A/N: I was so busy being hella gay for pride I'm still thrashed btw ._. and I may or may not have wrote some of this while I was inebriated at 4am... oh yeah Disclaimer: I don't own the characters (if I did Choni would never have their scenes cut]

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Cheryl's POV:

These are the days that remind me how alone I really am, how empty I am. Storms give my heart palpitations but now JJ isn't here to hold me while it passes. He isn't here to tell me everything is going to be okay. The only light that I had was Jason, the only love that I ever felt was Jason. My parents never really showed me love, they never really cared about me. I turned to Jason for everything. He's gone and so is part of my soul, no one in this god forsaken town understands what it's like to lose your twin.. your bestfriend.. your soulmate.

Cheryl holds her knees to her chest tightly while tears trickle down her pale cheeks, she bites her lip breathing leisurely trying but failing to prevent from crying all the more.

She tries to think about a time when JJ was holding her through a storm.

Cheryl was sitting on her bed with her duvet draped over her head. There was a storm outside and no one knew that the truculent Cherry Bombshell was petrified of storms. All but one person, her JJ.

She feels familiar arms wrap around her, she immediately relaxes.

"You know it always passes by, you don't have to be afraid." She hears JJ say, she pokes her head out to glimpse at the window.

Lightening strikes, she shrieks as she buries her head into Jason's shoulder.

"Just listen to my heartbeat and breathe along with it" Jason lulls out while rubbing Cheryl's shoulder. She listens closely his heartbeat is steady and calm, she breathes with him.

"Better?" He smiles down at Cheryl, "thank you JJ.. I try you know" she says in a timid voice.

"I know Cher, I know" he says while sighing, "I hear their voices in the thunder JJ" Cheryl choked out as she begins welling up.

She feels the embrace become more firm "I'll never let mom or dad hurt you Cher, not them or anyone else" Jason assuringly says and at that she frailly smiles before closing her eyes and letting sleep pilot her body.

Cheryl hugs her knees tighter trying to listen closely.. but she can't hear it.. his heartbeat, it's gone.. he's gone.. forever.. she falls asleep silently crying herself to sleep feeling her heart break into infinite pieces all over again.

-o-x-o-x-o-

Cheryl sits in her car staring at herself in her rearview mirror as she does every morning, but this time she isn't rejoiced with the reflection looking back at her.

Pink puffy eyes and pale pink lips... great.

She pops open her dashboard and grabs her signature red lipstick and applies her shield, because that's what it is isn't it?

Mumsie always said red lipstick is for the confident, the ones who demands power.

Cheryl looks at herself once more this time smiling showing her pearly whites, to onlookers she's the girl with the perfect smile but if you look close enough you'll see it's a broken smile.

-o-x-o-x-o-

Cheryl waits impatiently for her Cherry Cola to drop in the vending machine.

"Well aren't you quite the chatter box today" she hears Veronica say.

So not in the mood today..

She turns around sending Veronica a tight lipped smile, "bonjour mon ami" Cheryl says monotonously.

"Are you okay Cher?" Veronica asks as she reaches out to rub Cheryl's arm.

Cheryl recoils and bends over to grab her Cherry Cola "peachy" she states matter of factly.

Veronica watches Cheryl sympathetically.

Cheryl blinks thrice, "we're postponing vixen tryouts until further notice." With that Cheryl doesn't wait for a response she swiftly leaves through the open door from the student lounge.

Something is wrong and Veronica knows but she along with everyone else knows better than to pressure the Bombshell.

-o-x-o-x-o-

Toni's POV:

Toni sits at her table in class half listening to Sweet Pea ramble on about a party at the Whyte Wyrm, half thinking about how she didn't see the Bombshell take her usual runway walk in the corridors.

That's a bit odd..

Then there's a loud clicking noise everyone glances towards the front of the class and there she is in all of her glory. Cheryl Blossom... 15 minutes late. Cheryl Blossom is never late to class.

Something is definitely off...

She watches as Cheryl talks to Mrs. Castro, the Bombshell nods then swiftly walks over to her desk.

Toni tilts her head as she intently observes the ginger girl, "oh okay I see what's happening here" she hears Sweet Pea say.

Here we go.. Toni rolls her eyes.

"Seriously Tiny just talk to her" Sweet Pea says with a pursed look.

"I'm working on it, she's just very... complex" Toni sighs.

She hears Sweet Pea chuckle which earns him a pointed gaze by the Pinkette.

"That's the word you're going to use to describe the infamous Cheryl Blossom?" he says in a jibe tone.

Toni slaps his arm "you don't know her Pea chill, she just lost her twin brother she's going through enough"
Toni says earnestly.

Sweet Pea raises his hands in surrender "alright dude I get it, all I'm saying is if you want her you gotta go get her" he says as he nudges Toni.

She just nods with a look of determination glancing over at Cheryl, noticing the smallest falter in the Bombshell's smile and how it doesn't quite reach her eyes.

Toni frowns, she knows that smile all too well. I looked at that same smile in the mirror staring back at me for years.

Toni noticed how perfect that smile was, but she also noticed how broken it was.

Hmph I wonder what's the story behind that beautiful broken smile..

In that moment Cheryl gives Toni a side glance catching her intently gazing. Toni smiles softly, Cheryl just stares in wonderment for a moment then averts her gaze.

Well at least she didn't look at me like a homeless person... progress.

-o-x-o-x-o-

Cheryl's POV:

Cheryl sits at her usual spot at the lunch table with her vixens. She is watching Archie from across the room, she sees him smile mirthfully at Betty.

The same way JJ used to smile at me.. there's a type of brotherly pride in the smile.

Sometimes it gets to Cheryl having to see Archie especially from afar, he resembled Jason so much. She feels that lump in her throat and water stinging her eyes.

I need to go now... I can't do this.. not here.. I can't let them see me cry. Mumsie frequently reminds me that crying is for the weak and if you must, never let anyone witness that moment of weakness.

Cheryl hastily jolts up and excuses herself making a beeline for the exit, ignoring the scrutiny gazes she receives.

-o-x-o-x-o-

Toni's POV:

As Toni leans forward with her hands on her knees ready to immediately stand as she watches Cheryl basically run out of the cafeteria.

Sweet Pea notices the whole ordeal as well and shares a discerning look with Toni, "go get her" he says solemnly.

That's all it takes for Toni to jump to her feet and chase after Cheryl.

-o-x-o-x-o-

As Toni was checking the corridors she passed the ladies room and heard sniffles. She halts by the door, listening closely.

*Sniffle*

She opens the door and steps into the ladies room.

-o-x-o-x-o-

Choni's POV:

Cheryl was sitting on a toilet weeping when she heard the lavatory door open then close.

God please make them go away before they hear me, Cheryl thought.

Toni sees Cheryl's Louis Vuitton ombré red & black pumps peeking from under the stall door.

"You know.. we really should stop meeting like this" Toni drawls out.

Cheryl sighs just my luck, why her? Cheryl dreadfully thinks. The Bombshell stands and straightens herself up.

Toni watches the stall door waiting to see those perfect auburn curls and iconic red lips make an appearance.

Toni finds Cheryl's eyes staring back at her as the stall door opens, the Bombshell's eyes are red.

God she looks so broken I had no idea it was this bad Toni frowns while thinking.

"Since you're new I'll presume you don't know any better" Cheryl says aloofly as she brushes past Toni to the mirror.

"I've been here for weeks Cheryl, I don't think I still register as new" the Pinkette says while smirking.

Cheryl locks eyes with Toni through the mirror, "why are you here?" the Bombshell asks in a frail voice.

That stuns Toni.. she's never heard Cheryl's voice so vulnerable.

Suddenly the atmosphere became tense, it felt oddly doleful. Toni tries to lighten the mood "well my school got shut down so the-"

"WHY are you HERE!?" Cheryl yells interrupting Toni.

Toni slightly taken aback by the Bombshell's outburst... have I seen Cheryl rip someone a new one? Sure, but this feels different.. I can hear the pain even in her anger. Toni searches Cheryl's eyes looking for any sign that she's about to crack.

"I just want to know you Cheryl... the version you hide from everyone, I want to help you." Toni says her voice dripping of sincerity.

Help me? I think that ship has sunk and it's laying waste next to titanic.. Cheryl thinks as she rolls her eyes.

"You don't have to do that with me... pushing people away will only end up with you being lonely" Toni says compassionately.

Cheryl scoffs "what makes you think I'm not already lonely!?" Cheryl's voice cracks and she winces at the fact.

Ugh why the fuck doesn't she give up already Cheryl thinks while squinting.

Toni takes a slow small step towards the Bombshell "you don't have to be alone, ever again" She says as she grabs Cheryl's hand.

Cheryl stunned but let's her hold her hand while tears prick her eyes, "I feel the most lonely when I'm in a room full of people" the Bombshell says as one tear threatens to slip.

"It's because the person who made you feel anything isn't there in the same room anymore.." Toni says in a perceptive tone.

At that Cheryl's eyes shoot up to the Pinkette's No one understands that, how could she tell? .. Cheryl questions herself.

Toni slightly squeezes Cheryl's hand, "your brother Jason? He was your rock wasn't he?" the Pinkette gloomily states.

Cheryl smiles ruefully "he was my everything" she meekly utters.

The Bombshell glances down and realizes Toni is still holding her hand, she feels her cheeks becoming warm.

For fucks sake pull it together BITCH you were just about to have an emotional breakdown pick a mood ugh Cheryl chastises herself.

Toni noticing Cheryl's internal dialogue she releases the Bombshell's hand and rubs the back of her neck.

A look of dejection crosses Cheryl's face but quickly is replaced with her infamous smirk and there she goes.

Cheryl clears her throat.

"You know, if you wanted to get me all alone all you had to do was ask. Tone down the stalking will you?" Cheryl says in a taunting manner.

With that Cheryl brushes past Toni slightly swaying her hips knowing the Pinkette is gawking, but of course.

Toni fixated on the perfect sweet perky ass of Cheryl Blossom, Damn.

Cheryl glances over her shoulder at Toni "thank you.. maybe you serpents aren't so bad after all."

"Oh and we really should stop meeting this way Ms. Topaz" she smirks.

Cheryl then leaves the lavatory with a smile, that one reached her eyes.. the thought made Toni beam.

Wait.. Topaz? How does she-.. Cheryl Blossom did her homework on me, Toni smirks.

Oh Cherry Bombshell you're a flame I wouldn't mind getting burned by.

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A/N: well that was kind of sad .-. There was a rain storm while I was listening to "All I want" by Kodaline then BOOM this chapter was born lol hope y'all enjoyed xxx