Sacrifice for Love

by banduraqueen

"In the days after Jenny's murder, Buffy began offering herself to him... perhaps not consciously, at least not at first..." The point is to get Buffy and Giles in bed together but with a real focus on character and trying to keep them in-character. Takes place during season 2.

2. Chapter 2

Giles tried to ignore any change in his relationship with Buffy. Buffy couldn't.

She began to feel that nothing else she could say or do could express how sorry she was. And the more she thought about it, the more she wanted it for herself. She wanted to give her body over to someone else, to give up control, to be free from responsibility, to not have to worry or think. She wanted to stop thinking about Angel.

And that was another reason – she tried not to think about it this way because she felt it was selfish – but she was sorry and bitter that her first time went the way that it did. It wasn't supposed to happen that way; she wanted to try it again. She wanted to make love with someone who loved her, and for him to still love her the next day.

She imagined what it would be like, the way Giles loved her translated into sex, and it was warm and comforting. When she imagined what it would be like there were no images, only feelings.

She wanted to, but at the same time told herself that is was impossible for her to want to, not with Giles. She chastised herself for thinking Giles would want her, but at the same time she assumed that of course he would want her, and it would be just getting him to admit it that would be the hard part.