Well, here is the second chapter. Y'all are in luck. I haven't updated any other story but I'm doing this one first! Whoo...hope you'll be able to get a better view into Bella's feelings in this chapter. It's slightly based on the song "When You're Gone" by Avril Lavigne. But just slightly. :)

Bella was now alone in the home she once shared with Edward. Well, alone by Bella's standards. Bella didn't know how she felt about her baby. Sure, she was very happy and felt blessed to have a piece of Edward with her. But, at the same time it was hard having to look at Renesme and see Edward's eyes. At first Alice and Emmett practically stalked her until she threw them out. She couldn't take it anymore. Jake had been a godsend. He kept her mind off of it by telling stories of his tribe. It made Bella laugh to learn that her dad and Jake only lived minutes away. It truly was a small world. Now, however, he was gone and she felt defeated. It was strange how close they had gotten over a short amount of time. It seemed like they had known each other forever. There were no awkward silences like there was with Alice and it wasn't like an older brother like Emmett. No, it was different. She just hadn't put her finger on it yet.

However, when he was gone, she reverted to being miserable. She constantly put her arms around her stomach to hold herself together. It was like she couldn't breathe. She only got up to take care of Renesme. She ate enough to just get by and she took a shower maybe once a week.

Jake was home for a couple of months and she didn't realize how she much she had come to rely on him and the sun he seemed to bring to her.

Right now, Bella was sitting in the rocker in her room. Renesme was fast asleep, thank God. For a five week old, she didn't sleep a lot. Every time Bella sat in the rocker, she could see the piano in the den. She didn't go into the den anymore. That was Edward's favorite room. He loved his piano. He would always play and make up songs for everyone. She hated being reminded of him and yet loved it to. It was a bittersweet kind of thing. She could also see some clothes that Edward had left on the floor when he was packing for Iraq. Bella had just left them there because, being as pregnant as she was, it was hard for her to bend down. Now, however, she just didn't want to move some of the last things he touched.

And then there was the bed. Her side was unmade and messy while his remained made up and untouched. It killed her a little more inside every morning she woke up and saw it. It was a constant reminder that he was never coming back. There were always those little things that killed Bella. His toothbrush lying by the sink (he had taken his extra one with him) was a punch in the stomach. When Bella did take a shower, she saw his shampoo and was very tempted to throw it.

Bella rocked back and forth and began crying. He had left her. He promised her he would never leave her and look what happened. She was alone and he was gone. What was she supposed to do? He was her heart and soul. He was the very breath in her body. She wanted to throw something. She wanted to get all of his stuff and just throw it out of the window. But, she knew she couldn't. She loved him too much to throw things. It wasn't like he had a choice in whether he left her or not.

That's one thing she hated. She felt hurt by him and yet she knew it wasn't his fault. She knew it must have been his time to go. Though, it wasn't fair, she had to understand that. However, just because she understood didn't mean she didn't want to scream at God.

Her cell phone began to ring and without even looking at it, she picked it up.

"Hi."

"Bella?"

"Jake?"

"Yeah. How is my Goddaughter?"

It made her extremely happy that he loved Renesme. She wanted Renesme to have someone who knew Edward in ways no one else did. And that was Jake.

"She's sleeping now. Thank God."

"Good. I know how difficult she was at first. And how is her mother?"

"Her mother is…surviving. It's hard being in this house."

"Yeah. When I get back in 5 weeks, we'll get out for a while. I want to show off Renesme to some guys at the base. You know, some guys who also knew…"

"That sounds good to me. Can we just not stay long at the base?"

"Of course not. We'll go to the zoo also or something. I don't know but we'll get you out and about. Maybe Emmett and his kids will want to come with us or something."

"That'll be good, though Taylor and Mya still act strange around me. They are only five and eight and death confuses them. They love having a cousin and want to see Renesme but they are just awkward around me and I feel like I'm losing my nieces."

"I'm sorry. They will come around. I found out today that my sister, Rachel, is getting married to one of my best friends from high school."

"Really? How do you feel about that?"

"I don't know. Confused. He was a bad boy in school but he seems to really love her."

"That's good Jake."

Every time she called him that his heart picked up speed. He didn't understand his reaction and he knew he shouldn't have feelings like that for the woman who just lost her husband. He couldn't help it. He decided he would put it to the back burner and forget about it. At least, for now.

"Well, Bells…I got to go. My dad is taking us all out for dinner tonight so I need to shower. I am greasy from working on my rabbit."

"Okay Jake. It was good talking to you."

"You too. Well, honey, I'll call you soon. Call me if you need me, okay?"

"Okay. Talk to you soon."

They hung up and Bella instantly felt alone again. For those brief few minutes, she had felt somewhat whole. That's what Jake did for her.

I really hope y'all liked it. I worked very hard while watching Pretty Little Liars and Make it or Break It! :) Reviews are loved...