AN: I own nothing, Richelle Mead owns everything.

This is probably going to be a long chapter, but I want to tell it all without splitting it up. I hope you like it.

Chapter 2

Two weeks earlier.

Adrian and Dimitri were the main issue for me now. Dimitri had gone to Russia to spend some time with his family and try to get his head strait. He had had a lot of confusion since being back from being a Strigoi. Upon his return he sought me out and explained that he had a long way to go to forgive himself for what he had done to me when he was Strigoi, but that he could no longer deny his feelings for me. He professed his love for me, saying that he loved me more than anything or anyone and knew we were meant to be together. I knew I loved him, I always would, but I was with Adrian and loved him as well. Adrian had been with me since Dimitri had been turned. He stood by me with no expectations. He never denied his feelings for me and didn't care what anyone thought. I had found through my time with him what a wonderful man he truly was. I had fallen in love with him and I wasn't sure I could live without him. But could I live without Dimitri?

When Dimitri had confessed his feelings I immediately went to Lissa and told her. There were mixed emotions coming through the bond as I told her. Happiness, confusion, relief, sadness. She was also concerned about Adrian and where this all leaves him. She knew that I loved him, but she also knew how I felt about Dimitri.

"Where does this leave Adrian?" she asked in a small voice. I couldn't blame her for thinking I would just leave him and run to Dimitri.

I let out a small laugh. "What do you mean?" I asked as innocently as I could.

"Well, you love Dimitri more than anything, right? It's going to break Adrian's heart, but I want you to be happy. That's all that really matters here." Sometimes I wish the bond worked both ways so she could see how I was feeling.

I took her hand, and looked strait in her eyes. "I do love Dimitri. He was my first love, my first everything. But I love Adrian too. I am not sure I can live without him. I need to figure out who I want to spend the rest of my life with."

"Well, then you need to make a decision, and you need to talk to both of them." She said this as she sent loving thoughts through the bond.

"Can't you do it for me?" I said with a smile.

She smacked me on the shoulder, "No, I can't do it for you. You need to listen to your heart. I think you should put your relationship on hold until you have a sound decision. And unfortunately for you, you need to do it soon."

"I know. I'll do it today." I got up and waked to her door. I turned and looked at her, she came and gave me a hug.

"It will be okay. It will all work out. If you need me, just call. And be sure to call me as soon as you have talked to them both." She smiled.

"Thanks, I love you Liss. I will call you when I am done." With that I turned and walked back to my room.

I called Adrian and asked him to meet me. "Adrian, could you come to my room in about 30 minutes? I have something I need to talk to you about."

"Sure, should I wear anything special?" I could hear that sly smile he gets when he is trying to be seductive.

I laughed. "No, just come over. I just need to talk to you."

"Okay, I'll be there in 30."

I hung up and sighed. How was I going to do this? I went into my bathroom, washed my face, brushed my hair back into a ponytail and decided to change clothes. I changed into a pair of blue jeans and a pink tank top. I at least wanted to be comfortably dressed. I walked into the kitchen and made some tea while I waited. I put on my slippers and went to my over sized chair and plopped down. I was sipping my tea and felt Lissa trying to send me comforting feelings through the bond. I should have made a charm for you. It may have made this easier. I picked up my cell and sent her a text. It's okay. I will be fine. Suddenly there was a knock at my door. I looked at the clock, always right on time. I went over and opened the door. Adrian stood there and gazed at me. He had on dark Armani Jeans and a deep purple fitted thermal. For a Moroi he was built fairly well. His hair was perfectly messy and his eyes were a beautiful green. They sparkled. The purple shirt helped them pop.

He smiled at me, although it didn't quite touch his eyes. He knew something was wrong. He always could tell when something was bothering me. "Little Dhampir. Are you going to let me in?" I smiled back and stepped to the side. He put his hand on my hip and looked into my eyes with so much compassion. "Why so serious? I know you have lots to tell me. Lets sit." He took my hand and led me to the chair. He sat down and pulled me with him. I laid my head on his shoulder and could smell his cologne. I inhaled deeply not ever wanting to forget his sent.

"Adrian, you know I love you, right?" "Mm Hmm" was his only reply. "Well, I want to be honest with you and not keep anything from you." There was silence and I knew he wanted me to continue. "Dimitri came to see me yesterday after he got back." I felt him tense at those words, but he remained silent. "He told me he loves me and wants to be with me. He says he is sorry for everything he did." I wasn't sure what else to say at that point.

"Rose, what do you want? I love you more than anything. I would do anything, give up anything for you. I know you love me. But I also know you love him too. That is a part of you. It pisses me off that he would do this, but who can blame him? You are an amazing, wonderful woman. Anyone would be lucky to have you. I want you to be happy. What do you want to do?" I could tell he knew this was coming. Something in his voice gave it away. There was no accusatory tone, he was just concerned about me, and really did want to know what I wanted.

"I do love him. He has been a big part of my life, my being. But, I love you too. I don't know that I can live without you." I felt excitement radiate off of him as I said that last part. "But, I don't know if I can live without him either. I think I need some time. Time to figure out who it is I belong with. And when I decide, I plan on being with that man forever."

I looked up into his eyes and saw the hurt I had just caused. I felt horrible, but I had to do this. "Adrian, I know how much this hurts. My heart is breaking. But I have to do this. If I don't I will always wonder 'What if' and that's not fair to any of us. No matter who I say good bye to, my heart will break, but we will all know that I will be 100% committed to my decision."

Adrian was silent for a while. He held my hand and drew circles on my wrist with his thumb. Suddenly, I heard him take a breath and he opened his mouth. "Okay, Rose. My turn. I know and understand what you are saying. I will completely support you in what ever you decide. Your happiness is all that matters to me. I'd hoped it wouldn't be an issue, that you would know you love me more, but I do understand and I have complete confidence in you. I want you to be completely with me and only me. I hope I don't have to stay away while you make this decision."

I laughed at that. "Of course not. I couldn't make this decision without you being around."

He started to move and I knew he needed to get up. I jumped up, but as he stood he grabbed my hand and pulled me to him. With his lips only inches from mine, and that familiar slow burn I always got when he kissed me, he whispered, "I love you my Little Dhampir. I won't give up until you make your mind up. I will wait for you for all eternity if that is how long you need." With that he crashed his lips to mine and kissed me in a way I never thought possible. Hot, intense, wanting, needing, loving. It was all wrapped up in that one kiss. The fire slowly burned from every nerve in my body. We pulled away breathless. He gave me another, softer, more gentle kiss and looked into my eyes. "Don't forget about me, Little Dhampir." With that he walked out the door.

I put my hand, palm flat on the door. "Oh Adrian, how could I ever forget you?" I whispered.

The next thing I did was call Dimitri. "Belikov" he answered. "Dimitri, it's me Rose. I need you to stop by for a few minutes. Do you have time?" There was a pause and then he responded. "Sure, Give me ten minutes?" "Sure, I'll see you in ten then." I hung up. I had rested my head on the back of the chair while I waited. How do I get myself into these situations? I have two men that I love and that love me back. Some girls would give anything to have that problem. But now, I have to choose between them. How am I ever going to do that? Make pro's and con's list? Do like the TV shows? Date them both then offer them a rose to signify my love? No, I couldn't do either one of those things. I was brought back by a light knocking at the door.

I opened the door. "Dimitri" He looked at me and smiled. "Roza" He came in and went to the couch. He looked amazing. Black jeans, white t-shirt and of course his long brown duster. His hair was pulled back at the nape of his neck, and his eyes were fixed on me. I went to sit in my chair and noticed I could still smell Adrian. All of a sudden my phone vibrated. I looked at Dimitri apologetically. "Go ahead, get it. I have all day." He said with a slight smile.

It was a text from Lissa. What's up? Adrian's here. Call me. I sent a text back. Talking with Dimitri, will call when he leaves. Sorry.

"Okay, sorry, that was Lissa." I smiled sheepishly. "That's okay. What's up?" He knew I wanted to talk. "Well, I have decided that I need to take some time to choose between you and Adrian." I could see the jealousy rise in his eyes. "I know this wont be easy on either of you, but I love you both and in order to be fair, I need some time to decide who I spend the rest of my life with. I want to be sure I can be 100% committed to that person with no questions. I am sorry if I have hurt you, but I have to do this. For myself."

Dimitri just sat there, staring at the floor. He had his elbows on his thighs with his hands folded in the middle. He looked up at me slowly. "I do understand. I want you with me completely. I don't want to wait, but for you I will."

Great, both of them so confident I would pick them. Dimitri didn't go into as much detail as Adrian, but then, he never was one for a lot a words. "Thank you. I will try and not drag this out too long." I said as he rose and made his way to the door. I was behind him and he suddenly spun, put his hand around my waist and kissed me tenderly. Electricity shot through me. It wasn't like the slow burn I always got from Adrian. He broke the kiss, as usual, and said against my lips, "I will be waiting, my Roza." With that he walked out the door.

I leaned my back against the door and slid down to the floor. I realized I had my phone in my hand so I called Lissa. "Hello?" Lissa said. "Lissa, get over here. Now. And bring Christian but no one else." "On our way as we speak."