A/ N : So ! This is me again...

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Part 2 : Him and him

Day 7 :

Sean's diary :

So it have ben a week since I came to Shelby home..

I don't know what I should say about it , about everyone who is living in here .

Arthur Shelby Jr : he is the eldest brother . He wanted to run the family business , but it didn't work.

He is kind of irritable since war , he messes the things up as he losses control. War did that to him..

That the reason became the leader

Even with irritable behavior, the inability of control and how much he is a mess after war I believe he is the most kind hearted person in here.

I mean , Arthur Shelby Sr abandoned them all and he just became the father - specially for Finn - who is just eleven .

He became a mess not just because of war , but also because he felt helpless when it came to protect his brothers and for that I am sorry as well..

Thomas Shelby : I actually don't know what should I say about my new master . I don't even know why I am writing this ?!

It is kind of habit my mom brought me into it saying to me it would help me feel better and understand better

But when it comes to my new master I don't think I would understand at all . I would never be able to know the man he was before war..

He has changed the most , everyone here - specially aunt Polly - is cursing the war and what they have done to him in France .

I can see he is hunted by it , in his dreams and in his memory. He is just trying to ignore it by drowning himself in work , women , drinking and smoking things like brown opium with a clay pipe .

He is breaking my heart the most..

He was a sapper with another soldier they call him Danny Whizz-Bang . I can imagine how hard is this for him even he is already home .

I just wish I will be able to fix that .

John Shelby:

He is the third brother . The best one dealing with that aftermath thing , I actually don't know why maybe because he is the youngest .

John is kind of medium solution between Arthur and Thomas , he is walking on Thomas footsteps while he sometimes loses it just as Arthur .

He was the only one who got married, his wife called Martha. Well she is dead now and he has a beautiful four kids of her , I really like them the most .

Finn : He is the youngest , he is my favorite of the brothers. I would try my best to keep his safety just as the rest of his brother do

There is a lot to write , but I won't be able to do it now as voice is making its way to me across the walls..

" Sean ! " Tom yelled

" Yes , " Sean answered while she came running

" Where the hell were you ? You have been close fitting around me for the past week and now I am spending an hour to get ya ?! " he was angry , Sean can tell .

It all was about that new policeman

- Cambell- who came to search for stolen weapons that the gang got it by chance .

He was making it hard for business, all that gambling , bets , illegal races at horse tracks..

All of that was in danger because of the new officer

" I am sorry , Sir " Same short answers Sean kept since he came

" Get ready . All of you ! The new officer had Arthur and we need to get him back .

We will be two groups , one which is going to get Arthur from inside and that is going to be John's and the men group .

Me and Sean will be the other group . We will mislead them for you to get you enough time .

For you Polly..

If anything happened to me , or I had to disappear for awhile.." there Polly interrupted " The work is in safety hands . Can I talk to you for a second " Polly said even more angry than Tom

" What is it Polly ? You know I don't have time.." he objected

" Then you make some !

Since you were all in war I took care of the business and now you are just blowing the temple on our heads !

Getting Arthur and then what ? They won't leave us alone ! Just give them the guns.." Polly was angry , but she tired to convince him with her point of view

" You took care of the business that is right . Now I am here I take care of the business " he whispered to her ear and started walking out

" **** on what they did to you in France ! What about Ada ? " she tried to convince him to let that matter go with all of her power

Ada was his sister , who was seeing Fredy Thorne who had problems with police since he came back

" I will take care of that when I come back " Tom stopped , but he didn't look back

" That is if you came back ! It is just a b*** if ! " she yelled on him angrily

" You better count on it " he said calmly making his way out

Sean P.O.V :

He wasn't calm at all , I was able to see it even he knew so well how to hide his emotions. I guess war has a big role in that

" Take this " he said handling me a gun while he throw away his cigarette

" You know Sir I cannot.." I tried to object " Just in case you need to use it , when it comes to your soul you will have no f*** principles " and we made our way

Everything was going fine . They got Arthur out , but then I don't know what happened! They were after us..

We couldn't take the car around so we where just on our feet , plus we tried as much as possible to be under-covered

Hearing the gunshots, it wasn't like it was my first time but still I was freaked out

I was standing there like a fool until he got my hand and we started running

" Are you stupid or something? Do you want to get yourself killed ! I told you to use the f*** gun !

Guess what ? You didn't! And you were just in the middle waiting to get shot "

he was angry at me

I was jus shocked

I don't know why he was angry ?

I thought for him it was just fine , he saw many men die until he lost the count I guess..

So why the hell do he even care now ?

We climbed into a covered truck to hide , it stopped out of the city and the driver was going to know about us

So again we got on our feet , but this time it wasn't fine

I finally recognized that he was shot , he was breathing heavily, drowning in his cold sweat

" Sir.." I called hesitated

" Just keep moving "it came out weaker than he decided it to be , I can tell..

He just collapsed " Sir ! " I called in fear

" Look ! It seems to be a house over there , no lights..so it might be abandoned or they are out . It will help.." I tried to explain, but he was already out

I took his hand around my neck and then started to help his body up , it was so hard since I have small -weak - body

We managed to make it there , but now I am the one who was breathless

It took me a couple of minutes to have my breath back

" Sir ! Stay with me.." I said while I checked on his swallow breath

Finally I got candles and I lighted them up . Now I can see how tired he was and how much pain he was in

I had a small knife with me , I brought one candle to the where I laid him down , I got hot water , vinegar and honey as quick as I could

" Sir , please forgive me for doing this " I said while I was taking his shirt off

" For bringing you so much pain instead of happiness and joy..

I am so sorry " I mumbled

He just moaned in pain when I moved his body up to see where he was hurt

I don't know why..but I did it! I hugged the upper part of his body.

The bulled was there in the back of his shoulder, it seemed to be very bad..

The area around it was red , and this white-green viscous liquid was coming out..

It was pus! And I guess that bullet started to poison him as well by now

I wonder how he is still alive ! I am just glad he did .

I had to do it ! To get the bullet out , but I cannot do it .

It hurts my heart so much..

Thinking that he might die in my hands , thinking that his body will shake in pain and it will lost the rest of its warmth while resting on mine

I can't stand the fear of that idea..

It is not my first time doing that , I helped when any crazy master of mine shot one of us for now reason

I learned somethings and I know how dangerous this situation is

The fever , the bleeding , the pus and the bullet..I am losing him

" I can't " I sobbed but I tried to held it back as much as possible

I was just going to put his body on the ground again and then I heard his tired voice " being in pain..is much better than being dead" it came out as a moan of pain

" if you don't do it..I lose my soul or at least my arm " he said closing his eyes and supporting his head with the help of the wall beside us

I was just going to help him laying down on his stomach when he just managed to make his was back to me

Again , his head resting on my shoulder and I can feel his hot breath against my neck

" This is going to hurt , Sir . Please stay still " I said while I put the small knife to the candle's fire and I just made my way in his shoulder to get that **** out