This is also posted to my profile, but this is an authors note that must be read.
Important notice, 12/03/09:
It's the third of December.
Now that I've started cryptically, I'll just cut right to the main point. There's much debate over whether fanfiction aboutreal peopleis correct... morally and realistically. I've come to realize that I just can notwrite about hide anymore. I cannotwrite about Miyavi, or Sugizo, and definitely not Yoshiki in the way that I've been writing.
In ten days, on the 13th, I will be deleting many of the fanfiction I have posted. I will also be deleting it off of my computer. The fanfiction that will be deleted, is most importantly almost all of the explicit oneshots and the two main series that, at one time, I was very proud of: Forever Friends, Forever Love, and Hayashi Syndrome.
Miscast, Love Letter, and certain stories that are more neutral will stay.
I've been thinking for almost a year.That's because I've written this fanfiction with my heart, with my soul, and it's a definite part of my history and life. I wrote Forever Friends in practically a night of binge-writing. It was my first serious writing, the first writing that I truly put my love into, and the first time that I had ever felt so proud. It was a breakthrough in my life.
But, my feelings have changed now. It's not that I wish to erase the past, but because I don't want others to read this, ... pardon my language, shit.
This is my gift to hide on his birthday, 12/13, and it's the best I can do. If you truly love hide, you would understand at least slightly where I'm coming from at this point. I'm sure that he would have a smile, even if it was a small one, at this...
At one time, hide said something alike,'Why did they assume that I was a prostitute? Is it just because of my pink hair... merely because it was pink... Is that a way to think?'
-AI