Last week I went to the doctor and now I got the call. 'Bart?' I whispered after I came back from the call. 'Yes love?' My eyes filled with tears. 'What's the matter Will?' 'I... I have to get a surgery. For my back.' I said almost crying. 'Oh Mijn.' He said and he hugged me. 'I've to leave Wicked earlier.' I said crying. Bart pulled me closer to his and kissed me on my forehead. 'I'm so sorry for you sweetheart.' He whispered, 'But hey nice and quiet, you know.' He said and I grinned but cried even harder after. 'Hey!' I heard Savannah say. She saw me and knew something was wrong. 'What's wrong?' She asked while she came closer and put her hand on my back. I turned to her and wiped my tears away, 'I have to get a surgery for my back.' I said and she looked shock. 'What? No when?' She asked. 'Soon. I have to cut my Wicked run earlier.' She looked even more shock now. 'Oh Will!' She said and she hugged me. The tears came back and we cried together. 'Oz look at us, crying like babies.' I said and we both laughed. 'So what was the surprise?' I asked and Bart put his arm around my shoulders. 'Doesn't matter anymore. There are more important things now. Have you told anyone else already?' Sav asked and we walked to my dressing room. 'No I didn't. I just got the call and I have to talk to the manager first now. So tell nobody okay?' She promised and we said bye. Bart and I were alone. 'And now?' Bart asked. 'I have to call the manager. Quite my apartment. Pack everything to move back to home cause I want to have the surgery in Holland. Did I forget anything?' 'Yes, take a breath and relax. I will help you!' He said and he kissed me. 'Thank you.' I whispered to his lips.
So we managed to get everything done as soon as possible and we even found someone who could replace me. I really couldn't believe I had to stop playing Elphie but my back was hurting so bad every time I had to prefrom... It wasn't possible anymore. It was monday today and all my fans would get to know today that I had to quite.. How would they take it? I promised Bart that I wouldn't go on Twitter till the show had end and I was home. So I did. Sav and I had some tea before the show together. We both couldn't believe I was really leaving, within a week. But I had no choice. Last night I called my parents and my sisters. They all thought it was sad I had to go but they knew it was the right thing to do. So they made a plan to help me with my recovering and said they all were going to help me. When we were done with our tea we went to our dressing rooms to get ready. Just a few shows more to go..
I was getting the green off my face and hands. I did my hair into a ponytail and put my cap on. 'Should we go outside?' Savannah was standing in the doorway waiting for me. I took a deep breath and got up. Savannah her mother was here today to see the show and she was waiting outside. We walked through the door and there were so many fans waiting! How was I ever gonna get through this without crying? But I got through it. Even better than I thought I could. I said bye to Savannah and went home to my hubby!
I got so many messages on Twitter.. I wasn't gonna look at them, not now. So I retweeted the tweet Wicked UK tweeted earlier and went to bed with Bart. 'Are you okay?' He asked. 'Yes, I think.' I said and we turned off the lights.
When I woke up the next morning Bart already made breakfast. So sweet. I took my bathrope with me and got it on. He made eggs and tea, some fruit and vegetables. All healthy things. Just a few shows to go...
Maybe not a really strong chapter but I'm just really confused and shocked cause of Willemijn leaving Wicked so early... She deserved a more beautiful goodbye than one with a lot of pain..