love was gone and I had no reason to live. The pain helped to keep me there at all times. The memories of him weren't painful anymore because I knew I would be watching over him soon.
He wasn't mine anymore but I would always be his. I would watch over him like I said.
I pushed away from my desk with the letter in hand and went over to the part of my room with the loose floorboard. I took out all the things inside of it; looking over the things I held in my hands. It was all still there; the tickets, the CD, the pictures. All the physical evidence that he had existed.
I didn't have the heart to take it all out since he wasn't there. So I kept it there, under my floorboards.
I placed the letter at the bottom of them and put everything else over it. I was just replacing the floorboard when I heard the sound of my father coming home from work. "Bella." Like usual he called out his greeting to me.
"Coming." I stood up and and opened the door to my bedroom to go out to the hall. I went downstairs and found Charlie in the kitchen with pizza. He turned around when he heard me come in.
"I thought you deserved a break from cooking." I could see the meaning behind his words. This was even harder on Charlie than it was me. When this disease finally took me I would be leaving him. The thought put a lump in my throat that made it almost impossible to breath.
"Thanks Dad. You know I could've made dinner."
"No, it's okay. I wanted to." I smiled at my father before we sat down to eat. He took a bite before he started talking again. "Your mom wants to come up and see you." I sighed. I knew my mom wanted to see me and in all honesty I wanted to see her too. But I wasn't sure if it was the best idea.
I didn't want pity and I knew every time I looked in her eyes I would see it. "You know how I feel about that Dad. We've had this talk before." I saw him sigh before he answered.
"I know Bella. But I can't stop her from coming and she wants to see you." I was staring down at my hand on the table, palm down. It was shaking slightly. Charlie covered my hand with his. "I'll talk to her Bella. Just let her come see you before . . ." before it's too late. Before I don't have another chance. Before I'm six feet under.
I could go on with just that one word. I stopped him before he finished the sentence. "Okay." He nodded with a sad smile before going back to his food.
After dinner I took the medicine the doctor had prescribed, even though it wouldn't help anything, and went to sleep.
My mom came up the next weekend. We spent the entire time together. She didn't say anything about my 'problem' and I was grateful for that.
I knew she wanted to stay with me but I insisted that she went back to Phil. I didn't want her here when it happened. I know that sounds bad but I wanted the least amount of people to suffer with me.
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It was two weeks after my mom had visited, six months since Edward left. I was too sick to go to school now but Charlie let me stay out of the hospital. I could still walk around so I spent my days in the woods taking in the world around me.
I had my ipod on shuffle, just listening to whatever came on. After "Welcome to My Life" by Simple Plan ended another song came on. The song was so ironic a low laugh escaped my lips, something that hadn't happened in a long time. It was "Live Like You Were Dying" by Tim McGraw.
Some people believe that people who know they're going to die live their lives to the fullest. But here I was just staring at the scenery of a town I had lived in for a month. Though some would disagree I found this was how I wanted to spend my last days. Relaxed and resigned to my faint instead of trying to deny it.
When I walked back from the woods my pace was slow but a fire was searing through my lungs. I kept walking though knowing if I didn't I would be stranded in the woods. The moment I broke through the trees I fell to my knees, gasping for breath.
I couldn't feel my lungs anymore. It was like they had been ripped out of my chest. "BELLA." I heard Charlie's voice through my gasps as I tried to keep breathing. I felt him kneel beside me and wrap an arm around me.
My panting slowed as the realization that it wouldn't help set in. "It will be okay honey. You'll be alright." Charlie kept soothing me as my vision started to blur. I put my hand in his as a silent I love you. I could feel the tears on the top of my head as the blackness started to come over me.
The burning in my chest started to fade as I did. Visions . . . memories of my life started to flash in front of my eyes. But they were recent and the happiest I had ever had. Nothing from my childhood or the past six months. Not of James, Victoria, or Laurent. All of them were of him. Edward.
The last thing I saw though wasn't a memory. It was just him standing in front of me. The gold eyes that pulled me in and the messy bronze hair that fell into his eyes. He was smiling that crooked smile that melted my heart.
It was dark around the two of us, nothing but him and me. This was all I wanted. I didn't want to relive everything in my life. I just wanted to see him. He opened his mouth and I heard the words come out in his velvet voice. My memories didn't do him any justice. "I love you Bella."
Those were the last four words I heard before falling into oblivion. Nothing could have made my dying day more perfect than that. His presence alone, even if it was all in my head, was enough for me.
Thanks for reading guys. The next and MAYBE last chapter will be about Charlie's reaction and Alice's vision.
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