A/N; Just let me start with wow! 23 reviews on the first chapter, that is just amazing for me. I am so happy you seem to like it so far and I hope you will all stick around.

Just a quick note. The short lyrics at the end of this chapter is from the song I got the name of the story from. Its called Never let you go and is sung by Dima Bilan. I plan on putting a small bit of it in ever chapter… But obviously I don't own it, so don't sue because that would just dig a deeper whole in my already empty pockets.

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2. Heavy clouds

Addison led the way out of Derek's office and before she could even let him out Lily had jumped off her chair and threw her arms around her legs, stopping her.

"Hey" she said with a smile and loosened the girl's grip on her.

"Are we going home now?" Lily asked. "I don't like it here."

"Just a little stop on the way" Addison promised and picked her up, resting the child on her hip. "We just need to see one patient and then we'll go home and see daddy, okay?"

"Okay" Lily sighed very dramatically and rested her head on her mommy's shoulder, only just then spotting Derek. "Hi" she waved at him.

"Well hi there" Derek said and placed a hand underneath her chin, tickling her until she started to giggle. "And what's your name sweetie?"

"Lily" the girl said with a smile. "What's yours?"

"Derek" he said.

"Could we hurry?" Addison took another look at her watch. "We really need to get going" a small hope of Ben being late was still living in her.

"Sure" Derek led the way out into the corridor and stopped by the elevator.

"Oh…Derek" Addison started but was soon cut off by Lily.

"I don't do elevators" the four year old stated firmly.

Derek turned around and looked at them. "Then how did you come up here?"

"The stairs" Addison said. "And yes I know just how many it is" she added with a small laugh. "She just has some trouble with elevators, doors; just about anything she can get stuck in. So if we could by any chance…"

"Are you sure she won't…?" he started but was interrupted by Lily as she slipped out of her mommy's grip to the floor.

"For a doctor you not very smart" she stated and placed her feet wide apart in front of him.

"Derek…you don't want this" Addison said as she hurried to her daughter's side. "Lily honey, we'll take the stairs, okay?"

Lily looked from her mommy to the man she had just met, deciding if she should go through with her plan or give in. She focused her eyes on Derek – deciding on the first alternative. She opened her mouth and started to scream for all that she was worth.

Addison jumped forward, covering Lily's mouth with her hand and lifting her up again. Lily soon took the drift and quieted down to a soft cry and Addison looked at Derek.

"Can we please take the stairs?"

"Sure" Derek let his hand slide through his hair as he let out a small breath. He was clearly not looking forward to the stairs. But he did lead the way to the doors beside the elevator and opened it up.

Addison let Lily back down on the floor but took her hand and they started to walk down the many stairs.

"You know maybe you should consider doing something about that problem" Derek suggested after two floors and he finally opened the door back into the hospital.

"I am" Addison replied. "Believe it or not that was good. Usually she screams forever and don't give in like that."

"Well that's good" Derek couldn't help but laugh slightly at the thought. He led the way down the corridor and stopped outside. "Okay so here we are."

"Good" Addison led Lily over to a chair by the nurses' station. She smiled the nurse who was sitting there doing some paper work. "Would you mind just keeping an eye on her for a minute or two?"

"Sure no problem" she said and Addison went back to Derek and walked in to her first case back in Seattle…

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When they a little while later came back out Addison spotted Lily sitting on the desk at the nurses' station with an all too big stethoscope around her neck and in her ears. The end of it was pressed against the chest of a man dressed in a long white doctors robe.

"Lily don't mess with the doctors" Addison said and prepared an excusing smile but the smile froze as she saw who it was. "Karev hi."

"Dr. Montgomery" he smiled and then got up from his seat. "So she's yours?" he asked and looked at Lily.

"Yes, my little trouble maker" Addison said and helped the girl down to the floor. She unwrapped the stethoscope and handed it to Alex.

"But mommy, he said I could keep it" she protested.

"She can" Alex said with a smile and handed it back to Lily. "So how about I take you guys out for a wonderful lunch in the hospital cafeteria?"

"We really need to go" Addison said. "But some other time?"

"Sure" he nodded. "It was nice seeing you again."

"You too" Addison said before she pulled Lily with her towards the stairs.

"Bye Alex" Lily waved at him with a smile before she turned her attention back at her mommy. "So how do you know him? Did you work together?"

"Yes" Addison answered. "Now we need to get home, okay?"

"Can we see him again?" Lily asked.

"Who?" Addison asked as she opened the door to the stairs and led her daughter out from the corridor.

"Alex."

"Maybe" Addison answered before she started the fast run down the stairs.

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It was already two o'clock when Addison stopped the car outside on the street. She collected her things and hurried out of the car while Lily did the same.

"You get to stay at Sarah's today, would you like that?" Addison asked but hardly waited for an answer before she took her hand and led the way towards the house to the right.

"Do I get to stay the night?" Lily asked happily. "Sarah's mum always bakes cookies with us on sleepovers."

"We'll see" Addison said and knocked on the door before she sent a look on her watch. She was an hour late already.

"Hey guys" Evelyn said with a bright smile as she opened the door.

"Hi, I am so sorry but would you mind taking Lily for the afternoon?" Addison asked and hoped she sounded nice enough. "I just have this big meeting and well you know how it is."

"Sure no problem" Evelyn said and smiled at Lily. "Sarah is upstairs so you can go on up" Lily took that and hurried into the house.

But she stopped in the hallway and turned around waving and sent her mommy a smile before she continued to the stairs.

"Thank you again" Addison smiled. "I'll be back in a little while to pick her up."

"No problem" Evelyn said.

Addison hurried down the steps and took the shortcut through the path between the bushes that separated the two houses. Then she took her own steps two at a time, opening the door with a silent wish that Ben would be late.

"You're home" she felt her whole body tense up as she heard hi voice. She lifted her eyes and spotted him in the doorway from the kitchen. His dark brown eyes hit hers and she knew…

"I…the meeting took longer then I thought. Dr. Sheppard wanted a consult" Addison said as she took off her coat and hung it up, everything to keep herself from meeting his eyes again.

"Dr. Sheppard, huh" Ben laughed. "You mean Derek."

"Yes" Addison looked up again. "He is chief now."

"Well isn't that nice" Ben spun around and walked into the kitchen. "So did you get the job?" he asked.

"Yeah" she followed him into the kitchen and leaned against the wall, watching him cleaning out the bowl she had forgotten that morning. "I start on Monday."

"Good" Ben nodded. "So I see you didn't do the dishes" he added and placed the bowl to dry beside the sink before he turned around to look at her.

"Lily did pancakes…or something like it" she smiled weakly. "I didn't have time to fix it."

"It's not the first time" he stated.

"I know" she didn't bother telling him just how much she had cleaned. That the floor was now clean, that the cabinets were no longer covered in flour. "I just had to get in time to work."

"To see Derek" Ben said, his voice turning slightly colder. "So how was it to see you ex husband?"

"Good" she said, only then realizing how wrong that was as his eyes tinkered with black. "He's married now, you know that."

"So are you" he moved the short steps up to her until she was pressed up against the wall and he stood only an inch away. "You're not forgetting that, right?"

"No" she shook her head, trying desperately to keep the tears from breaking out. "You were the on who said I should get a job again."

"Yes but I didn't say you could go dressed like that…" he let his eyes go down over her body, eying the skirt and white dress shirt. "And I didn't tell you to not only take my daughter with you but to see…him" he practically spit the last word out before his hand landed on her cheek. "Now did I?" he asked.

"No" she shook her head, now not managing to keep her tears to herself.

"No what?" he asked, this time his fist hit her stomach as she took too long answering.

"No you didn't. It was my fault" she whispered quietly.

"You know I just want you to learn" he let his fingers carefully grace her trembling face. "We don't want New York all over again, now do we?"

"No" Addison said.

"You know I love you" he placed a quick kiss on her lips before he stepped away. "Now I have to get back to work. I'll be back late" he added and left the room.

She stayed in her position until she heard the front door close, only then did she exhale the breath she didn't even know she had held in…

Heavy clouds, no rain, and every move causes pain