Left behind

Disclaimer: I don't own teen titans or Tokyo ghoul

Spring, it seemed queer to him how such a normal time could cause so much trouble, especially when you are green, with pointy ears, teenage, and above all horny. Beast-boy considered himself lucky about his powers since they saved his life countless times, allowed him to meet his friends and family, he was rather fond of all he had received, but the instincts were not all that pleasant, the most troublesome was the sex drive.
Like a normal teen he had urges but the amount was not normal, it was ruled by the seasons well more like one season the mating season, in times like this he struggled not to jump to his love and engage intercourse, in all truth he would have preferred if his mate knew about his need, screw that his feelings would've been good. Yes, Beast-boy had a crush.
Normally when he wanted the attention of a female he would show off his trait fang pointy ears a great smile and do something funny, the ladies seemed to like him, but this one girl wouldn't laugh no matter what, to her he was nothing but a cooky brat that was in need of attention, a bothersome small brother who tried his best to make her smile and succeeded in getting her pissed, although she knew he was a friend she could trust her life to, so he did not give up.
Time passed merciless as always the Titans became not so teen seeking for new frontiers to cross, this brought new people, especially new relationships, almost all the Titans were in a courtship mostly with other Titans, that sadden the green teen but he had lots of hope left after all she was the same no boyfriend or any other form of courtship for the matter. How blissful it was to imagine him and her together with her smile at him at all times how wonderful, but he could not do it, state his feelings for her, after all he did not have a chance. Whenever he approached her he was insulted, pushed away, threatened to be sent to another dimension or plainly ignored.
This spring was different he was prepared he would tell her even if it meant to be despised by her, he could not hold it in any longer, longing for her, searching her voice, craving her company even her nasty remarks he was driven insane by her existence. It hurt him to breath her aroma, but not as much as being in some place without it. This was impossible to maintain he had to do it and suffer the consequences (which ever they may be) it no longer was a matter of affection it was of survival and decency.
His window was the Titans party celebrated every may, he selected this particular time since it was easy to go unnoticed and Raven seemed to be more approachable during this celebration, he prepared everything before hand, this time he would not screw up. He gathered his confidence to reach her as he woke up it was today "Well, let's do this, today my life is going to change," he said, although he didn't know how right he was about that.

The party

Like every year the tower was full with Titans from all over the world so full it was difficult to walk yet they all managed he was, as always, playing the jokester everyone knew, but this time he was waiting like a hunter for the proper moment to strike. After a while he realized the absence of his loved one so he slipped away from the crowd and started his search for her until he came to the rooftop he stopped inches from the door. She wasn't alone.
"How long do we keep meeting secretly?" said aqua-lad much to his surprise his girlfriend gave him a small frown an answered "Just for a little longer and I'll be able to prove that our relation doesn't affect my powers" he gave her a weary smile while she leaned in and kissed him. The pair of lovers drowned in their kiss so much that everything else disappeared from their sight while their senses numbed to the touch of the loved one, slowly melting them into a single though a single feeling.
So caught, they were by their make out season they never heard the loud noise the door made as someone collapsed against it, nor the empath felt a swirl of emotions that the falling person, let escape for a fraction of second to latter be silenced forever, yet one person on the roof did notice.

Beast-boy P.O.V

While I stood there my enhanced senses picked up the arousal of the pair, the pheromones, endorphins, and other stuff that could tell you just how much they enjoyed the whole act and how much they loved each other. Deep within me I've always known how much it hurt to lose what you care most for to another, yet this hit me where it hurt most, I had been fighting a lost war for a long time and I did not even notice when it started.
For a long time I've held my feelings since I believed that the girl I craved for was out of reach and no matter how much I stretched my arm it wouldn't be able to touch her, but until today I didn't notice how far she really was, just at that instant I could realize the feelings all fanboys have for their idols, you may be in the first row, yet that won't mean she'll notice you, smile at you, or even know that you exist. Everything is one sided and no matter what the wall that separates you is unmoved by how much you feel.
There was nothing left once again I hid and ran away. I was of no importance to the one that my heart won't forget. At that moment I wasn't sad, after all, if I did she would notice, in all the years I've been with her thought me how to make my feelings fade away so that she wouldn't know, like that I've protected myself and her from all harm.
I went downstairs and resumed my work of making everyone happy, how couldn't I? The clown's job never ends as long as there's someone to make happy our job does not end, even if you are being torn apart you forget everything and smile until that time comes and you pass away. Simple isn't it, smile even if the whole world is against you, that's all you have.
When the party was finally over and all the other Titans left, the Titans west were so tired they decided to leave cleaning for tomorrow, following the script I made some jokes that left all a bit annoyed and went to my room, although I won't be getting any sleep tonight. When I got there I packed my things cleaned up picked the stuff that could blow my cover like my books (yeah, I read books), the only photo of my parents, the diary and some clothes, put them in a bag, and then write the goodbye letter.
Dear friends For a long time now there's been a lot on my plate and frankly I can't keep this up, so I'm going on a long vacation don't know how long I'm not even sure I'll return but it is necessary since I've begun to lose sight of who I am. I'll try to keep in touch, but god knows where I'll be so you may not reach me. Hope we meet again some other time dudes. Beast-boy
Dead surely is one of the weirdest dudes there is out there, you know about him since you have understanding, yet you never get to meet him face to face, but when the time comes all he does is to knock on your door and reach out his hand. That night he stopped by mine and all I could do was to take his hand and pass away smiling like the fool I've always been.