Second Chapter! WHOO! Since my lack of experience with writing I don't expect this story to be one of those really long ones. Just a few more chapters if you think I should continue. I have one bad word in this chapter so you know!
Disclaimer: Degrassi is not mine (:
Secretly Broken
Chapter 2
All through first period, Clare just wanted everyone to stop staring at her. Especially those two boys. She kept her head low before the bell rang. Once it did she ran out the door, seeing who would follow. Of course 'they' did. They tapped her shoulder, she ignored. They said "Hello," she shook her head "no". After they had tried again, they walked in front of her stopping her 'path' She wasn't exactly sure where she was going.
"Get out of my way!" she yelled, turning heads while doing so.
"Whoa, calm dowm. We just wanted to say "hello"." said the one with the beanie hat.
"You stop me from walking just to say "hello?"
"That's just how we roll." replied the dark haired boy with a smirk. Clare's eyes sparkled when her eyes met his.
"My name is Clare by the way." she said quickly so there wouldn't be an awkward silence.
"Yeah, I'm Eli and this is Adam." Adam nodded in agreement.
Apparently they thought the conversation was over and just walked away. Clare stood there a moment to process what happened. She wasn't sure why they started talking to her. But now she felt more comfortable knowing two faces at school.
During her next class she sat in the back, trying not to draw attention to herself. All through the class she couldn't stop thinking about Eli. Though she didn't know much. He seemed so mysterious and Clare wanted to know more. This was too much for her to bear. She can't keep her promise. Her heart was pounding with excitement. So many mischievous thoughts in her head. I remember those days. She thought in her head. All those times when she would cause trouble for the thrill of it. She could feel old Clare crawling back into her life.
The rest of the day Clare spent most of her time looking for Eli and Adam. At the end of the day she felt like they were actually her friends. There was a warm fuzzy feeling in her heart. Clare didn't want to admit it, but it was true.
"Wow," she said to herself. "The three of us have no where else to be in school, we just end up together. Just like the pieces of a puzzle that don't fit." Right there she started smiling from ear to ear. She had said 'the three of us'. Oh yes, Clare had friends now. Most people wouldn't be as excited to have new friends. But to Clare this was a huge milestone.
When she got home, she ran to her room and locked the door. She had some deep thinking to do. Clare was asking herself so many questions, determined to answer all of them. Why do I act like a total bitch? Am I trying to impress someone? Can I change? Clare had realized that she can't blame her parents for her turning out so wild. It was her choice to be a terrible person. She was only trying to impress herself. She was showing herself she was strong and wouldn't back down in all the wrong ways. And lastly, she did think she could change. It would just take a lot of work. Too much work maybe?
Clare was tired and just sunk her head into her pillow. And like most nights, without dinner. She was excited for what would happen tomorrow. Until she thought that this could all just be hype. She was new, no friends, alone. Were Eli and Adam really her friends? Or were they just giving her sympathy? For once in a long time, Clare prayed that it wasn't the latter. She could feel the tears forming in her eyes. She clenched her fists and forced herself not to let any slip from her eyes. There she goes trying to impress herself. Clare didn't want to be alone anymore. Especially when she just felt how it felt like to have friends. Now she knew why she couldn't change. All this sense of denial. Clare was tired of feeling anything but happpy. She sucked it up and lay her head down.
So a little on the short side. School really cuts into my writing time :/ Anyways, advice and reviews are always a big help!