I wasn't going to continue this, but since a few people wanted it to continue I decided to add more. I'm not sure what I'll being doing, so I'm really just making it up as I go. Chapter 3 if anyone is interested will be up either tonight or tomorrow.

When I woke up there were several people hovering over me. I could tell by the bland room we were in a hospital. A flash of slitting my own throat zipped through my mind. I had killed myself. I vaguely remember Klaus's compulsions to change myself. "Elena!" I snap my head to the direction of the sound. "What?" I snapped back. "What the hell happened?" I shrug "Klaus happened." I twist my hand out of Stefan's grip and pushed Damon out of the way. I locked myself in the bathroom and ignored Bonnie and Caroline. I knew they could get in if they wanted, but I was hoping the locked door would signal I wanted to be alone. I watched my face change in the mirror. I wasn't a vampire yet and I wasn't sure if I would complete the process. I opened my mouth and examined my gums. They hurt and I knew my transition was beginning. The only thing I needed was human blood. Before I could continue to argue inside my mind on rather I should change or not I was overwhelmed with a memory. The one good side of transitioning… I would remember everything I was ever compelled to forget. This particular memory was one with Caroline.

We were sitting on my bed just talking away. She was telling me about what it was like to be a vampire. Caroline didn't have much of a filter, so she usually ended up saying pretty offensive things. Things such as I wouldn't work as a vampire because I'm not strong enough or how I don't deserve Stefan. I open my eyes and look back into the mirror at me. It was nice to have all the blank holes I didn't know I was missing filled. I walk out of the bathroom and look at the four worried faces before me. There was really no one person in that room I trusted. "I'm leaving. No one follow me… I'll be fine on my own. I'll return before my time is up." I started to walk out of the room, but Damon stopped me. "What do you mean? You're not going to turn?" I lock eyes with him "Of all the people in this room… you should understand that this it is my choice." He clenches his jaw, but he has no argument.

I find myself walking towards my school. I had just made it to the football field when another memory flashed into my head. This one was also with Caroline. This memory hurt more than the last one to remember. She had admitted to me that she was falling for Stefan. Why hadn't I ever noticed that before? Now, as I reflected back I could see the way she looked at him, I could feel deep down that she cared about him more than I did. It hurt, but maybe she was better for him. The more I thought about it the more I could see the two of them together. I could see why she fell for him. He was there when she needed him most… and when I needed Stefan the most he was… well maybe I was better off without Stefan as well. Maybe some people just didn't belong together… as the thought raced through my mind I was hit with another memory.

This one was with Damon. We were in my room… it was right after I had been kidnapped and encountered one of the Originals. He had my necklace… he confessed his feelings for me. Could any vampire just be honest without having to compel the honesty away? There was a very real chance that I could love Damon. He was everything Stefan wasn't. Before I could think more on that I was hit with another memory. What was the actual point of vervain? This one was with Elijah. It was a message of sorts; he said "When you turn into a vampire, and I do mean when because let's face it you are a walking victim, I want you to contact me. You'll know why when you do."

After that memory I felt dizzy and sick to my stomach. I felt the urge to lay down and just sleep. At first I thought maybe it was from remembering everything I had been forced to forget, but then it dawned on me. It was because I was dying. I had decided not to drink human blood and I was paying the price of that decision.

Though my head felt like a hundred pounds I began to act on what Elijah wanted me to do. I called and he answered after the 2nd ring. "Hello?" came his silky voice "You wanted me to contact you if I ever started to become a vampire." There was only a slight pause before he responded "Where are you?"