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I was stuck in between a love for two men as equally as good as each other. I wasn't Katherine I could keep repeating and repeating it to myself but it never went away even as I slept over the covers in Stefan's room or when I first opened my eyes in the morning, it was inevitable. There I was still lying on Stefan's bed after getting dressed and showered waiting for him to come through the door and pick me up and kiss me and tell me he forgives me and that it's all going to be okay when it's not but he wouldn't ever come and do that again, ever. He was gone, with Klaus.
"Elena" Damon knocked on the closed bedroom door and my heart skipped a beat.
"Come in" My voice was raspy and quiet as I spoke and sat up when he walked in dressed in his same black everyday ensemble minus the leather Jacket.
"Damon I..." I trailed off; I couldn't justify or say a thing to the man in front of me. I did kiss him twice, I did lie to him, I did do the one thing I didn't want to do. I was Katherine.
"So how do we find Stefan?" I asked squaring my shoulders and staring into his blue eyes. He opened his mouth to speak but stopped himself frowning slightly.
"Find Katherine first, see what the bitch knows" He muttered putting up his hard faced mask.
"She saved your life Damon" I said softly, he couldn't hate her for that.
"One good thing doesn't redeem a lifetime of bad" He wasn't talking about Katherine when he said that he was talking about himself, he was thinking he deserved to die.
"You didn't deserve to die Damon, Nobody does" I spoke softly moving closer to him, to comfort him or to comfort myself I didn't really know.
"Elena, it's because of me, Stefan's gone because of me. Damn it he shouldn't have saved me." Damon was shouting a scowl on his face and his eyes darkened.
"You would have done the same" I grabbed his hands and he stared down at our entwined fingers.
"It's my fault Elena, You're... Stefan's gone and I'm to blame"
"It's not your fault Damon" I moved closer to him and tears fell down my face. His arms enveloped me and I wrapped mine around him loving the comfort he was bringing me and the sorrow he was taking away.
"It's not your fault either" He breathed into my hair kissing my head softly, I smiled into his chest and dropped my arm's from his waist as he stepped away from me.
"Thank you" I breathed.
"Come on let's get you home" He held you a hand for me to take and I took it keeping my hand in his, he was taking away the pain.
When we pulled in front of the house Damon dropped his hand from the car wheel, I knew no Jenna would be there to glare at Damon or greet me or be her bubbly self no matter how much I hoped the house would feel empty. Damon released my hand and walked around to the other side opening the door for me slowly and extending his hand to help me out, his fingers were cool and comforting in mine and I didn't want to let go.
We walked hand in hand to the door, Damon knocked and Alaric came to the door looking puzzled at Damon.
"I thought you were dying?" Rick said moving aside to let us in.
"Cured, Klaus' blood, that little bitch Katherine decided she owed me." Damon muttered stepping in pulling me in tow.
"We need to talk now, get everyone here pronto" Damon snapped dragging me into the front door and sitting down on the sofa, I sat down next to him and he put his arm over my shoulder while grabbing my hand and entwining it back with his. It felt too intimate but I needed this and I know Damon did too.
"Everyone's on their way" Rick came back into the room followed by Jeremy they both sat down opposite Damon and I. Nobody spoke but Jer glanced at Damon and I with a frown.
Minutes later there was a knock at the door and Alaric let everyone in, Bonnie and Caroline were there and entered the room quietly both looking at Damon then around the room at each other.
"Okay I guess you all wonder why I'm alive" Damon started with a smirk twiddling with my fingers unconsciously as he addressed everyone.
"Katherine gave me Klaus' blood which cured the werewolf bite, Stefan is now with Klaus as he decided to play the hero and sign up to a decade contract eating sorority girls to save me. Any questions?" Damon sighed deeply.
"So Stefan's with Klaus" Caroline asked.
"Yes thanks' for stating the obvious Vampire Barbie. We need to find him, Broom Hilda can you do a tracking spell or something of that idea" Damon trailed a thumb over the back of my hand and a shivered causing Damon to frown at me removing his hand from mine.
As soon as it was taken away I felt lost I needed Damon just that bit closer to me so I couldn't loose him so he would always be there right next to me right by my side, right where Stefan wasn't.