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" Jon, I.. Mmm.. I love the way you do that.. I love.."
"Say it, Ky."
" I love you, babe. And you're right, it's always gonna be us. No matter what happens. I promise. I'm not gonna walk away."
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The alarm clock going crazy next to his head had him sitting up, swearing aloud as he threw his phone at a wall. Damn it, he hadn't wanted to wake from the dream, she was in his arms again, everything was alright again, he wasn't spiraling out of control yet. In his dream, he had plenty of time to stop himself from doing everything he'd done to hurt her, drive her away, and he could still taste the heat in their kisses, feel her soft curves underneath him as she screamed his name, over and over. But now, he was awake, and early at that.. He'd set his alarm so maybe he could catch Kylie awake and Seth asleep so they could go somewhere and talk.
From the looks of it, the opposite was going to happen, apparently, because it was Kylie who lie sleeping in bed, Seth who sat awake sipping an energy drink and reading the sports page, while eating some kind of muffin or something.
Seth glared at Dean and then looked at his still sleeping younger sister then said calmly, "Why set it so early?"
Dean shrugged and glaring at his friend, he rolled his shoulders, popping them. Sleeping on the couch hadn't been his ideal bed, but he knew that Seth was lying there in the dark, waiting on him to get up, make a move to go towards the bed, so he could turn on the lights, and probably fight him again. They'd had a fight after Kylie stormed out the night before, and they were both sporting the black eyes, the busted lips and noses today as a result.
"Because, reasons, that's why. What's it to ya?" Dean asked frostily as he stood, pulled on some old gym shorts, stretched and pulled a t shirt down over his head. "Goin for a jog."
"Good. The farther you stay away from her, the better off you're gonna be, man." Seth replied calmly as he gave his friend a warning glare.
In the bed, Kylie stirred a little, pillow going over her head to block out the talking and the lights, as her long bare leg kicked out from beneath the cover and she muttered something in her sleep, her hands going up in front of her face beneath the pillow as if to shield herself from being hit in the face.
Dean felt his stomach turning at the sight and he almost reached over, tapped her to wake her, but Seth growled and said stiffly, "It's probably best you go for that jog now, got it?"
He growled to himself and set off for the track in the park across the street. "Now how the fuck am I supposed to fix shit if big brother's not even gonna let me breathe on her?" he wondered to himself only to have Kaitlyn speak up from behind him, "Maybe you shoulda thought about that before you did all the things you did to her.. She won't say it, Dean, but we all know how hard it was for her to walk away from you. But you drove her to do it. And every day for her since, it's been hell. Maybe it's for the best if you leave her alone. Stick to the non committment ring rats you like so much."
"Bitch, if I wanted ya opinion, I'd ask ya for it. I didn't." Dean snarled as Kaitlyn said "She's like a sister to me, Ambrose.. Not gonna stand back, watch you rip her heart out again."
"She fucking left me, Kaitlyn."
"Because if she hadn't, you'd have destroyed her."
"Get fucking lost." Dean growled as he jogged off, angrily. He happened to look across the street, see Kylie walking, limping rather, down the hotel stairs, dressed as if she were intending on leaving. He didn't think, he just ran.
A few seconds later found him standing beside her rental car, and he knocked on the window.
Kylie groaned as she looked up, saw Colby watching grimly from the window of the hotel room they'd all used the night before, right as Jon knocked on her window.
She cracked it and said quietly, "I'll let you talk, but I'm done. Go to the park, I'll be over there in a just a minute." as she backed up, drove off.
Dean stared after the car, then his brain kicked into high gear as he mentally reminded himself why this wasn't going to work out, why he should just leave her be. But the magnetism and the passion, all the other feelings he felt for her, they overruled the workings of his common sense, and of course, as soon as Seth shut the window, smirking in smug contented happiness that baby sister had just done as she'd been told, supposedly, he looked around, then assuming the coast was clear, he jogged over to the park, to a more secluded area.
Kylie got out of her car and leaned against it, keys in hand, eyeing him warily. Before he got any closer, she said calmly, "Just know this, Jon.. I have mace, if you try anything with me, you won't like what happens."
He threw up his hands, stayed as far away from her as he could resist. Then looking at the ground, he said quietly, "I never got over it, ya know? We coulda..."
"You fucked it up, babe.. Not me. That was all you, Jon." Kylie reminded him as she bit her lower lip and then said quietly, "But sadly, even though it's fucked up and I shouldn't, I still love you.. Despite everything my brother tells me, the girls.. I still love you, I still want you.. I'm standing here right now, disgusted with myself because on the one hand, I'm afraid of the day you snap again and use that to hurt me, and wanting to run over there, jump in your arms and see if the spark's still there. But I'm not just thinking about me anymore, Jon.."
"What do ya mean?"
"Found out this morning I'm pregnant with my bastard ex's kid. Just a guess here, that pretty much ended your fascination with me, with fixing this, didn't it?"
Dean thought it over a moment and then said quietly, "I dunno, Ky. Why don't ya be brave, walk over here, find out."
"Because I'm not stupid, Jon. I know every reason why this won't work."
"Yeah? Well, how the hell ya really gonna know if ya don't give us another chance, Ky?"
"Because, Jon, I've spent the past few years living in the same situation I left you to avoid living in. I'm just tired, Jon. Tired of being lied to, made an idiot of, having my feelings used against me, being abused and abandoned. And I know you won't change."
He stared at her, moved a little closer. "Ya know it's not over. It's not gonna be over. It can't. I'm not gonna let it." he said as his hand slid slowly over her cheek, he leaned in a little closer, migrated her body against his, groaning as the feel of her soft curves left him wanting to do so very much more.
"It has to be, Jon. This shit isn't healthy. But damn it, I don't wanna let it be over either. Even though you're probably the most toxic person I could be involved with right now.." her words fell away as she groaned, tilted her head back a little to look up at him.
He took advantage of this, his lips wandering slowly in a very familiar way down her neck. "I missed doin that." he muttered with a smirk as she gasped a little when his teeth closed down on the sensitive spot between her neck and shoulders.
"Jon, don't..." she tried to resist as he muttered, "Too late." before his lips found hers, their tongues dancing as he nibbled her full lower lip, his hands slid slowly all over her smaller body.
She gave him a firm push back as she tried one more time to just walk away, this was a little too much like opening Pandora's box for her liking, really, but he shook his head, grabbed her, sitting her on the hood of the car as he continued to kiss her all over.
The ringing of her cell phone stopped things from getting too far out of hand and he growled as she answered it, walked a safe enough distance away from him to talk to her brother quietly. She walked back over and looked at him as she said quietly, "That should not have happened.. I... I need to go... Now."
He tried to grab her hand to keep her there, but she shook her head, pried her wrist loose, and got into her car, leaving abruptly.
If all that just happened in the space of ten minutes, then how in the hell was she going to resist him for the better part of 2 or three weeks while they were all together or nearby in Florida.
She bit her lip as she sat in her car, composed herself, stared up at the hospital's entrance.. If this test came back positive, if she was really pregnant, not just some false positive on the home EPT, then everything was changed.. But he'd known she might be, in the park, and he still tried his damndest to make her stay, to make her listen to him, to suck her back in again...
What if they tried things again and this time, they worked out?
She grumbled as she got out, locked her car and walked in the entrance on shaky legs.