Its is now July 13th. I have 1 year of school left but the highlight of this year already would be that i got voted over Kelly to become the Mission's Vice President. Now she is assistant President. Over the year since he left I've actually started a carrier. Im a singer. Not world wide known yet but I've rapped in some songs and did a duet with the amazing Rikki Martin. Plus acting in Music videos. Just these little things earned me a lot of money plus fame at my school. And Yes! With the money i have updated my wardrobe but doing that didn't even spend half my money. Thats how big i earned it.

Gina is actually here in Carmel. Not visiting me nor Sleepy but here on holiday with her family. Its school break back in New York and her dad got a humongous raise so he's treating his family by traveling. 1 of the places being here in California. Gina's family has decided to stay at the Pebble Bech Hotel Resort but just for 2 weeks.

Me, i still haven't forgotten Jesse. But i still cant believe he left. I told the guy i LOVED him and he just leaves. When it was 3 months by i was getting worried that Paul had done something to Jesse and i even went over to his and gave him a good punch breaking his nose. Worth nothing cause he swore he didn't do anything. Finally Father Dom had told me that Jesse has not moved on but he is still living at the rectory. That got me pissed. Its like he was scared to face me, or maybe he just didn't want to embarrass me by saying 'I do not love you Susannah'. That would be whole lot better than him personally ignoring me for a year thinking it will do me good if i dated Alive guys. Well i still hasn't. Sort of. I did go out with one of the new kids 'Tad Beautmount' and he was a real sweetheart not to mention RICH. You should have seen his house its like 10X bigger than the Queen of England's place. His life aint all goody goods, i heard his father was sick and had to have special care like Dr Slaski. We went on 2 dates but there was nothing that we really had in common so we stopped going out but hes a great friend and we talk occasionally. Speaking of great friends where is that Bugga Matt. Matt like i also mentioned is great guy. After his ex girlfriend problem he still hasnt moved on but he hangs around with me alot. Hes like the brother i never had, taking stuff, actually helping me unlike some Step- Brothers and when i cried at night about Jesse he would be there. He knows all about what happened with Jesse and he only met him once.

Back to reality now. We have only acouple of days till school left and i just got home. Hes usually in my room when i get home from school watching tv, reading one of my books or occasionally waiting to scare me. I opened my door but my room was empty with no ghostly presence. I shrugged it off and went into the bathroom to change into my legging jesns and a black tank. Jesse may be gone but i never know when Matt will pop up. Looking in the mirror to see my finishing product AKA lipgloss, eyeshadow and eyeliner.

"Ello-"

"AH" Matt dematerialzed in the reflection of my mirror behind me. I jumped out of my skin. Since i havent had many ghost clients lately as Matt likes to call them i have forgotton how they tend to pop up and can scare the living crap out of you. He started laughing uncontrolably rolling on the floor like an immature child. Once i caught my breath i realised it was actually funny. I must of looked priceless to him as i am not an easy person to scare. "Matt! you asshole"

He stopped laughing. His blonde hair gotten messy and his shirt was ruffled reavleing his surf boy abbs. "Whoa Suze, that was a once in a life time offer to see you scared like that". I hit him playfully on his shoulder a bit harder than needed and walked out into my room. "What is that my gift? I saw Death flash before my eyes". I sarcastically put my hand on forehead and made it look like i was about to faint. He brings out the child in me.

"Nah sorry to dissappoint you." he hugged me. Harder than necessary but i guess thats pay back from the punch i gave him. "Happy Birthday!". Did i mention that I turned 17 today. It was a super day. Calls non stop this morning and walking into home room the room was all made up obviously decorated by Kelly and Debbie. It was still nice of them considering i kicked Kelly's butt off the Vice President chair.

"Thank you"

Matt let go, leaving me to try and breath through my crushed lungs at last. I watched him curiously as he picked up an envolope i must of missed when i walked in and handed it to me. It was stylish. The envolope paper was a shiny gold with outlined silver curved edges. I looked at Will expectantly but he just shrugged his shoulders. I wonder who its from. Probably Kelly to another one of her Pool Parties that in no way involve swimming. Across the fron was a silver chain. Must be a new style eh. No fan of mine. I turned it over.

"Oh my".

It was beautiful. The chain was apart of a beautiful necklace. But not just any necklace a diamond choker/collar necklace. These things cost thousands. Kelly's dad is rich but not as much to give a stranger a priceless necklace. It must be the wrong address. But my name was on the back in fancing writing.

*Whistle*

I opened it. Reveling a flat cream coloured paper. With the words Party on the top in pure gold writing.

I read " Susannah Simon you are invited to the once in a life time end of year party at Tad Beautmonts. July 14th at 7 to 12pm. See you there.".

Matt whistled again. "Must be rich to give out party favours like that."

"Yeah his dad is a millionaire"

*Bring Bring*

The phone started ringing. "Hello?" I awnsered.

"Happy Birthday Babe!"

"Hey Gina thanks. Whats up?". I heard a cough. Matt looked at me and mouthed her name 'Gina' i nodded.

"What cant i invite my bestfriend to go to mall with me on her special day"

"Of course you can. Ill also call Cee Cee and be right there".

"You do that". I hung up. Gina and Cee Cee are total oppisites but they still get along and both have fashion sense when it comes to me and my clothes.

I rung Cee Cee and she assured me she will be there. Once i finished up with her i put the phone in its cradle and turned to Matt. "Im going to the mall with Gina and Cee Cee in acouple of minutes".

He smiled his devilish smile. "Gina's the hot one right".

I picked up one of my pink fluffy pillows on my bed and hit him on the face. "Thats my friend your speaking of who.. guess what cant see you".

Using his ghost abilities a pillow came flying my way and since i was sitting cross legged on the bed i fell on top of him causing me to giggle in a fit of laughter. However i stopped short as Matt said "I can sense a presense coming. You got another client". Matt acts like hes a mediator too. Helping the dead move on like me when he is the one i should be helping. Sometimes i think ive created a monster child. A faint blue glow to started to materialze above my window seat. As it cleared up Matt started his every-ghost speech "Ok state you name and dea-"

"Susannah?"

Jesse. It was Jesse. Nerve on him showing up after he left me a year ago. As much as i would want to run up to him and hug him tight. I knew he would just disappear and i would be giving in to easily.

"Jesse". There was silence. Matt was still on the ground and i was lying on my bed with my head hanging down the side. The pink pillow was in the air. I straightned up same as Matt who introduced himself. "Hey im Matt. Not sure if you remember me?".

"I do. Your still here?". His expression was blank. I missed hearing his voice everyday. Getting lost in those dark pools in his eyes. Matt leened against the wall with arms crossed glaring at Jesse.

"Yeah i am. Thought I'de stick around with Suze". Jesse looked at me questionably. I just shrugged my shoulders and swallowed. "What are you doing here Jesse?" I think thats a FAIL on sounding confident. He smiled up at me.

"Happy Birthday Querida"

I was shocked. Matt -being with me for a year- stepped away one step. He knew i was upset about Jesse leaving and i made him swore that if he ever saw Jesse he wouldnt do anything.

"Thank you but... WHAT THE HELL JESSE!". I burst. And i mean i bursts. I could hear an avalanche forming in Alaska! Jesse seemed ataken back by my sudden outburst.

"You've been gone a year Jesse. A YEAR. I thought you were exorcised, moved on or Paul did something for God's sake. But no. Father Dom had to tell me that were hiding away in the rectory. Ive called you when ive needed your help the most but now ive learnt i cant rely on you. And now a year later you just pop up on a special occasion acting calm like nothing happened. Why Jesse?!".

"Susannah" he had a look of hurt in his eyes. How is hurt, im not the one who dissappearsd for a year. His voice was stern though "You needed to realise that... That you cant love the dead. You need to be with someone alive. Someone who your parents can see, who you can grow old with.".

I sighed "I dont want to be with just any body. You told me you loved me. What happened to that Jesse?"

I felt tears starting to run down my cheek. Boys are frustrating. One minute Jesse finally claims his love for me and even kisses me then he goes and leaves for a year saying, and i quote 'it was a mistake'

I looked down to floor. I couldnt meet his gaze. Just remembering about Matt i looked at the wall he was leening on but he was no where in my sight. Jesse sighed and with a shimmer i felt his presence disappear. Coward