Writers notes: Thanks for the reviews guys. I kinda thought the start was meh, but apparently I did pretty good. (Self-praise, BOO!) Anyways, this is how we going to roll.

When Vanessa came to, she was sitting in the mess of Normandy SR-1. Stretching her arms she stood up and looked around. It was still intact, the good old Normandy. She smiled as the crew we're laughing at some joke Jenkins had just told about Eden Prime. The crew noticed their XO and saluted her, to which she answered and left them alone as she headed towards the elevator and went down to storage. She saw Ashley there cleaning her guns, it was little hobby of hers when she wanted to relax.

"Heya ma'am. What are you doing here?" She said in her cheerful voice.

"Just looking around and reminiscensing of everything that was once here." She looked at her with a smile and sat on the floor.

"So, this is death then, huh? We're in heaven?" Vanessa thought out loud.

"Yeah, if you believe in that kinda of stuff. But it's not half bad to be honest. I was wishing for more half-naked men, booze and parties." Ash laughed to which Vanessa joined. She had missed Ash so much after her death. Both of them fell silent after their laughter.

"You know, you aren't supposed to be here." Ash murmured sadly. "Even though it's fun having you here Shep." That startled Vanessa.

"How come? I'm dead aren't I? My job is done already. This is my happy place right here." she said hugging her knees and resting her forehead on her own knees.

"On the contrary, your job is far from done. Your job right now is to live a happy life. Your job is to live.." Ash said, whispering the last word so quietly, she barely heard it.

"But I'm..." Vanessa looked startled before she heard the ship exploding around her. It was getting harder for her to breath. The explosions around her were getting closer and louder. She could feel the fire around her.

"Ash, we need to leave..!" Vanessa stood up whilst catching her breath. Ash's body was on the floor of, puddle blood surrounding her, her skin scorched. She was dead, again. Vanessa let a little sob looking at her fallen comrade, her fallen friend. She had lost her, again.

Before she could run away, she felt the gravity pull her. The explosion had destroyed Normandy and now she was again getting spaced, not able to breathe. This was definitely not heaven; she was in her personal hell.

Current location: Leonov Alliance Base, Moscow, Russia 1 month later.

"Doctor, tell me straight, is it safe to transport him or not?!" Hackett raised his voice at the poor doctor.

"Admiral, I'm not sure about this." Muttered Genadi Lebedev. "He's suffering from PTSD and depression. He refuses to eat or talk so we had to hook him to an IV. The closest people to him visit him daily, tell him the news that have been going on. Sometimes he smiles, but then he goes to his own world again. Our nurses tell me that he keeps having nightmares at night and he screams. We always have to sedate him. We can't even mention Shepards name without him being agressive towards us. We had to chackle him not to let him hurt himself or our staff. So no, with all due respect Admiral, it isn't safe to transport him yet."

Hackett massaged his temples and grunted. "I need to see the Major Doctor Lebedev."

"With all due respect Admiral.." the poor doctor didn't even manage to finish the sentence.

"Now! I'm not going to ask you again doctor!" Hackett never had raised his voice, but now he couldn't stop himself. The doctor shook his head. "Right this way Admiral."

Both of them walked in silence to the medical center. Doctor Lebedev broke the silence when they stood behind the door of Kaidan's room. "I thought Admiral's didn't remember all of their subordinates or even care about them. Why is Major Alenko so special?"

Hackett pursed his lips together and straightened himself. After a low sigh, doctor Lebedev opened the door. Hackett took a step forward to the room and whispered so quietly that only the doctor could hear it. "It was Shepards wish, if something happened to her, that Kaidan would have been taken care of. He deserves that at least." Doctor was left speechless as Hackett had entered the room and shut the door behind him.