Disclaimer: I will do this once. I don't own any of the twilgiht characters or the story. All credit goes to SM. I'm simply writing how I think things could have gone.

Edward held me tighter to his chest keeping me in his warm embrace. He stroked my hair with love and affection I had only dreamed about in the past monthes. I smiled into his soft shirt and was the happiest girl ever. I sighed in total contentment.

"Bella!" That wasn't Edward's voice. "Bella, dammit!" The voice was husky and urgent. It was the voice of one Jacob Black. "Bella, come back to me!"

"No!" I wanted to scream. But instead I held on tighter to my Edward not willing to let go. No, I won't go back.

"Please, Bella, don't do this!" Jake pleaded. His voice was pulling me back to reality. But I was stubborn and refused. I gripped Edward's chest for dear life as I felt myself being sucked back into the hole called life.

I used all of my strength and stayed next to my love, my life, in our dreamy meadow. His hands held my face and his eyes dove into mine. "Sweet, sweet, Bella." He murmered.

I heard an angry roar and a sweet, bell like voice that sounded almost scary. "What have you done! Get away from her!" Alice! "Bella! Bella, can you hear me! Please, talk to me!" She pleaded. She wanted me to come back to the world with no Edward. I wouldn't. I would stay here with my love.

I tuned them all out and only concentrated on Edward's sweet, silky voice. "Bella. My Bella. My life!"

We stayed there wrapped in each other's arms without a care in the world. I was perfectly content in where I was. Yes, I knew it was not real. I knew that Edward didn't really want me and that this was only in my mind. But if I couldn't be dead then I would refuse to go back to a life with out him.

A heard distant voices and strained to hear them. "Jazzy, is she feeling anything?"

An exhasperated sigh. "Nothing. . . wait! She's slightly excited. She can hear us!" Jasper! Alice! They are here!

"Can we bring her back?" Said Alice in a troubled voice.

Another long sigh. "I don't know. She is content in where she is."

"Should we call everyone else?" Alice questioned.

"Carlisle and Esme maybe. But not Edward. And not Rosalie and Emmet. You know those two can't keep their mouths shut."

She giggled slightly and then was silent for a moment. Probably seeing a vision. "They'll want to come here."

"I figured they would. But, maybe it'll get her to come back." I heard very quiet footsteps and knew Alice must have left.

Then I heard Jasper's voice closer to me. "Bella, I know you can hear me. Please come back, for Edward's sake." Edward!

Edward! But, no not for Edward. He didn't want me. He doesn't love me. I'll just stay right here with the Edward that does love me.

I floated away and no longer heard the voices. I concentrated soley on the angel in my arms. He carressed me and whispered soothing words to me. He told how much he loved me and wanted me over and over again.

The sun shown bright over head of us and his skin glittered like a beautiful gem. A beautiful gem with loving arms that were wrapped securely around me.

I heard more voices. Another man with a soft and authorative tone. Carlisle. And then the sweetest of voices whispering in the most loveing of tones. But I pushed them away they couldn't bring me away from my Edward again.

Then Edward leaned closer to my ear and whispered, "I love you, Bella. I'll never leave you." Anger and hurt rose in me. But he did leave me. This wasn't real. Edward would never, ever say that to me! He wasn't mine and I was kidding myself into believing that a mirage in my head could ever substitute for the real him.

I knew then that I couldn't stay here with this fake Edward. I pulled myself from his arms and started to run away from him. "Bella, wait! I love you!" He yelled after me. But that's just what I wanted him to say. I ran until everything started to turn white and dissapear. Everything faded into nothing and then total blackness.

I heard Alice's sweet sigh of relief and Jasper's accompanied with it.

"She's back!" They said together.

My eyes fluttered open and I saw the beautiful faces of Jasper and Alice. They smiled at me in encouragement and. . . pity. I could see the pity in their faces. I didn't want their pity. Anger rose in me.

I turned my eyes away from them and saw Esme at my other side. She smiled with a pained yet relieved expression and leaned over me. She wrapped her arms around my torso and kissed my forhead, She pulled away keeping her hand on my back rubbing soothing circles into it.

Carlisle strode into the room and smiled at me with bright eyes. "Bella. You've had us worried." He walked behind his wife and wrapped his arms around her.

Glancing around at them there was only one thing on my mind. If they were all here maybe. . .

"Edward?" I whispered.

Everyone shifted and looked uncomfortable. Alice nodded to everyone and the silently filed out of the room. Only Alice stayed.

She moved and sat to sit on the edge of my bed. "You really scared us, Bella. What were you thinking? You promised Edward." She scolded me.

"Edward didn't come?" I should have known. He doesn't care whether I live or die. Tears welled up in my eyes and brimmed over the edge,

Alice paniced at the sight of my tears. "He doesn't know. . ." She said as if she was ashamed of not telling him.

First hurt surged through me but then gratefullness overtook it. I didn't want him to know that I was pathetic enough to try and die over him. I didn't want to see the pitying look he would likely give me.

"Bella, how could you try and take yourself from us? From Edward?" Alice said and hurt painted her words and covered her face.

"I saw you jump and then you disappeared. . . I thought you were dead!" She looked so hurt and then her shoulders began to shake with tearless sobs.

I reached my arm out and grabbed her hand pulling her into a hug. She wept dryly and I found myself weeping too. "I'm sorry, Alice. I couldn't stand. . . living without him anymore. . . I can't." She lay there for a few seconds more. The pain of why I had jumped in the first place surged through me again. Edward. I don't want to live without him. . . I want to die.

Alice's head shot up. "Bella! No!" I had hardly considered the idea and she had already saw a vision of it.

I knew then that they were going to make me live without him. I would have to go through every day of the rest of my life thinking about how much he didn't want me. I would picture him with other women. Laughing, loving, living life care free without so much as a thought about little Bella.

I was never enough for him and now I was going to be forced to live with that for rest of my time.

Hate turned towards Alice. She would see my decisions and stop them before I could carry out the deed that needed to be done.

I turned on my side and faced away from her. I could picture the pained look that crossed her face as I did this. But the hate for her over powered the guilt.

I closed my eyes and tried to find my way back to our meadow. Being with a fake Edward was a more attractive idea than living life without him completely. But the meadow was far from me. Instead, I slowly slipped into a night filled with horrifying dreams. Mostly consisting of Edward. Dreams that reminded me of his hate for me.

In the last one I had he was at the end of a tunnel. He grinned at me and I started to bound towards him. Then he laughed mockingly and turned away walking the opposite direction. I yelled his name begging for him to stop yet he only kept getting farther away.

Cold hands were on my shoulders shaking me. "Bella! Bella, stop!" I snapped back into reality and closed my mouth to stop the screams. My dreams had leaked and my yelling had broke through my lips.

Jasper stood over me with a tortured expression. The pain and fear that was pulsing through me must be killing him.

He sat back down with a very concerned expression. I stared at him for a fleeting moment before turning my face towards the ceiling.

" I can feel the hate you have towards us." He spoke quietly. "Because we won't let you die. . . we love you Bella."

Silent tears slid down my face because the family I once hoped to be mine had now betrayed me.

A/N

Wow, I love writing this story. Even though right now things are all so doom and gloom I'm hoping they'll take a turn for the better soon. Or not....=P

Please review or PM me and tell me what you think....I'm in need of a good confidence booster. . .please =D

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