The Ice Queen
A/N: So here it is the next Chapter! Thanks for everyone following this story!
And a big thank you to KyoKittenFan for your review. So yeah cheers mate!
Chapter 1
The next day he was standing in front of his full size mirror. Eyeing himself in this Uniform. Even though it's a uniform and thus deny my love to present myself through incredible Outfits I cannot deny that this looks quite tolarable. Shrugging his shoulders he starts to style his hair.
On his way to School ther is only one thought on his mind. He hopes that Karofsky will stay away from him. Nobody touches the cheerios because they know it would cause reaction of Sue Sylvester. Which nobody wants to be apart of because lets be honest this women is just crazy.
There we go. Exhale and go. Starting his strut through the school he sees some people who couldn't hide their surprise when seeing him in his Cheerio outfit. Not paying anyone attention he goes straight to his locker opens it and grabs his books for the first lesson.
„Kurt?"
„Oh hell to the no! You did not just join the Squad now did you!"
He hears two voices behind himself. It's Tina and Mercedes. He sighs closes his locker and turns around.
„Ladies. For what do I owe this pleasure?"
„You heard us White boy. Now spill.", Mercedes growls.
„Well I just joined. You know how Sue Sylvester is. She gets what she wants. So she offered and I excepted. I thought it would be unnesscesary to argue with her.", he says non chalant. Shrugging with one shoulder he starts to make his way to his class. Not bothering to look behind to see whether or not the two girls are following him. He knew that they weren't satisfied with his explanation yet but he just couldn't tell them the whole scenario from yesterday. No. It's better for them to think nothing Of it.
„Thats all?", asks Tina with a timid voice. He gave her a small smile and a nod.
„Well I hope for you that your new position won't change our little glee family.", Mercedes states with a underlining threath. He can't believe it as if he would be the one to go all status quo on everyone. I mean just look at this whole mess. He is the one person who gets it the worst of all! Bullying wise. And yes he has not forgotten about how his friends strolled past him and turned their back whenever that happens. Family. Right. And it's not as if any of the popular student that are part of the glee club ever do something in his defence. Or at least warn him.
He scoffed and did not response at all as he just went past them and sat down in an empty chair.
That day nothing else happened besides his very first Cheerio practice. And can he say that everything hurts so much. Heck he hurts even in places he wasn't aware he could hurt. Coach Sylvester thought he need to get in shape as quick as possible. She mutteres under her breath something about having a special place for him in mind. He doesn't really care. The only thing that he wants is to lay down.
Once he is home he does exactly that. Groaning at the ache in all of his muscles. The thought of doing some other exercises tomorrow again is the worst. I mean he ‚only' has those three times a week Cheerio practice but for some reason or another Coach told him to go to this gymnast class she put him in. That means he can't really relax the other day. He does not know why she is doing all of this. Sighing once again he stands up again and strolls down to the kitchen to prepare some dinner for himself and his dad.
This is gonna be hell.
The whole week and the following he did everything that this crazy women told him. His dads only response to his son being a Cheerleader was one lifted eyebrow. He seems to be rather amused because Kurt doesn't even want to go shopping. He is to exhauted at the end of the week and only wants to relax and have a quiet weekend. Though by the end of the second week he realises that everything is getting a bit easier. Still hard though he realises he is not as exhausted after practice anymore and he does have some success with his gymnastic training as well. That alone brings him in good spirit so that he starts the next week a little bit more enthuastic then usual.
His glee friends are now more or less used to him being a cheerleader. So nobody bothers him today during glee anymore.
Everyone is screaming and all he can do is roll his eyes. Sectionals is coming up and oh what a wonder no solo for Kurt. As if he expected something else. They were discussing the solo and group number but wherease everyone wants to give some song choice or demand a solo for one self Kurt just leans back and puts his earphones in. He does not need to hear that. That is going to be a useless practice but hey. Thats glee club.
Closing his eyes he revises what he needs to know for his next class. Thats seems to be more useful. Next class is French. Not that he really needs to study for this class . He is fluent in French thank you very much. His family from his mothers side are from france so no surprise their that he is fluent. Even though he isn't as close with this part of the family anymore the obligatory phonecalls and cards for a holiday ensure him to practice this language. Thinking of this part of the family. He's got a cousin around his age that he hasn't talked to in ages. He frowns. They used to be pretty close before… before his mom died. After that it was more or less his dad and him against the world. And then as his cousins family moved to Paris everything seemed to fall apart. He sighes once again and pulls his phone out. Why not text him now and find out how he is? It's not like he's got anything else to do he thinks whilst scanning the room.
Salut Cousin! How are you and how is the family? We haven't heard from you in a while so I thought I might as well ask if there are some news. Greet the others! -Love Kurt
He was about to pocket his phone again when he got a message. Lifting his eyebrows he sees that he got a reply straight away. Wasn't the other one supposed to be at school?
Opening the message he smiles a little bit to himself.
Baaabes! Thank god for rescuing me. Im in bloody History class and couldn't keep myself awake. You are the best distraction so cheers man! So the familys great. Mom just made some new artwork which to be honest I have no idea what it is but it looks kind of cool. So im gonna send a picture once im home hold tight! And pére is actually about to get promoted! This company is getting bigger and bigger so you know they want to open up another branch in the US so we might be coming back! But enough of me how are you? And how is Burt? Text me soon!- Love from the hottest ass on the planet!
Kurt needed to hide is laughter. His cousin always loved to give him nicknames and from time to time when it was nescecary he would pretend that Kurt was his boyfriend just to have some fun with the people surrounding them or to get out of sticky situations.
Smiling he answered and asked if they can maybe skype. That might be a easier way to talk about stuff. They agreed to text each other once they were home to call and have a good chat.
The bell rang and Kurt made his way to the other classroom. Still with that smile on his face that got wiped of when the neanderthal threw him against the locker.
It was still hard even though the bullies wouldnt risk throwing slushys on his cheerio uniform or throw him in the dumpster. No. It was more passive aggressive. Well besides those locker slams and the slurs they seem to hand out like candy.
Sitting in french class he was lazily looking out of the window. This class is a joke. A sudden knock on the door interrupted the boring voice of the teacher as everyones head turned toward the door. In it was Ms Pilsbury as white as snow. She looked shocked, Kurt mused and felt himself getting worried.
„…can you excuse Kurt Hummel?", was the thing he heard as every pair of eyes turned towards him. His heart skipped a beat as he grabbed all of his belogings as quickly as possible to follow the teacher out of the classroom.
„Is everything ok? Am I in trouble? I swear I never did…", Kurt was interrupted.
„Kurt you haven't done anything wrong. It.. you see … something happened to your dad today.", she paused.
„What, my dad ..but..I- is he ok? Oh my god he was in an accident now wasn't he.", he stuttered.
She eyed him with pity. „Kurt your dad had a heartattack. He was found in his garage by some worker who called 911 immediately but..", she broke up not meeting his eyes.
Kurts eyes where open wide as he tried to ask more but couldn't manage to form any words. His throat felt like as if it was closed and everything started to move around him as a endless mantra of No,no,no filled his mind.
Finally he managed fo sqeauk a quiet:"but?", hoping that the news turned out for the best. It couldn't get worst right?
„Im.. im so sorry Kurt. He died on the way to the hospital. They couldn't do anything for him anymore."
What was that supposed to mean? His dad was his hero he could not be gone! He just couldn't be dead. He felt his breathing quickening and the room was turning again before everything went dark.
As he woke again there was Coach Sylvester in the room with the school nurse.
„My dad!", he screamed. Starting to panick again but Sylvester stopped him. She held his arms as she started to shake him, to bring him back to the present. That might be not the right way to treat someone having a panick attack but it worked.
„Kurt you need to be calm now. There is sadly no way to help your dad but is there any family of you that we can contact? Your dad hasn't got any other emergency contact or names and numbers from relatives anywhere so you need to help us with that. We need someone who can come and take care of you. Do you understand? Slowly take deep breaths and try to stay with us Porcelain!", everything but the las bit was said in a calm voice.
The last part was said in such a urgent tone that he was forced to not grief just yet. It didn't even feel real. And has Coach really used his first name? That would be a first! He tried to concentrate but to be honest nothing felt real. He seemed to be in a cloud somehow everything that was said wasn't clear at all. He couldnt hear because of this beeping inside of his head. What did they want from him. Deep breaths? He could do that.
After a while he managed to grab his phone and call the only family that he could think of right now. Though not in Ohio but France.
„Kurt?", was the greeting formed to a question. They hadn't really talked in a while besides the texts this morning. Was it really just this morning? It felt like ages ago as everything seemed to be alright. Or at least better then now.
„Help!", he sobbed and with that it was done. Suddenly everything began to feel real and he was shook by the sobbs and tears that were falling down his face.
He couldn't stop and as the worried voice on the other end started to ask question it just got worst. And that person seemed to get terrible worried each second Kurt wouln't answer. He felt hands taking his phone from him and he couldn't even be bothered as he put his head between his legs and let everything loose.
After a while, he wasn't sure for how long he sat there like this he realised that someone was trying to get his attention.
„Listen Porcelain. I was just talking to your aunt. They will get on an airplane as soon as possible to get to you. Now do you have anywhere you could stay? If not they told me an address to take you to. Said that it was their home that they still owned here in Lima. They said to not let you go back home on your own for they think it might be to hard for now. So?", Ms Sylvester asked.
His thoughts were running overboard. To whom could he go? Did he have anyone? For a second he was thinking of Mercedes but dismissed the thought as quickly as it came. She had been pretty distant recently and frankly he thought she might just try to get him to talk which he wouldn't appreciate quite yet. Who else? Blaine? No! There is no way. Before he blocked him they weren't even close. So that is not a way to go. Carole and Finn? Things still haven't been right between Finn and himself and Carole was probably griefing herself and didn't need him on top of that. The rest of the glee clb? Well he wasn't as close to anyone really. That would not do.
„Can-can you drive me to my relatives place? I would do it myself but I..", he wasn't in any state to drive not whilst he was obviously shaking.
„Sure thing Porcelaine come on then now. Just because you dont have to bother with the rest of this school day doesn't mean that I am willing to cancel practice for everyone else today!"
He was just sitting there looking into nothingness. Not eating not sleeping. Just staring. He hasn't checked his phone. He wasn't sure if anyone knows about his dad and if so he didn't want to talk about it.
Suddenly the door opened and in came his aunt uncle and cousin.
How long has he been sitting there for? It must been like 10 hours or so.
His aunt was quick to embrace him and telling him that they were there for him though he could feel nothing but numbness. His uncle was next to give him a hug and giving his support. As it was his cousins turn he didn't say anything he just sat next to him gave him a kiss to his forehead and held him. That gesture did it for him as silent tears were streaming down his face. He tried to hide his face in his cousins shoulder and if he felt Kurts tears through that jumper he didnt say anything. Hidden in his cousins arms he felt safe and that is how he fell asleep due for exhaustion.
The next few days were hard for Kurt he didn't know how to do things now that he lost his anchor. The one person who would always support him. But life went on and after the funeral it was just a matter of fact that they have to talk about their situation now for his aunt is now his new guardian.
They talked it all over. It was the middle of the school year. So it would be either Kurt who had to move in with them in Paris or Sebastian to change schools. But Kurt absolutely hated the thought to leave his parents just yet. He needed time to grief here and not to flee.
His aunt is an artist so for her it wouldn't be a problem to move back to Lima but for his uncle it was a different case. Even though he spent hours on the phone to get the job for their new oppening buisness in Ohio it was not as easy as it seemed to leave everything and move straight away. There were still some things that need to be taken care of.
After awhile they had it all figured out. Kurt was to stay at this house/mansion they were at right now. His aunt would stay with him in the beginning but after a while she will be travelling back and forth to still be with her husband and child and also to slowly transfer things from their home to Lima. Sebastian would be still going to his school until they were ready to move.
As his relatives left to catch their flight his aunt and he were standing at the door waving. It was a Sunday that meant that Kurt had to go to school the following day. He didn't feel ready for it.
The next day his aunt prepared some breakfast for the both of them. A sad smile forming on his face. That is such a nice gesture and to be honest he is really grateful for his family. They were so caring! But waking up to smell perfectly made French toast was just another reminder for him that his dad was gone.
He thanked his aunt and reminded her that today after school would be Cheerios practice. Coach called and warned him to not miss too many of those.
He arrived at school late. Well not as late as to be late for class but just late enough for most of the students to be on their way to their own class already. Those who he saw walking through the school he ignored. He also ignored the pitying faces of the teachers. Now they care! As he heard someone behind him whisper that his Dad was dead he closed his eyes. This promised to be a long long day.
Before he could go to the gym after school he needed to grab his Uniform out of the locker. He chose to wear black instead of the Cheerio Uniform today. He turned around the corner and could see all of the glee club members waiting at his locker.
Taking a deep breath. Exhaling. He pulled his shoulders back and walked over to them. The first person to see him was Rachel who was quick to let the others know that he is coming as well.
„Hi. Can I get to my locker please.", he said with a quiet voice.
Finn took a step towars him. His face showing anger. „Kurt what the hell! Why didn't you tell me anything about Burt? That is so selfish of you! Why didnt you think about me and my mom! It is not just you who lost someone important!"
He automatically went a step back. What was that all about?
„Yeah white boy why didn't you tell us about it?!"
„Dude! I mean im sorry but-"
Everyone was talking at the the same time.
Holding his hand up he asked for them to stop talking.
Once everyone was quiet again Brittany used the opportunity to give him a hug. Quickly followed by a shoulder squeeze from Tina and a whispered:"Man Im sorry.", from Mike supported by a nod from Matt.
He was about to thank them but was interrupted once again by the very load leader of the New Directions. Rachel.
„Yes yes Kurt we are sorry about what happened. But also need I remind you that what you did was really disrespectful?", she proclaimed. Getting a few nods from the other Members.
Seeing his confusion she eloborated. „You just went home withouth telling anybody about it and even more importantly you did ignore our phone calls and messages and skipped glee! Sectionals is coming soon and you can not miss any of our practices anymore."
He blinked once. He blinked twice. Then he started to laugh. It was a bitter laugh. He couldn't believe his own ears. Where they really feeling so self important?
„I dont know what your laughing about Kurt. But I must say Im dissapointed in you. We are your friends even though you were not behaving as if we are!", Mercedes shouted.
„I don't know about being friends. Yes I saw you as friends but where were you when I needed you? When I was beeing bullied? Aren't friends supposed to stand by each others side? And especially after what you said I have the feeling that I'm not as important to you as you want to make me believe. Heck you even think glee club is more important than me. I was grieving that is why I didn't come to glee club! And Finn yes I am aware that you and your mom lost someone as well but he was MY dad so sorry for not thinking of you straight away once they told me that my dad dies!", he shouted. Trying to get rid of all of his frustration.
Opening his locker he quickly grabbed his stuff and slamed it back close before pushing passed the stunned glee kids shaking his head.
In the locker room whilst changing into uniform all of what they said came back to his mind. And with the frustration gone he couldnt help but feel hurt. Did he not matter to them? His hurt turned to anger as he walked down the hallway toword the gym. Maybe he was better of without them he thought before a mask of coldness slipped over his face.
Do not show emotions. Do not get attached to anyone! They are just going to leave you.
Strolling through the doors of the gym he straightened his posture and regarded everyone with cold eyes that made some of the new Cheerleaders shiver.
The Ice Queen was born.
A/N: Uff so I just went for it!Next chapters gonna be with a jump in time :)