Spencers POV
I feel so restless, I haven't had a good sleep in weeks. All I think about is her! Why is this happening to me? I'm so mad at myself for falling in love with her! Why couldn't I just fell in love with Carmen? Things would have been so easy then… guess my life is just fack up. I cant talk to Chelsea about my feeling because I don't want to be a nag, her life isn't that easy too.
Sometimes I feel like I'm a stalker, every day I go to her site to check what she is doing. I'm doing that now. Yesterday it was her birthday, she had a big party with all her friends and family, some people from the press were there to.
'Omg!' this cant be happening to me! She's getting married! I knew that she had a 'boyfriend', but she always said that it was only for the press. I have to talk to her! She needs to tell me the truth, is she even who she said she is? Was this even real?
She's online, let's see what she has to say
"spencer:" congrats on your upcoming bday and marriage... so what am i going to do? i'm going to party till i drop, i'm going to be fuckup and just to let you know its all because of you ^^ and why am i going to do that? because your still 24/7 on my mind and i want to forget about the last few months
i dont want to forget you i want to fuck my self up ^^
"Ashley:" what do you mean "fuck my self up"?
spencer: you know, the usual, alcohol, drugs, the wrong people.. I have to forget about you somehow
Ashley: you shouldn't do that! I told you that you hurt me and I bet now you're regretting doing that!
Spencer: of course I fucking regret it! But then I found out you're getting married to Aiden! So you lied to me! About everything!
Ashley: I never lied to you about my feeling, I never lied to you! Aiden is just for the press, but now I don't have a reason to say no to him because you broke my heart! I don't need this, good luck with you're life, and leave me the hell alone! You have no idea how much you have hurt me!
What have I done? I'm crying, I'm angry and I hate myself… I knew that she didn't love Aiden, nobody, not even a serial killer can lie that good about feelings. Why is she famous? It would be a lot easier if she wasn't.
I need to forget, I hope Glenn is home. Glenn is my older brother, he's a total pothead, sometimes I smoke with him.
3hours later
I'm in my room again, I feel so tired, I hope tomorrow brings some good news.