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Chapter 2
The shuttle came into port on the Citadel and Kaidan and the passengers walked off, He was in a trance his eyes still blood shot and swollen from crying, all he wanted was sleep and maybe a bottle of tequila.
The door to Kaidan's apartment hissed open and he started to undress, unbuttoning his jacket pulling his shirt off over his head exposing his muscled chest and abs, stopping only to kick off his shoes and then continuing towards his room unbuckling his belt and unbuttoning his pants letting them slide off his muscled legs leaving a path of undress in his wake. As he passed by his bathroom he stopped momentarily to look at himself, his face looked tired and his eyes were still pink. His chest arms and abs have gotten bigger and more defined, being the only human spectre left had him working on overdrive. He ran his hand over his pecs and down his abs until he got to the waist band of the ultra tight black trunks, to the waist band of the underwear he had so carelessly discarded as he and Commander Shepard rolled around in a mixture of kisses and well placed gropes. They sure didn't leave anything to the imagination either the outline of Kaidan cock and balls was clearly visable as he remembered seeing the same sight on his lover. His hand dropped from the waistband and he returned to his path to bed, and slowly laid down feeling every muscle in his body relax.
Sleep was a pleasure most take for granted but when Kaidan woke up and it was three in the afternoon the next day he realized just how hard he had been treating his body, throwing himself at his work endlessly was a stupid idea but at least it kept him from thinking of Shepard.
The terminal in the living room flashed on as a rested but groggy Kaidan slipped past he had a new message from Liara, intrigued Kaidan opened up his mail box.
Kaidan,
I feel really bad for upsetting you on Earth, it wasn't my intention and I wasn't sure if I was going to show you this but I think you need to see it. Attached is a message sent to my broker terminal from Shepard after he died. Turns out he had some things to say if he wasn't coming back and he set it to send if he didn't deactivate the timer attached.
I hope you find some peace in hearing it from Shepard. Please keep in touch.
Liara
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Kaidan,
If you are reading this than I didn't make it back to hold u like I promised, and im so sorry I wanted to tell you that I love you and that I would do anything to keep you safe and hopefully I succeeded in kicking some Reaper ass! Take care Kaidan, I will be waiting for you on the other side and ill be there waiting to hold you like I promised.
I love you.
Shepard
Tears raced down Kaidans face, why would Liara show him this? Why was she so cruel? No… he knew she only wanted to best for him and he wanted to see it. He read it three more times through blurry tear filled eyes.
" I love you too Shepard!" he finally choked out " I love you so much"
Kaidan knew that the message was a goodbye and that Shepard was really actually gone for good. There was no Cerberus to rebuild him there was no impending apocalyptic attack coming it was over.