When We Were Older

by Dead.SummerXx

Truthfully, the grass is never really greener on the other side—especially if you're a mentally handicapped man with more dimples than brain cells and a special needs teacher with more skeletons in your closet than bones in your entire body. AU, USUK

2. PART I: ii

progris riport 2—martch 4, 1967

Sorry I wasnt abel to rite yesterday Dr Honda if yu reed this I took sum tests yesterday so thats why I wasn't abel to rite but yu probly alredy no that. The tests were rilly wierd I didnt like them. One of them was sumthing the nice lady Dr called i think it was "rawr shok". All it was was a tun off kards with inkblots on them and the nice lady Dr told me to telll her what I saw in them I didnt get it. They were just inkblots I mean what were they supposd to be. Then she geyv me another test with pikshurs of pepul on them she told me to tell her what they might be doing. I sed how shuld I no im not ther she sed yes I no but what do yu think they culd posibly be doing Alfred. Wen I told her I didnt no and I didnt want to lie I hate lieing becuse its rong and I always get kot she looked rilly sad. I didnt get that either whats rong with being onest.

I dont rilly like the drugs that Dr Honda and Dr Edelstein (thats how yu spel it two) give me either becuse they make me feel funny but they sey its good so ill take them. Dr Honda seys that the day after tommorow mite be the operashun depending on how well I do on a finel test and im rilly exited i cant wait to show Artie how smart ill be Dr Honda seys ill be even smartr than artie. Thats amezing becuse artie is a jenyus. I wanna no what the finel test is tho it sounds rilly exiting sumthing abot a meys.

The past fyew days have ben ok but I miss my nite klasses with artie. I mean I dont miss artie himself becuse hes a ass but I wanna lern good to. I rilly hope that this operashun werks I want to make Mattie happy. Hes sad all the time now but wen I told him about the operashun he seemd happyer. I was rilly shockd when Dr Honda told me it was Artie that told him and Dr Edelstein id be good for this operashun becuse like I sed hes a ass. But it was nice of him and now I cant dissappoint him becuse evin tho hes meen hes a good teacher and I no that he wouldnt have told Dr Honda and Dr Edelstein abot me if he didnt want me too do good and lern to be smart. its nice that sumone finlly believes in me. I no Matties my brother and Tino and Berwald love me but I no deep down inside that they dont think ill be abel two do this on my own and I dont think I can either. But now I have Artie and Dr Honda and Dr Edelstein. Artie's meen and Dr Edelstein is rilly prissy and Dr Honda is rilly ackward and speaks funny but i know they believe in me or at least hope the operashun will werk and thats enuff for me. I hope its enuff for Mattie too.

T:KA