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Chapter 2: Party
Bella was mine, the angel loved the demon. Though I still felt apprehensive about all that had happened to us. I had almost lost her to James. She almost died because of me, and what I am. She would always be the fragile human Bella, I would not change that. There for she would always be in harms way. Whether it be on her own, or not. It kept eating away at me every time I saw that crescent moon on her hand. It filled me with rage every time I looked into Bella's big brown eyes and realize I almost lost her. The rage wasn't fully directed at James, but also at myself. I had been the one to put her in that danger; had I had more self control I would have been able to leave Bella alone. Now all I could do was protect her and hope nothing else happened. Bella was a danger magnet so I knew it was just a matter of time before the next bad thing happened. I promised myself that if it had anything to do with me then I would find the strength to leave her.
But could I leave her? Could I leave my angel. Live with out her? I could disappear yes, live with out her no. but I hoped I would be able to exist with the knowledge that at least she was alive and safe.
I watched as the clock ticked slowly by. Boredom was inevitable when you had been through the same class' over and over again, and already knew more than the teachers.
This school year was different from any other I'd experienced though.
Purgatory wasn't nearly so bad when an angel escorted you through it. We shared most of our classes, and though the material was a complete waste, learning about Bella was the education I most desired. In classroom situations her reactions were slightly more normal, more predictable, but she still surprised me with her knowledge and unique point of view. She never reacted the way I'd expect her to. She never did anything the easy way, or the way I thought she would. She was like one big surprise after another, and I loved every second of it.
Every day brought a new insight into her being, and for once I actually enjoyed school.
The bell rang as I escorted Bella from the classroom, out toward her ancient truck.
The school day went by rather quickly, it always did, with Bella by my side.
I sighed, knowing the rest of the afternoon would be spent fending off her attempts to avoid her party, not the most appealing of tasks.
I hoped that Alice's vision was still the same and that Bella would agree to attending. Willingly.
Seven o'clock, Edward, don't forget. Alice's thoughts whizzed past me as she sped out of the school parking lot in my car. Like I could forget.
Perfect memory, another curse for the vampire. I had always thought of myself as cursed. Nothing worth well anything. Eternal damnation. Not meant for heaven and to vicious for hell. Curse was all I ever felt. Not any more. Bella had changed everything about me, the way I saw things. The way I thought and the way I felt about things. It was amazing how much just one person can change you.
The resistance started when we reached Bella's truck and I opened the passenger door, as I did every day.
"It's my birthday, don't I get to drive?" Bella demanded.
"I'm pretending it's not your birthday, just as you wished." I grinned.
"If it's not my birthday, then I don't have to go to your house tonight…" And Alice would rip me to pieces. Probably burn them also. I laughed in my head.
"All right." I'd rather stand Bella's slow driving than Alice's wrath, so I went around and opened the driver's door instead. "Happy Birthday."
Her face twisted in what appeared to be pain. "Shh," she hissed weakly before getting in.
I watched as she pulled out of her parking spot and we were on our way.
Time to fulfill the role I had to play for Emmett's benefit. I fiddled with her ancient radio, not surprised that static was the most I could get out of it. I shook my head, selling my dissatisfaction.
"Your radio has horrible reception." When I noted the horrible stereo, Bella bit my head off.
"You want a nice stereo? Drive your own car." Her words were so rarely sharp with me that I was caught off guard and nearly laughed aloud. Such ferocity from such a gentle creature. The thought almost made me laugh out loud. It was funny, she could be such a spunky one, but yet she was so fragile. And always stubborn.
I didn't want her in an angry mood.
I turned and put my hands around her face, pulling her slightly closer to me. Her scent hit me like a semi truck. Making my throat feel as if it were on fire. The sensation that used to be pain merely faded to pleasure. The memory of it all, her scent, her skin, her touch, her pink plump lips. Her tongue caressing mine, all fueled the fire that now engulfed my entire being. Tempting me on a daily basis.
I leaned in closer to her.
"You should be in a good mood, today of all days," I said softly, purposely letting my breath waft toward her. The effect was immediate, and Bella's pulse jumped.
"And if I don't want to be in a good mood?" she asked weakly. A smile grew on my lips as I devoured her with my eyes. Her eyes grew wide, and though I was trying to dazzle her, I was the one who stopped breathing. Even though I never needed to, it was still a shock every time she dazzled me. Me a vampire being dazzled by a human. The thought was amusing.
"Too bad," I whispered. Slowly I bent down and gently pressed my lips to hers.
She was always so warm. Her lips, the warmth was an extra sensation.
The monster roared loudly in me, but it wasn't the monster that I was most afraid of. It was a different kind. One that desired Bella, and not in the food sense. I wanted her, more than anything I wanted her entire being. Excitement, like an electric pulse went through me. My breathing finally started again.
The desire her kiss, had barley registered to me, before she wove her hands around my neck. Pulling me closer and closer to her. She inhaled deeply catching her breath. Her mouth began to move simultaneously with mine, she slowly traced my lip with her tongue, begging for entrance into my mouth. Her scent got stronger as she pressed her self tight against me. I smiled, it still stunned me that I could get such a reaction from her.
She continued to tempt me.
Pulling me more forceful against her.
I imagined the passion the spark that I would feel if I only gave into her cravings. Gave her the entrance she desired. Almost needed.
She had no idea how hard it was to resist, say no to not only her desires, but mine also. She had no idea how it felt, how much it killed having to stop. But I knew if it got to far, to pleasurable I would loose it, make a mistake, and she would get hurt or worse.
She trusted my control. She trusted me. Trusted that I wouldn't do anything to hurt her. And of course I wouldn't, not intentionally. But all I had to do was stop concentrating on killing her for just one second, and her life would be extinguished. She trusted my control, and tested it often.
She tested it, not knowing the fire she fueled within me that I'd thought had long since been extinguished. I'd always considered humans weak, shallow creatures compared to vampires, but the human feelings Bella made me feel, that she had awakened in me were stronger than anything I'd ever encountered. Stronger even than the most powerful vampire sensation thirst.
She called to me in that way, more than her blood did. And she didn't even know it. I wondered if she knew, if she wouldn't try to test my self control.
She gently traced my lip again with her tongue. The spark ignited, fueling the fire. Making me desire her more. She was to powerful, she should not have this much hold on me.
It saddened me, how I wanted to return her passion, her desire. Not only tell her how much I loved her, but show her. Show her exactly how much she meant to me, how she made me feel. But it was impossible. She was fragile, breakable, she was human. I couldn't allow my self to even the slightest lapse in judgment. I would loose my control, and injure her, kill her, or worse, poison her,
I slowly and gently pulled away. Pulling her hands from my body slowly with ease. I felt her pulse thumping like a humming bird in my hands.
. "Be good, please," I sighed. She sat perfectly still, and I kissed her gently. I let her go and she put her hands on her chest.
"Do you think I'll ever get better at this?" she said, not looking at me. "That my heart might someday stop trying to jump out of my chest whenever you touch me?"
"I really hope not," I snickered. Her heart was not only the core of her humanity, it was also one of the few windows I had into her thoughts. The way her pulse reacted to my closeness, my touch, even my words was something to be protected almost as much as her life.
"Let's go watch the Capulets and Montague's hack each other up, all right?"
"Your wish, my command."
Once inside, I settled on the old couch in front of the TV, savoring the lingering taste of her kiss. She started the tape, and I pulled her against me gently, breathless as she settled her soft, warm back against my chest.
As I covered her with a blanket off the couch, my curiosity got the best of me. "You know, I've never had much patience with Romeo." I'd seen Romeo and Juliet performed in every conceivable way and in more languages than I could count. I couldn't help but wonder why she loved it so.
"What's wrong with Romeo?" she said, clearly distressed.
Romeo was so impulsive, so thoughtless in his dealings, and I was unable to relate to him at all. Bella seemed to take offense at my criticism. How I wished for oh the millionth time that I could read her mind.
"Well, first of all, he's in love with this Rosaline don't you think it makes him seem a little fickle? And then, a few minutes after their wedding, he kills Juliet's cousin. That's not very brilliant." Surely she could see Romeo's copious flaws. "Mistake after mistake. Could he have destroyed his happiness any more thoroughly?"
The opening previews ended "Do you want me to watch this alone?"
"No, I'll mostly be watching you, anyway." The delicate softness of her arm became the center of my attention. Goosebumps rose on her creamy skin at my touch, and I cursed my frigid body temperature. "Will you cry?" I asked, remembering the sweet flavor of her tears.
"Probably, if I'm paying attention," she said, her eyes on the screen.
"Then I won't distract you." I gently ran my finger tips up and down her arm, and turned my attention to the story on the TV. Romeo confessed his adoration of Juliet, I found myself finding new meaning in his words, and began reciting them along with the actor.
Bella shivered in my arms as I whispered in her ear, softly echoing the words coming from the television.
I continued to speak Romeo's lines, with every word Bella snuggled against closer and closer.
Finally we reached the pivotal moment, when Juliet finds her love, dead. Bella didn't speak Juliet's lines aloud, but her lips moved synchronously with those of the actress.
As Juliet kissed Romeo, hoping to die with him, the tears streamed down Bella's cheeks. My lips found her hair, needing to ease her sadness, even if it was imagined. Her crying did not relent, and I tried a different distraction.
"I'll admit, I do sort of envy him here," I said, remembering Romeo tip the poison into his mouth and succumbing in seconds. My mouth was always full of poison, and yet I sat unaffected. Gently I brushed her tears away with a lock of her chestnut hair.
"She's very pretty." Bella said in a sour tone.
I nearly choked at her words. She thought I found this actress appealing when I had perfection in my arms? I scowled. "I don't envy him the girl, just the ease of the suicide." I continued to tease her. Without thinking I continued. "You humans have it so easy! All you have to do is throw down one tiny vial of plant extracts…"
"What?" Bella exclaimed, with a gasp.
She honestly didn't realize or understand the depth of my love for her. How my life was inexcusably and undoubtedly connected to hers. I could only exist of she existed. If she lived then I would still walk this earth, but once she was gone, I would find away to end my so called life.
"It's something I had to think about once, and I knew from Carlisle's experience that it wouldn't be simple. I'm not even sure how many ways Carlisle tried to kill himself in the beginning… after he realized what he'd become…" I paused.
In my head I ticked off Carlisle's failed suicide attempts. Starvation, throwing himself off cliffs, biting himself, drowning… it was a very long list and yet Carlisle was still in perfect health. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Bella shaking her head, trying to grasp what I meant.
Maybe I could also sway her away from her desire to become immortal if she realized how inescapable our curse was.
As I gazed at her profile, I could see the distressed look on her face, and I softened my tone. "And he's clearly still in excellent health." It'd been wrong for me to disclose my plans, I could see that now.
She wiggled in my arms, finding my eyes with her own. "What are you talking about? What do you mean, this was something you had to think about once?" Anger colored her words.
"Last spring, when you were nearly… killed…" My mind returned to the moment I saw her, lying broken in a pool of her own blood. A lump appeared in my throat, preventing speech for a split second. I kept my self from letting the growl escape from my throat. I held it in. "Of course I was trying to focus on finding you alive, but part of my mind was making contingency plans." I remembered that terrible race through Phoenix, the torture of not knowing if she still lived, and how I'd realized that my life would end when hers did. "Like I said, it's not as easy for me as it is for a human."
I could see the memories pass through Bella's face as clearly as if I could read her mind, and I ached for bringing such pain back to her. Unthinking, she touched the scar James left on her palm. I watched her expression changed from fear, to pain, and back to anger as she considered my words. "Contingency plans?" she repeated flatly.
"Well, I wasn't going to live without you," I said, frustrated that I had to spell it out so bluntly. She should understand this easily. Surely that was obvious to her. I'd told her I loved her so many times.
"But I wasn't sure how to do it…I knew Emmett and Jasper would never help…so I was thinking maybe I would go to Italy and do something to provoke the Volturi." I sighed.
The Volturi had more than enough power to quickly end my existence. Carlisle had seen their dominance firsthand centuries ago, and since then their strength had only grown. I would be but an annoyance, extinguished as easily as a candle. I would have exposed the one thing the protect, our secret.
Bella broke my reverie loudly. "What is a Volturi?" she nearly screamed.
"The Volturi are a family." Coven is more descriptive they had no emotional ties as our family did but family was a description she could relate to. "A very old, powerful family of our kind. They are the closest thing our world has to a royal family, I suppose. Carlisle lived with them briefly in his early years, in Italy, before he settled in America—do you remember the story?" I told her, explained, and carefully editing details about them that I'm sure would shock or horrify her. Like Jane's power for example.
"Of course I remember," she snapped. Her eyes drifted to my shoulder, no doubt reviewing the lesson I gave her in Carlisle's office.
"Anyway, you don't irritate the Volturi. Not unless you want to die or whatever it is we do." Death was not the correct term, but again, it would suffice for her.
Her gaze returned to mine, and her expression of anger transmuted to terror. She cradled my face in her hands as she spoke, obviously in earnest that I hear her.
"You must never, never, never think of anything like that again!" she stated. So caring.
"I'll never put you in danger again, so it's a moot point." This promise I made to her, and to myself.
"Put me in danger! I thought we'd established that all the bad luck is my fault? How dare you even think like that?" Her voice grew with anger
Of course I'd put her in danger. The day I gave up trying to stay away from her.
Her being a danger magnet may have made my decision easier, but It was still my decision. I've known since day one that the right thing to do was for me to leave her alone, leaver her live a human life. But I couldn't, I wasn't strong enough to leave her. I longed for her to much.
She needed my protection after all being a danger magnet.
I hoped she could see it from my perspective.
"What would you do, if the situation were reversed?"
"That's not the same thing," she replied quickly. I waited. "What if something did happen to you? Would you want me to go off myself?"
In a rush, the image of Romeo's lifeless body was replaced by my own, and Bella sobbed over me. This was a scenario I hadn't considered.
I watched the scene unfold in my mind, Bella 'offing' herself as she so casually put it. Because I was dead. She would die some day regardless, she was human after all.
I wouldn't condemn her to the hell of an eternity alone.
I could see it from her point of view though. Living longer than me, as if it was possible.
"I guess I see your point…a little. But what would I do without you?" In my mind, Romeo now leaned over his dead Juliet, matching the way I'd knelt over Bella's bloody body in Arizona. I held my breath, just as I had then, the burn incinerating not only my throat but everything inside my chest as well.
"Whatever you were doing before I came along and complicated your existence," she said as if it were obvious.
I sighed, knowing with certainty that she couldn't understand how it was her life, her love, that was the only purpose for my existence.
Before I was just searching for her, once she was gone there would be nothing to find.
For almost ninety years I walked among my kind, and hers. All the time thinking I was complete in myself, not realizing what I was seeking. And not finding anything because she wasn't alive yet.
She didn't understand the depth of my love for her.
"You make it sound so easy," I said, She couldn't understand.
"It should be. I'm not really that interesting."
She was so stubborn…still, after all this time, unable to accept how desirable she was to everyone, but so much more to me. How that desire had absolutely nothing to do with how she smelled or tasted like it should.
"Moot point." I would discuss this no further. I would not ruin her day with an argument.
I heard Charlie's thoughts as he was on his way home, I gently shifted Bella, so we made no contact. Bella was so used to this, she didn't nead an explanation she knew. .
"Charlie?" she asked, and I smiled, glad for the change in topic.
She grabbed my hand as Charlie entered the house.
After dining, and after saving Bella's camera from a disastrous rendezvous with the floor, she and I left for my house and the promised birthday celebration. I drove this time, without any argument from Bella, thankfully.
We drove slowly toward my house, in the twilight. At speeds that irritated me, but I didn't let on. I finally got annoyed and pressed the gas a little more firmly.
"Take it easy," Bella said. She was so protective of this piece of junk. I couldn't stop myself.
"You know what you would love? A nice little Audi coupe. Very quiet, lots of power…"
"There's nothing wrong with my truck." She said, jutting her chin in my direction. I smiled, like a puppy that tried to be a guard dog, she tried to be tough.
"And speaking of expensive nonessentials, if you know what's good for you, you didn't spend any money on my birthday presents."
As much as I'd wanted to buy her something big, like the Audi, I had granted her wish and resisted that temptation. "Not a dime," I said proudly.
"Good."
I rolled my eyes as I turned onto the driveway. I wondered how easy this would be, would she let us celebrate her birthday.
"Can you do me a favor?"
"That depends on what it is," she said questionably
I turned toward her, hoping she wouldn't fight me to much.
"Bella, the last real birthday any of us had was Emmett in 1935. Cut us a little slack, and don't be too difficult tonight. They're all very excited." Well, nearly all…
Bella's expression relaxed into surprise. What did she expect?
"fine, I'll behave"
"I should probably warn you…" I said softly
"Please do."
"When I say they're all excited. I do mean all of them."
In this instance, Bella's reaction was exactly as I expected. Her face contorted with fear as she spoke. "Everyone?" Her voice broke on the word, and it was clear that she was thinking about facing Rose
"Emmett wanted to be here."
"But… Rosalie?"
"I know, Bella. Don't worry, she'll be on her best behavior." if she hadn't she would surely regret it. I threatened in my head.
My family heard us coming.
Alice showed me her latest vision of me walking Bella willingly and with out force into the house. How we got from here to here I didn't know.
"So, if you won't let me get you the Audi, isn't there anything that you'd like for your birthday?" As soon as the question left my lips, I regretted it. Always the argument at hand. I couldn't avoid it, I always slipped somehow or another.
"You know what I want," she replied quietly, and her words were like a knife in my heart.
Her birthday was the point that she over took me, she become older. Marking the count down of time for her, close rand closer till she had none. And ceasing of time for me.
All summer that's all she asked, begged form pleading and demanding that I do to her what had been don't to us. Take her soul, make her immortal, a vampire. Her response was simple, she wanted to be with me forever, a human life just wasn't long enough for her. She ignored all the horrible aspects of my existence. She wouldn't hear it. The ravaging thirst, the boredom, stuck in the same place, the same age forever, and lets not mention eternal damnation. Hell she wanted it. It was like a picnic for her. She isnsted that our love would make up for all of it. The pain she would feel at first, she would over come it, to be with me.
She didn't belong in hell, and I wasn't about to send her there.
There was no reasoning with her though. And I was so fed up and tired with this argument.
"Not tonight, Bella. Please."
"Well, maybe Alice will give me what I want," she spat.
Her words hit me like daggers. An angry growl escaped me. Alice would never consider it. Would she? I would have a talk with Alice about the issue at hand, and Carlisle as well. If anyone would have a soft spot and see Bella's reasoning it would be them.
"This isn't going to be your last birthday, Bella."
"That's not fair!" she sounded childish.
My teeth slammed together, preventing an equally childish retort.
I tried to think of other things for a second, calm my frustration.
As we approached the house, I focused on the others' thoughts as they waited for us to arrive.
My family was happy, all of them except Rose. That just added to my frustration. She could be so irritating her hatred for Bella just growing, having to be here because of Emmett. Participating in today's event. She was annoyed. She thought it was stupid, ridiculous.
Jasper however fought with the conflict of emotion that was coming from everyone. Wishing just like every other day that did not have that ability. Wishing to be rid of the gift, that was his daily curse.
"Nooooo," Bella moaned when she saw the over-decorated steps.
Alice had gone too far, as usual, and now Bella was even more upset.
I wanted to calm her down. My only hope of getting her into the house would be to dazzle her as she so flatly put it. I loved it.
I took a deep breath, preparing myself to sway her.
"This is a party. Try to be a good sport," I said.
"Sure," she mumbled, and I sped around and opened her door.
As she took my hand, the familiar crease appeared between her eyebrows. "I have a question," she said.
I braced myself for her inquisition, but said nothing.
"If I develop this film, will you show up in the picture?"
I was surprised. As usual Bella came up with something completely unexpected. Always never what I expect.
It was a stupid myth. If she hasn't realized by now that all myths were just that, myths. I didn't know what would convince her.
To think I would be invisible on film or hell a mirror for that matter was just hilarious. I burst out laughing. I chuckled trying to control myself.
I heard low laughs arouse from in the house as well.
I had calmed myself and then walked Bella up the steps and through the door where she was greeted by a loud "Happy Birthday!"
As I kissed the top of her head I added my own silent wish. Happy birthday, Bella, my love. May you have many more. I could only hope.
Bella's scent whooshed through the room as I shut the door, I caught the thoughts of everyone.
I immediately looked to Jasper. He held the banister tightly I was surprised it didn't splinter in his hands. He didn't just have his thirst he had the thirst of six other vampires in the room. There reaction to Bella's scent was that of a normal vampire. Thirst, uncontrollable hunger. But they all held there control. My eyes still didn't leave Jasper. He was the newest of the family to the vegetarian world. He looked over to me, and shook his head.
' heard his thoughts. I'm fine, just the first, its just difficult. I'm fine.' I could tell he was annoyed as he caught looks from the rest of the family.
His eyes opened wider, showing his amber eyes held no sign of thirst.
I was still worried.
I heard Alice tell me to give him a break, she reassured me that it would be fine.
Yeah for now I thought.
She showed me the laughs and fun it would be when Bella opened her gifts.
My mother Esme came and wrapped her arms around Bella. And kissed her head, as if she was one of us.
"Sorry about this," Carlisle whispered loudly to Bella. Touching Bella was not nearly the challenge for Carlisle that it had been for Esme, and he squeezed her shoulders affectionately. "We couldn't rein in Alice."
Rosalie and Emmett stepped up next, and my sister managed to keep her expression casual. Emmett however was beaming. Happy.
"You haven't changed at all," he said, teasing. "I expected a perceptible difference, but here you are, red-faced just like always."
She hadn't grown, but had become more confident around my family, standing taller, though she did waver momentarily before my mountain of a brother. He towered over her, resisting the urge to pat her on the head like a pet.
Bella blushed "Thanks a lot, Emmett."
He laughed, "I have to step out for a second. Don't do anything funny while I'm gone." He chuckled silently as he exited out the front door.
"I'll try," Bella said, rolling her eyes.
She glanced across the room at Jasper, and when he didn't follow Alice to her side, she smiled at him carefully.
"Time to open presents," Alice announced, leading Bella to a long table set up next to my piano. An enormous over done cake was in the center of the table. Over done, entirely to much for the only person who was going to be eating it. It was over done just like the room, pink sheets, and pink roses all over.
"Alice I know I told you I didn't want anything"
"But I didn't listen," Alice interrupted, glowing as she too saw the tiniest glint of excitement in Bella's eyes. "Open it," she handed Bella the present.
She took the box gently and carefully. A normal person would have snatched it up and ripped the paper off quickly to discover the present. She however was all to careful, slow even.
She finally got it open and realized the box was empty I held back a smile.
"Um… thanks?" Bella said, not as a statement but as a question.
Jasper laughed the loudest, covering my chuckle. "It's a stereo for your truck. Emmett's installing it right now so that you can't return it."
Bella sighed at Alice, but then smiled warmly. "Thanks, Jasper, Rosalie," then looked at me. She pursed her lips, still smiling, easily conveying her recognition of my insulting her truck earlier. She didn't look mad or upset. She was happy. I smiled at her. Glad she was having a good time at least. I told her this wasn't a horrible day.
"Thanks, Emmett," Bella called slightly louder, his booming laughter entered the room covering up her own.
She truly is wonderful, Edward, Carlisle thought, recognizing that Bella had already accepted that Emmett could hear her without yelling.
"Open mine and Edward's next," Alice nearly squeaked. I tried to see the image of her opening her persent, her reaction. But it wasn't there, it was clouded.
She turned to glare at me with a hard look on her face. "You promised," she said darkly.
"Just in time!" he bellowed. I hoped that would be the end of it, but she was stubborn, and still held a hard glare at me.
"I didn't spend a dime," I swore, raising my hand. She'd been fine with the radio—was it only presents from me that disturbed her?
A lock of hair strayed across Bella's face, ever so slightly hiding her eyes from me, and I reached out and tucked it behind her ear gently. Bella's heart skipped a beat, as it always did. I noticed Esme look at Carlisle.
'He's so gentle with her… it's lovely, Edward. I'm so happy!'
Bella took a deep breath. "Give it to me,"
She forcefully put her finger under the wrapping paper and went to rip. Before she could even tear the paper, she sliced her finger with the edge of the paper.
I was horrified as a single drop of her blood appeared on her finger.
After that time seemed to stand still crawl ever so slightly forward. Just the sight of it caused the wrong monster to roar in me.
My vision blurred for a split second as the scent became a flavor, an overwhelming, ecstatic taste, recalling the last time her blood had crossed my lips. I shoved that monster back in its cage, forbidding it to escape.
"Shoot," Bella said her voice broke me out of my fantasy.
I stopped breathing, to help keep the hold on my self control. The thoughts all around the room were overwhelming. They all tried to keep there composure. Keep there monsters at bay as well. There thirst was nothing like mine. Bella's blood sang to me, but I couldn't hurt her, I wouldn't hurt her.
And then my worse fears were put into affect. As I saw what Alice did, Jasper diving for Bella, my Bella. And then his mouth met her throat. In the next second out of the vision and back into reality Jasper crouched for the dive. Ready to leap. I reacted out of instinct.
With my last breath of air I held in my lungs I shouted "NO!"
I moved to quickly for even me to realize. I knew he would be to fast, my only option was to shove Bella out of the way and take the blow.
I became a wall between her and Jasper.
His body crashed into mine, his mind was completely filled with bloodlust, but with out a leash to restrain it. There was no restraining him. My arms locked around his, and with a burning desire to save Bella, equal to his desire to kill her. I held him at bay.
'Get out of my way.' his mind growled at me.
His entire being was no longer controlled by him, but by the blood lust. He was not the Jasper we all knew, he was a ravenous blood thirsty vampire. He snapped at me. As I tightened my hold on him I heard a loud crash echo through the room.
He fought harder against me.
He struggled against me, trying to break free as he saw the heap that was Bella. Lying on a pile of shattered glass. Her arm covered with blood, as shards stuck out. I saw it all through his eyes, the need to grab her and drain her. Her blood was surrounding the air around us now. Jasper could almost taste it as the scent hit him harder.
I tried to hold back a growl, but it escaped me. The monster not only was thirsty, but possessive. She was mine. I shook the monster back.
A deep, animalistic snarl ripped out of his chest, his teeth flashing as he repeatedly lunged against me toward her.
He couldn't control his thoughts, they were a shamble of incoherent thoughts, he was only the blood lust now. Frenzied by the scent. His razor sharp teeth snapping an inch from my face; his eyes and his thoughts past reasoning.
I saw my chance to save Bella, attack his throat, and end the threat.
'EDWARD DON'T!' I heard Alice scream her thoughts at me.
I saw Emmett out of the corner of my eye, coming closer. I angled Jasper in front of Emmett trying to keep all the monsters at bay. I searched for more attackers there minds were all frozen in horror.
Emmett grabbed Jasper, pulling him free of my hold. And holding him himself. Pulling him back slightly.
Then I felt it. The familiar sensation crept into my throat. The smell of Bella's blood overwhelmed me, sending me into a hazy cloud of bliss. I whipped around to see Bella lying helplessly in a pool of her own blood; jagged pieces of crystal covered the floor.
I not only battled Jasper but I battled myself. The venom poured in my mouth as I fought the urge to turn on her myself.
I saw Bella through Alice's view. And then I had realized why she lay crumpled on the floor bleeding in a pile of glass. It was not because Jasper. I had carelessly and thoughtlessly threw her into the table.
Dear god what have I done?
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