DISCLAIMER: I DON'T CLAIM ANY OWNERSHIP OF COWBOY BEBOP OR PAGODA SO DON'T SUE ME!

PT: Lesson learned.

I don't want to be you,

I just want you to hear what I say.

I don't want to see you,

I just need you near.

-Pagoda

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The blood rushed normally through my body; I was feeling like my old self again. I felt the coldness of the water but decided to wash my hair anyway and felt the brain freeze it gave me but it seemed some how fitting to how I was feeling at the moment. I was still stuck on his words and was feeling mine own words chocking me and I let them. I got out of the bathroom after brushing the stale taste out of my mouth away and used a shirt of spike that he had left there days before. I walked back to my room where I was surprised to see him sitting on the bed. I smiled at him shyly and he responded in the same manner. He opened is mouth to speak but I shook my head and stopped him.

"I love you, which is the excuse for any and every one of my actions. That is why I couldn't see why I was blinded from seeing your true intentions and why I do everything I do and why I'm not embarrassed to scream your name out when we fuck because I want to be yours and only ask that you give yourself to me in return, you at least from what I know have earn that much,"

He pulled me by his shirt onto his lap and crushed his lips on mine and I answered every question his lips asked as he rolled me on the bed and in a couple of swift movement we where both striped of the little clothes we had on and where drinking each other in. He broke away from my lips and made fiery trials from my throat to my stomach and back again, smiling against my skins at my sharp inhales as he found all my sensitive spots and when the inhales turned to full on moans he entered me. I screamed against his shoulder and torn up his back as he repeated my name like a prayer. He pushed me over the edge along with him and I screamed out his name while the waves crashed down on me and he bit on my lips as he fought for the control that never comes.

After our breathes returned to normal Spike brought the covers over us and laid beside me with is arm across my stomach and his head on my shoulder.

"What did you remember when you got your memories back?" he asked, his breath brushing against my neck.

"The first thing I remembered was the way I used to run up the hill to where my house was, I remembered it was a big mansion and my room was one the first floor all the way towards the back and I could see the ocean from my bedroom window, but when I get there it was nothing but ruins. I have relied on my memories to take me back to the place I belong but I had already found somewhere to call home so everything else was a lie. I wasn't that spoiled little rich girl anymore," his hand rubbed the side of my hip as I spoke and his lips left butterfly kisses all over my neck, I knew this is where I belonged.

"I told you that the past didn't matter." he smiled against my skin.

"I know that now," he turned my face towards his.

"I love you, Faye." I beamed.

"About damn time," we both laughed and he reached down and kissed me passionately.

"I'm fucking starving," Spike got up put his training sweat pants on and threw a pair of clean boxers at me and a tank top.

"These are your clothes,"

"Well you don't own anything clean at the moment so be happy." I smiled.

"I will be once you feed me."

"I thought you were cooking?"

"What? I can't cook for shit you know that!" he laughed at me.

"Didn't your mother ever tell you that you had to learn how to cook for your husband when you get married?"

"Nope, she always said to marry into money."

We both laughed and headed for the kitchen and I watched as Spike made lunch. We sat down in the living room to eat and we laughed and joked about each other then the transmission started cracking and we saw Jet's face on the screen.

"Hey Jet, How's the weather in Ganymede?" Spike asked.

"Can complain, how's the ship and Faye doing?"

"Good, good. Faye was sick but she's ok now."

"Hey Jet!" I got into his viewing range.

"I'm surprised the ship is still in one piece." We all laughed.

"Yeah, it still standing for the time being. When are you coming back?"

"That was the reason I called, I think I'm staying here a little while longer I really missed the place and got to see a whole bunch of my old buddies."

"What's her name?" I asked and he blushed.

"What do you mean?"

"Nothing could make you want to stay home more that a beautiful girl that's waiting for you." Spike laughed and agreed.

"Miranda, I known her for some time, she's actually the one I'm staying with." I smiled.

"All the more power to you, Jet you come back when you want to Faye and I have things under control here."

"Ok, I'll be there in a couple of days so don't miss me or my cooking too much."

"We'll survive," we both said at the same time.

"And one more thing, don't have sex on the couch, I mean it!"

"OK, ok we won't." With that and a smile the screen turned black.

I turned and looked at Spike, who had moved to the other couch while I was speaking to Jet. Walked over and sat on his lap bringing my legs to either side of him. He brought his arms up to my back and moved his hands in small circles. I pouted my lips and he raised his eye brow.

"What's wrong?"

"Everyone's leaving." I wined.

"I really don't see how that's a bad thing." he reached his hand up and played with my violet locks that have grown past my shoulders and have been too lazy to cut.

"Well but I feel like you guys are my family and with everyone leaving making their own way I kind of feel incomplete."

"I think I get what you mean, sometimes I do miss the kid and the mutt, and they really livened up the place."

"Well I don't know about you but I really need to get my clothes washed 'cause I don't want to go around wearing your clothes."

"So you're finally going to wash your clothes?"

"Yeah and you're going to help me, right?" I batted my eyes and pouted my lips and all he did was roll his eyes and pick me up and headed for the laundry room.

It's been almost four months since that week and after that Spike had moved in all his stuff into my room after I complained that he didn't have the biggest closet space and Jet brought over his wonderful Miranda to live with us and we all got along without a hitch though I would get bored and start an argument with Spike that would not always go my way but always ended in make-up sex. Then one day I started noticing some strange things.

"Does my hair look fuller to you?" I asked Spike as I stared at myself at the full length mirror that was behind the closet door.

"What do you mean?" he looked up from the magazine he had in his hand.

"I know my hairs gotten ridiculously long but I thing it looks like I have more of it now."

"I really can't tell but it is very shiny and healthy looking you don't have those spit ends anymore." I dropped my jaw and looked around to find the closest thing to me that I could throw at him. All I saw was a small stuffed animal he got for me when we went to Venus.

"You ANIMAL! Just say I look like I gained weight too you asshole!"

"Well…" he laughed it up.

"Oh my gosh!" I was seeing red while he was just there laughing is ass off and then everything turned black.

First thing I noticed was the beeping. Where was I? I opened my eyes and saw Spike.

"Hey,"

"Hey yourself, where the hell am I?"

"In a hospital." He moved next to me from the chair he was sitting in on the foot of the bed.

"Why the hell am I in a hospital?"

"I kind of overreacted when you didn't wake up right away. Since the hospital was close to where we were docked, I brought you over."

"Idiot," I said and smiled.

"I am,"

"Whoa, why are you not snapping back at me?"

"I have to treat you nicer from now on."

"Why? Am I dying?" I joked and he frowned.

"Well the doctors examined you while you were out, and you actually didn't pass out like I thought you did you kind of collapsed from exhaustion. So basically you fell asleep, and turns out you've been pushing yourself too hard and not getting enough vitamins in your system."

"That weird, that never happened to me before, did they figure out why that was happening?"

"Yeah they did…"

"So is it good or bad or what?"

"It's unexpected if anything?"

"I don't get it, you've lost me."

"You are 3 in a half months pregnant."

"WHAT?" My mouth stayed open, and all he did was have that stupid goofy smile on his face.

"Are you sure this isn't some kind of sick sadistic joke?" he started laughing and I was getting mad.

"Nope, here see for yourself." He reached into is jacket pocket and took out some pictures and gave them to me, they were pictures from the ultra sound.

"Oh my gosh," I could see the little bean in the middle moving slightly on every picture and right there it hit me and the tears started falling. I looked up at Spike, whose eyes still had a hint of red in them telling me that he had already done his crying.

"They wanted to confirm the pregnancy to they wanted to do the ultra sound to check that everything was going fine, I wanted to wake you up but the doctor said that it was better if I let you have you're rest."

"Spike, we're going to really have a baby." I looked up wiping the tears from my eyes and smiled and he smiled back just as pleasantly surprised.

"I love you, Faye."

"Now you really have to." We laughed.

"Can I go home now? I hate hospital."

"Yep everything's ok to leave was just waiting for you to wake up." He helped me up and into my clothes and there was that I finally noticed the small bump on my belly and smiled as Spike rubbed it affectionately.

We walked hand in hand as we made our way but to the Bebop.

"I'm going to hate it when I get too fat and nothing fits me anymore and I get all big and hormonal." I laughed.

"But you'll still look beautiful if not more."

"Ugh, I'm getting tired of your nice attitude fast! I'm pregnant not glass."

"Fine then I'll try to be mean to the woman that's having my child." I rolled my eyes.

"Please, 'because you know that I'm just going to get bitchier and bitchier." We both laughed.

"I can't wait till then."

"What do you think it is?"

"Umm I don't know it's too early to tell but I hope it's a girl, we don't need another one of me walking around." He laughed.

"I hope it's a boy then, just to level the playing field,"

"We're not betting on it if that's where you're going with it." I laughed, he caught me.

"If it's a girl can we name her Ed?" the truth is that I really did miss her but ever since she went off on her own we haven't so much as see her little hacker smiley face. I guess she picked us out to begin with only she could make her way back.

"Whatever," we smiled and then I yawned.

"I'm tired; let me ride on your back."

"Oh hell no! So you could break my back." I tried hitting him but he just moved and laughed but eventually got down in front of me and I climbed on. I looked up and saw how red the sun set was getting.

"Wow, look at that sunset."

"Yeah, never seen one so blood red from down here, guess there's a time for everything."

"Yep," with that we silently made our way back home, knowing that everything from now one would never be the same again.

FIN

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AN: Well, lads what did you think? It like whatever, I wanted to do a one shot in Faye's POV so there you have it. I did something it I never did before and probably won't do again (nothing's written in stone) and that is that I included some lyrics in this fic. The first part had a line off of Hey you by the great Pink Floyd and this one had a line from a very good and somewhat underground band named Pagoda's Lesson learned. (The lead singer is Michael Pitt the actor!) So thanks a million and see ya'll later!