I never actually felt like I was connected to someone.
During my childhood, I could sense I was different. I'd see them playing with each other, having fun, always hanging out together.
But I never, in any way, desired to become one of them. Never.
They all sounded too childish to me. Yes, children are suppose to like that. The problem wasn't them, it was me. I never wanted to fit in because I never thought I'd actually be able to.

Years passed and despite the rotine examinations I was exposed to, life kept the same. Soon, my skills improved and I was able to join SOLDIER and quickly reached First Class. And not much after that, the attentions were drawn on me and I was surrounded by fake people. I became tired of all the attention. All I wanted was to serve SOLDIER and Shin-ra. Nothing else.
But then... then I met them.

Genesis aproached me willing to get to know me better and I refused to talk. I could see disappointment in his eyes. He was hoping I'd behave like the hero he thought I was. But I didn't. I could hear him hit the ground and I walked away.
Then Angeal came to me... Imploring for his best friend's sake. Something I never saw anyone doing. Not even the children from those years before that played so happy together...

- Please accept Genesis, give him a chance. - he begged me.

I couldn't turn on those words. So I accepted Genesis... for Angeal's sake. Maybe I could learn something from them.
Time passed and we became friends, the three of us. To know they've been together for so long made me wonder how often friendships like that can be found.
Anyone could tell they were close to each other right away.

Genesis was a bit too difficult to deal with at first. Being spoiled by Angeal all the time, he was as childish, greedy and stubborn as the kids from my past.
Angeal on the other hand was a true friend, taking it all for the sake of the ones he loved. His dreams were Genesis's. He was all Angeal mattered about.
And I.. I truly enjoyed being with them. After all these years, so lonely, I could finally say I had friends. True friends.

We would go to the Training Room after the rookies were out and fight each other just for fun. Their skills were amazing. A match for mines indeed.
Hearing Genesis quoting Loveless, Angeal's lectures of how we should stick to out dreams and honor... It sounds silly saying this, but I was happy.
Happy for finding the company I longed for.

- I don't recall seeing you trying to seduce a woman, Sephiroth. - Genesis would say, defying me.
- Well I like to keep it discret. - I smirked to him.
- Oh really? I'd love to hear how you do it. We should share experiences.
- Genesis, maybe we shouldn't bring this up. Sephiroth might not feel confortable about the subject. - Angeal would say.
- But I see a light of curiosity on your eyes, my dear friend. - Genesis smirked to him.
Angeal would blush lightly and cough.
- Well I... wouldn't mind listening to it.
- Belive it or not, I don't do much. All it takes is to look her in the eyes. - I'd reply.
- That simple? Well maybe my gaze isn't as sexy as yours, for I tried it and the best result I got was a giggle.
- Really? And what did you do next, Genesis?
- Well, I approache her and tell her how wonderfull she looks and add one of my favourite quotes from Loveless. That's usually enough.
- I see.. You never get tired of Loveless, do you?
- It is the most wonderfull book. - Wait..! - Angeal would say all of the sudden.
Both me and Genesis would look at him.
- But then.. what do you do with the ladies?
- Well what a question, Angeal. We take them to our room and let the body take its course. - Genesis would answer.
- ... unbelivable... How can you treat a lady just for sex?
- You seem unconfortable about it. What is wrong with it? - I'd ask.
- It's deshuman! Women bare the seeds of human life, the least we can do is love them. Not just...sex.
- Actually Angeal, we have the seeds. They're just the fertilized land where we plant them. - Genesis would say.

- What about you Angeal? How do you capture a certain woman's attention? - I asked. I wanted to know more about him.
- I.. well.. I'm an old fashion romantic guy. - he'd say blushing, rubbing his head. - I just give her something special like a flower or a handmade necklace and tell her how I feel about her.
- Why Angeal, not even I knew that about you. How many times have you done it?
- ... not too often.
- He probably means once or twice. - I'd say teasing him a little.
- Yes, Angeal vallues love too much to go around women all the time. - Genesis would laugh.
Then we would both laugh. Angeal would just look aside, still blushed.

But the way he'd stick to his belives even being mocked by us was impressive. It's almost as if he was trying to prove us something. What I knew was... he was in love.
And that.. made me want to belive on that feeling. Just once...

As our games and trainings went on, Genesis was seen ever cockier than before. He wanted more. More of our attention. More of my attention.
It didn't take much before things got physical.

- Shall we go to the training room as usual? - Genesis asked.
- Yes we shall. - I replied.
On our way there, the Training Room was occupied with the rotine tests. And they asked us if we minded being examined right away. We agreed to do it. As we were getting ready, Genesis brought up a strange subject.
- I bet you get all excited when you beat your own record. - Genesis smirked at me.
- I'm not the same as you.
Angeal laughed. You could see he was enjoying it.
- But be carefull, - I kept going. - don't get too excited or you won't be able to focus.
- I'd beat my own record even if I was "hard.
Those words made me wanna see it. I wanted to see him prove what he just said. And as in a way of mocking him, I moved my hand towards his crouch and touched him.
I began to move my fingers slowly through all of his member, never going inside his pants. Both Angeal and Genesis were shocked. But soon Genesis smirked.
- My, I didn't know you swing that way.
- I don't. I just enjoy your face when I tease you. - I smirked as well.
- Sephiroth, stop it! Someone might see it! - Angeal yelled.
Then a scientist came and I quickly removed my hand away from Genesis.
- Who would like to be first? - the scientist asked.
- Genesis does. - I answered, looking at Genesis. I wanted to see how he would react.
- No! I.. d..a..! Wait!
- Genesis it is. Come with us if you please.
He didn't say anything after. Just glared at me. And I couldn't help but to smirk.

Genesis failed the tests. But that never stopped him. He went there the next morning, beating his personal record. Then he came to me.

- You might find it funny, but I know you'd do the same if you were in my place.
- Go ahead and try. - I replied.
The light of curiosity on his eyes made him rush his hands to touch me. But he had no experience. None at all. You could tell by the harsh way he was moving his hand.
Or maybe he did it on purpose.
- I will make you.. so aroused that you won't be able to even fight!
- Hmpf. I seriously doubt it.

And I leaned over him and kissed his cheek. Confused, he blushed and turned himself away from me, with his hand on his cheek. After staring at me for a few minutes in silence, he walked away.

After that incident, Genesis kept trying to call for my attention. He would lick me, touch me, push me onto him. And Angeal... his expression kept frowning from day after day. He would no longer laugh nor even smile. But he didn't leave us either. It's like he wanted to say "I'm still here"
And I couldn't help but to feel guilty. Even so, after all that provoking, I wanted to humilliate Genesis. My sadist desise to mock him kept rising and rising.

- Sephiroth, you seem so hard today. Look at that. It's almost poping out of your pants. - he'd say, smirking.
- That's.. its real size.
- ... really? That big? You sure..? - smirking.
- If you wish, I'll show it to you. - smirking as well.
- Well then lets go.

Genesis grabbed my arm and pushed me. Angeal was left sitting right were he was. I wanted to go back and bring him along. But he didn't follow us. Neither did Genesis stop pushing me. We stopped on his room.
He made me sit and unziped my pants. It's like he was craving for it.

- Big indeed. - he said, holding my member on his hand.
Didn't take long for him to put it in his mouth. He was unexperienced indeed. But his confidence and his desire to do it guided him all the way through.
My sadist desire also came up, as I pushed his head against me. He coughed.
- Oh, too big perhaps? - I teased him.
- Nothing is too big for me.
And he kept going. And I kept pushing his head. He tried hard not to cough again. Then I took it out of his mouth and rubbed it on his lips.
- You sure wanted this for a long time, haven't you?
- You are the reason why I joined SOLDIER. - he answered, between licks.
- I am flattered. - teasing him a bit longer.

After a few minutes, we were both undressed and I was laying on top of Genesis, moving my hips against him. Genesis was moaning loudly.
But.. No matter how much I enjoyed that, I couldn't help but to feel miserable. For the man I really wanted was just outside the room...